why'd you say you love me?
was it to fuck with my head
just like I did yours?
cuz I don’t blame you love

a hundred dollars in booze
hundred dollars in blow
its some way to cope

I've been trying my best now
all this bullshit self care doesn’t help
I've been eating and sleeping well

I've tried it all
and I swear its impossible

I was up since friday
fucking up my head
just like I did yours
cuz I deserve it love

a hundred dollars in booze
hundred dollars in blow
its some way to cope

self care

being nice is cool!

do you pull your punches cuz you know that every word you say could break
every part of me that I've worked so hard to maintain
you got me right where you would want me if you wanted to break me
and fucking lay me out
for fuck's sake

it might seem good for me, love
but I worry that you're just not brave enough
to cut it all off so
what do I wait for?

there's no one else I'd rather spend my time with
we could go anywhere or drink wine and stay in
I'm not too great with words love
maybe destroying my voice is enough

there's no one else I'd rather spend my time with
we could go anywhere or drink wine and stay in
I'm not too great with words love
maybe destroying my voice is enough

fight club (brad pitt)

would you give a fuck if you knew how much my nose bleeds?
or if I mask the scent of liquor every time I speak
im hiding in my blood stained sheets

what the fuck have I done

I survive so alone now
I'm nothing but bones
I blow cartilage out of my nose
yeah you feel great but baby you're not her
fuck I feel everything but home

would you understand if I told you I was lonely
and I had to mask the sense with sex, drugs, something I need

you still text me every once in a while
I couldn’t ask for more
but I don’t wanna be oh so ground up
to show up at your door

I survive so alone now
I'm nothing but bones
I blow cartilage out of my nose
yeah you feel great but baby you're not her
fuck I feel everything but home

why you so far away?
how much time can I waste
waiting for some normalcy?

you still text me every once in a while
I couldn’t ask for more
but I don’t wanna be oh so ground up
to show up at your door
you still text me every once in a while
I couldn’t ask for more
but I don’t wanna be oh so ground up
to show up at your door

nosebleeds

when we popped tabs
did you think about it?
every single second lost in the process
cuz I know I did
couldn’t forget about it
and every little thing I said, I meant it
fuck that
you couldn’t ever want this
??
what the fuck do I lack for second thoughts and
didn’t think I did enough to deserve this

hey love
I don’t need any more friends
help me out here
was it something?
maybe, I dunno, im pathetic

cuz I still think about it
every single second lost in the process

I saw the little heart you sent when you said goodnight to me
I still have all your pictures and cards and love notes

we've been floating through the static
(thought this would help me find you)
just like spots on top the ceiling 
give me more I want that time back
(do you think you're being lied to?)
I keep soaking up the feeling
I still think about the seconds
(I hate how I have to fight you)
shuffle lightly to the ceiling
but the curtains never open
(to see I've tried)
I keep tacking on a meaning

poptabs

I'm destroying myself
and I'm glad you're not here to watch me
haven't showered in a week
and I'm railing lines of oxy

and all my friends would rather ignore it than deal with me
and that's fine cuz I know I've been breaking my mind
and that's nobody's problem but mine

I'm slowly killing myself
ah, fuck, I wish you were here to help me
has it already been two weeks?
I've been burning out my memory

fuck! 
fuck! :(

if I wanna kill the pain no one can stop me
I spent 300 bucks on snorting molly and oxy
now lover, I don’t feel a thing
fuck how crazy is that?

and all my friends would rather ignore it than deal with me
and that's fine cuz I know I've been breaking my mind
and that's nobody's problem but mine

when I'm ready to die I'll do it quietly
I'll go out in my sleep so I don’t care who'd miss me
something broke in my mind the night you left me
and nobody's problem but mine

you don’t give a damn
what I been doing lately
leave all my texts on read
just to drive me crazy
you don’t give a damn
what I been doing lately
leave all my texts on read
just to drive me crazy
you don’t give a damn
what I been doing lately
leave all my texts on read
just to drive me crazy
you don’t give a damn
what I been doing lately
leave all my texts on read
just to drive me crazy

limes

we were on our way back from stratford
something like a date
something that I planned out
cuz I knew you were thinking of leaving me
you had you feet out the window
and I had a problem with it
cuz if we got pulled over
my exhaust leak would fuck up our day

I tore your whole life away
I switched up on everything you thought I could be

I can't help but think that
maybe something could change
if I could renew my license
if you weren't leaving for maine

its so fucking frustrating
shit always lines up that way

I tore your whole life away
I switched up on everything you thought I could be
I hate that I love you more than anything
when I that I cant be the man you thought I could be

stratford

don’t blame you for running
cuz im making every worry
and im seeing everything as a problem
you'd live doubting every moment
never knowing if im lying
and I know I don’t wanna put you through that
its so cold

I had everything I wanted
and I broke it all for nothing
cuz every fucking part of me pulled away
like a fucked up kind of torture
way strung out and feeling awful
you picked up all of my habits but wont stay

don’t blame you for running
cuz im making every worry
and im seeing everything as a problem
you'd live doubting every moment
never knowing if im lying
and I know I don’t wanna put you through that
its so cold

lover
I know you've find a way to cope
I hope not like how I did though

i'm going insane, does anybody need anything?

I've been hiding the sun
it's way too fucking bright
another day to waste in bed
another night to drink, to snort more shit
to think of every word you said

I am shit

all I had left to lose was you
so what's stopping me
from doing all the drugs I can do?
I get my last paycheque on Friday
I wont spend any of it food
how long can I survive?
and how much fucking booze can I buy?
I hope enough to break my mind
fuck this life

$600 ain't shit to chad warden

I swear this shit's all the same
im running out of space babe
but not when you're holding me
you could take it all away

the fact you stayed with me so long will always amaze me
it'd be so easy to replace me
with someone not in the habit to drink daily
with so much suffering to get in the way

I cut my hair and dye it
I go 180 down the high way
im ashamed I kinda like it
being self-destructive and reckless

fuck sleep fuck food
I don’t care about the time spent wasted
where would I bother to run away to
if I didn’t have you?

fuck it I'll grow my hair long
fall asleep in the sun
numb my problems to black
bury me on your front lawn
til I swan dive off the bridge street bridge
and think about every minute I wasted

I swear this shit's all the same
im running out of space babe
but not when you're holding me
you could take it all away

the fact you stayed with me so long will always amaze me
it'd be so easy to replace me
with someone not in the habit to drink daily
with so much suffering to get in the way

fuck sleep fuck food
I don’t care about the time spent wasted
where would I bother to run away to
if I didn’t have you?

fight club (brad pitt)

seaglass