produced by my boy: dercept

lyrics:

(when life gives u lemons yea just make some lemonade 
im still hurting everyday but im still smiling thru the pain
and I keep my circle small got zero time for the fakes 
if u coming at my friends then get the fuck out my face)

when life gives u lemons yea u make some lemonade 
im still hurting everyday but im still smiling thru the pain
and I keep my circle small got zero time for the fakes 
if u coming at my friends then get the fuck out my face

and ur not even mine but still the one i serenade,
I been way too fuckin blurry I got hit by novocaine 
cherry red on my shirt I took a shot right to the face
but I always keep it moving so jus get out of my way yeah 

get out my way
im in a bad mood
whats new? 
fuck this
walk away if I have to
I fuckin miss school
hide away in the bathroom 
like this, fuck you
just a girl with tattoos

and like I told u yea I always keep it movin,
and I love to hear u talk girl yea ur voice is kinda soothin ♡
if he want smoke baby
yea u know I keep a toothpick
on my waistband like some gucci
cut his tongue out cus im ruthless
if u need anything hit me 
yeah u know right where my room is 
I dont fuck around w fake friends
cut em off like Freddy Krueger
fuck your ex boyfriend 
if I see him, leave him toothless
show him he cant train the dragon
then tail whip right on my scooter yea 

when life gives u lemons yea u make some lemonade 
im still hurting everyday but im still smiling thru the pain
and I keep my circle small got zero time for the fakes 
if u coming at my friends then get the fuck out my face

and ur not even mine but still the one i serenade,
I been way too fuckin blurry I got hit by novocaine 
cherry red on my shirt I took a shot right to the face
but I always keep it moving so jus get out of my way yeah

novocaine (dercept)

produced by: @jolst & @remghost
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics:

i dont like you, 
and I haven't for a minute
talking shit on twitter but these pussies never with it yea
right thru, see your heart and now im grinning,
addicted to the violence only care bout fuckin winning yea 
stay there ill be right back in a minute
gotta shut this kid up two black blades you know im twinning yea
slice you, now theres blood all on the ceiling 
maybe that'll stop it but who the fuck am I kidding

thats life tho
i’m prone to lose it, watch my eyes glow
running rings around these pussies on a tight rope 
blacked out, ur no king of a castle
I fuckin hate that flowrs guy he seems like an asshole

i be touring 
doing 60 in a foreign
couple years I swear I got it 
I dont even need to talk and I 

think I saw it in my dreams when I was snoring 
now its so close I can floor it
shawty love me but she not my type

she be callin
at 4,5,6 in the morning
but you'll never see me answer
tell that bitch she gotta wait in line

on my flex shit all these pussies they be texting 
but they'll never fuckin touch me swear to god I put that on my life

on my life, but I bet they still try tho
pussy see me he gon blame it on a typo,
think I need to chill out or just fight more
what am I so full of this rage all times of night for?

i dont like you, 
and I haven't for a minute
talking shit on twitter but these pussies never with it yea
right thru, see your heart and now im grinning,
addicted to the violence only care bout fuckin winning yea 
stay there ill be right back in a minute
gotta shut this kid up two black blades you know im twinning yea
slice you, now theres blood all on the ceiling 
maybe that'll stop it but who the fuck am I kidding
that’s life tho

imperial (jolst & remghost)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

PRODUCED BY TAURS AND JOLST 

usendflowrs: 

will you call home, just call home my visions clouded
wanna tear off my face when i think about it
x2

your love fills my health bar, can’t live without it
i’m low hearts, you’re cold i would never doubt it 
a lost soul in that cold, and never found it 
your personality lies in that cold snow 
she said she kinda scared
she want me to walk her home 
jus carry me thru everything
and please don’t let me go 
she a witch, she curse the medicine
i take when i’m alone 
she wanna lay me down 
and kiss me 
take my soul and watch me go 

nevermadeithome:

and i cant believe that i didnt see this 
she poisoned the apple when i eat it 
i cant read her books they make me speechless
one flick of her hair shes so reckless 

she'll eat your heart alive 
she gets her voodoo doll 
with a needle and she pokes me in the eye 
now ive gone fuckin blind 
i hope this is the last time 
that she conjures up a potion 
& im praying its the elixer of life x2

i kinda want you bad
but i know that youre no good for me 
youre just being sad so i fall for you
i kinda want you bad 
but i know that you’re no good for me 
and you’re just being sad so i fall for-

sendflowrs & nevermadeithome:

in that cold snow 
she said she kinda scared
she want me to walk her home 
jus carry me thru everything
and please don’t let me go 
she a witch, she curse the medicine
i take when i’m alone 
she wanna lay me down 
and kiss me 
take my soul and watch me go
x2

winterfell w/ nevermadeithome (taurs x jolst)

via @universalchill
prod jolst x viera
music video: https://youtu.be/J9w6bF2pk90

go home,
go home 
out the cold
i feel so cold 
so cold
i just wanna keep you warm
but you lay in the dirt
in the dirt

n jus go home 
go home 
out the heat 
i am so hot 
so hot
i need your helping hand but u just let me burn
let me burn 

and this happens like every fucking autumn 
baby let the leaves fall down on my coffin 
i’ll make u a coffee when i leave in the morning 
the morning 

im fuckin geeked up when u be callin
i’m sorry that i slur i know u just don’t want it
i can’t help myself bein sober 2 boring 2 boring 

ima sleep in a little bit don’t hit my phone up
it’s not like i’m hurting anybody out here

i cancel all my plans and just cut the cord cus i need two 20’s for my head to feel clear

talkin bout 20’s i jus pop and pop them 
i know it’s not cool but im already here

i need a pretty girl to just cock her shotgun
and evaporate my heart 
i don’t wanna be here 

n i can’t make the music if the energy ain’t right 

n i can’t focus up unless there TR in my sprite 

i pour the pinewood till my chest don’t feel so tight 

2 fucked up u can’t kill me twice

think my heart just caved in 
i’m thinking bout all the time that i jus wasted
texting u but i don’t get a reply
like no way

i’m just a waste of space and
even with this music i don’t think i’ll make it
i’m spilling all my guts on this stupid
fucking iphone notes page 
x2

tarnished (jolst x viera)

track 2 
prod speedlmt 
mixed + mastered by me 

and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony 

ive killed 3 men for u my love
and i would kill again 
i’ve seen so many people run
i wipe my tears and repent 
and u tell me 
that i will be just fine 
but i wont 
unless you come here 
i promise i wont hurt u
and u tell me that i’m evil
i said i know
i’m obsessed with ur perfume

 and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony

killer, pt2 (speedlmt)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

produced by jolst
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

produced by: @everythingmackk


and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her 

and i broke loose
for you <3 
all the shit i did, 
i swear i had to do
split me in two
and i’ll play the fool
as long as u pick up 
when im calling you 

and i swear i would do about anything u asked 
what u want
we can hit the town and try to make it back
i’m so drunk ! 
she pulls me closer says there’s something i gotta ask
i said go, 
you can tell me girl i promise i wont laugh
she said 
“boy i think i’m falling for you,
don’t think i can mask
things i feel any longer
so please ask what u gotta ask”
i was shocked,
now my heart was pulsing, felt it in my hands
was this real?
or am i dreaming 
either way, i’m gonna stay right here 

and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her

to those before, and to those after (mackk)

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

please don’t step on my heart 
i’ve been over and over this
many times before 
please don’t get out my car 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart 

call my bluff, we play cards 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve 
i can’t ever recall
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me 

and those cold eyes make me panic
what do you want 
i can’t manage 
and those bright red lips 
make me vanish
what do you want with me 

stop the crying and the shouting, im sorry 
but maybe you’re better off
i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me
i’ll do anything no matter the cost

cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming
ever since you were the one i lost
i can’t be here without you, im dying
one kiss will finish me off 

please don’t step on my heart (stop the crying and the shouting i’m sorry)
i’ve been over and over this
many times before (but maybe you’re better off)
please don’t get out my car (i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me) 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart (i’ll do anything no matter the cost)

call my bluff, we play cards (cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming) 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve (ever since you were the one i lost) 
i can’t ever recall (i can’t be here without you, im dying)
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me (one kiss will finish me off)

banshee (wisssery)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

i needa go to work my girl if u hear me now 
i’ll be back at 6
make u food if u want it 
woke up in a good mood 
but shortly after lost it 
this table and this screen 
keep me in like a coffin 
at my 9-5 way too high to be conscious 
broke another streak
i feel bad for my sponsors
need to put this bottle down
head spinnin like a comet
2 litre sprite
pinewood then cherry drop it 

like run your diagnostics 
on my friends 
anythin u want girl
i’ll buy it 
can’t afford a prada bag
so i rolled this 10 
will u hold me down when i get indicted
pass the gas to my homie only smoke fire
hold the knife in my hand and i get excited 
pass the gas to my baby yea she light it
she put flowers on the grave that i’m inside inside in

and it’s like lately
idk, i can’t explain 
i been - 
ugh

i mean, like lately,
i been low once again 
i feel like things are starting to fall into place
then they slip and i drop them 
they smash like a vase
always just a fuck up 
yea i cannot explain
why do i always think people want me this way
then they cut and they stitch n they try change my shape
i pop pills n im lazy 
the fuck can i say
either take me 
or leave me 
stop playing this game 
i’m a person i deserve to be loved and- 

tf am i sayin 
just pass me a 30 n get out my way 
i’ve gone cold through these years that you’ve shredded my brain 
what’s a life without fighting 
feel fuckin insane
did you see how he fell when i hit him again 
i got blood on my hands wash it off in the rain
i can’t make a fist or hold my phone a few days 
but i promise that pussy won’t try it again
all i need in this life is some weed and a pen

i’ll be back at six (nevrfall)

[thank you for riding with SEMTEX, mr cook. 
we hope you enjoy your time with us. 
in the event of an emergency please try to remain calm. we will do everything we can to resolve the issue and keep you safe.

approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

[you have arrived at a depth of 5600 metres. please ensure all diving gear is safely fastened. please also ensure that you close both doors behind you to prevent flooding.”

on my own
and my bones 
are so cold
in this hole
and god knows
im not prone
to good news
so i’ll hope 

that when i step up to this entrance
i’ll cross my fingers
take 3 pills i need my medicine
feel heavy and i’m sweating
this fuckin place gon be the death of me
i think the diver team was right when they said 
“anything you do
just stay away from this” 

and this water is so cold
oh my god
i feel dizzy
and my oxygen is low 
wait what the fuck
was that noise
deep in this bowl
i’m looking up
and i can’t see 
it’s too dark 
and i hear footsteps to my left
behind me, the door shuts 

and it’s strange
cus i’m in the water
but feel like i can breathe way better than before
so i take off my mask, walk and look around
at the back of the cave theres a wooden door
what the fuck is this place 
turn around and go to leave
but the way that i came in is not there anymore
then i hear the door open
so i turn around
and i felt my cold heart fall out and hit the floor 

what the fuck is this place 
what the fuck is this place 

[EMERGENCY. EMERGENCY. SOMETHING HAS SEVERED THE OXYGEN SUPPLY. PLEASE DO NOT PANIC. WE HERE AT SEMTEX ARE DOING EVERYTHING WE CAN TO KEEP YOU ALIVE.]

there’s something in here (jolst)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

produced by my brother wisssery 

was saving this one for an album but i need to drop more singles so here u go 


this armour has become a coffin 
i drop to my knees and hear nothing 
this great sword is holding me up
as i look down at my chest
see arrows; i’m coughing 
up blood, and i’m feeling so nauseas  
this battle was ours and we lost it 
i promise that when i return 
to the kingdom of god
i’ll be clear of my conscience 

don’t wanna see the king, i can’t save shit 
and i’m not half the man that your grace is 
so i wipe off my steel plates
plan to get away
i’ll return 
in april or may, then 

once again i’ll walk this pavement 
with my helmet in hand and impatience 
and this time i wont go away
i will face the knight
that is standing 
at those wooden gates, and 

wooden gates 
i lift my shield
and i embrace
the next 25 seconds
is the end of my fate
so i brace, mace in my hand
need a brave face 
and it’s been years 
since i held a blade
gotta vacate 
with my family’s crest on my back
and my hands cold 
i will dance with the devil
in this kingdom of coal
don’t send for me
after this
leave me alone 
in the trees 
with the animals
and the sharp thorns 

and i know i’m not the one you want
but i’ll be right here incase you want me
i’ve always been strong and can swing steel battle axes but one look from you baby 
it dropped me
i’ve spent so many nights
with just me and my horse
sat thinking of small subtle ways i could copy
the knight that you lusted so long for
will meet his match soon
god will strike that man down if it’s not me

steelplate (wisssery)

produced by 🦠 homesick x jolst 

uh, i feel it x 6262662

she say slow down
goin too fast
for my liking
please don’t do that
she can’t take it 
got a new man
ima break him 

she don’t want no fun or want no drama
she got eyes just like her mama 
and a rage and vile temper just like hades 

she say she say baby please don’t do that
friends all hate her, rushi sunak
drop 2 bills on a half a set, and now im shakin

haven’t popped a pill or sipped a litre
since last year, im livin cleaner
got a baby on the way, and now i’m chasin 

chasin the bag
fell off last year, how tf i do that
had this whole shit in the palm of my hand
i got too lazy, took eyes off the plan 
let u boys win now i’m finally back
scene wants some drama, sendflowrs ur man
indirect tweets go and work on your jab 
fuckin cokeheads go and put down the bag
i hit the gym, smoke a blunt and i’m grand :)
dropped out of uni, got tired of that 
quit my old job, i got tired of that
listening to bullshit, got tired of that
jolst and homesick, on the beat make it slap

uh x 5262662

hades (jolst + homesick)

and it’s cold, i got snow on my coat 
backstrap stars, i don’t wanna go home 
phone screen blinds me when u call 
im jus too fucked up, beg you leave me alone 

bape bag i got ash on my clothes 
smokin on runtz, don’t put shit up my nose
accuse me everytime that we talk 
but when we link ur the one that covers your phone 

i promise i don’t care 
i promise i don’t give a fuck 
i’m chillin smokin w my friends 
i don’t need you to show me love 
and when you see me out in town
or even on the bus
don’t ever try to chat to me
you made your bed 
so lay there, stuck 

and they said bro did you see the shit she put on insta
she’s got a new boy, he’s literally in the picture with her 
i walk these streets with double blades like i’m a fuckin witcher 
while ur all scrolling on the gram i’m w my team we gettin richer

witcher

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

starlight (feat. nevermadeithome + blaidd) (prod. flesh + jolst)

drops on all platforms - friday 13th june 💫

produced by: @prodjolst
featuring: @ripskele

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it 

[skele]
i pray that someone take me home 
im not seeing right 
im mixing pills into my drink
so i can sleep tonight 
god i know u make me sore 
i don’t need reminded 
fucking kicking down that door
didn’t try to hide it
pouring up this drank 
into my cup gon make it worse 
i can’t even speak 
fuck up this check 
so it don’t hurt
put this metal to my brain 
go afk 
i’m making sure
hope i forget about ur face 
i pop this k 
like its a cure

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it

tired w/ skele (jolst)

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2

blame the pavement (mackk)

produced by @nevermadeithome & @prodjolst ✨ 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please 

and stay happy cus you’re moving tomorrow
so pack up all those mugs
return the books that you borrowed
it’s a double edged sword i know there’s some sorrow
but your dad’ll be fine
i know it sucks but you gotta go
5 nights on the road with a carload 
on the way to BC just avoid all the potholes
when you’re in your tent all alone with a bottle
and you’re lookin up at stars
i hope you know that your moms right there 

when you’re down baby please will you tell me?
i’ve been gone lately, i know it doesn’t help things 
don’t feel bad girl it’s not your cross to carry
i’m under mud from the weight that ive buried
you’re honestly fucking pretty damn amazing
a lots changed but i’ve always said the same things
“its not fate” i tell myself, then it kills me
you honestly will never know how much youve helped me :( 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please

canada (nevermadeithome x jolst)

produced by jolst 🦠 
featuring heylog

i won’t stay with you
won’t stay with you
cus i’m not good enough 
i won’t pray for you
won’t pray for you
i’ll cry as i’m burning up
don’t say it’s you
won’t say it’s you
it’s me, you’re not cold enough 
i won’t lay with you
won’t lay with you
take me, i’m the one you want 

and my lock screen
has your face on
can i rest here babe
i won’t stay long
sorry we’re toxic
it’s not me love
had it but i dropped it
now i wake up 
in the middle of the night 
scream “where the fuck the day gone”
i know that im ugly
so ill scratch until my face gone
i know i got problems
i know i got serious like - 
i know i got problems 
i know i got serious like - 

heylog:
wake up and do the same damn thing
got my face fixed n skin dont sting
i feel a lot better
skin just kept getting redder
im always lookin around
and im so paranoid now
all the sudden i stopped feelin safe
pack it up to a smaller town
burn it all down
burn it all
i hope youre proud
i hope it
burn it all down
burn it all
wont be around
wont be nah

i won’t stay with you
won’t stay with you
cus i’m not good enough 
i won’t pray for you
won’t pray for you
i’ll cry as i’m burning up
don’t say it’s you
won’t say it’s you
it’s me, you’re not cold enough 
i won’t lay with you
won’t lay with you
take me, i’m the one you want

burn w/ heylog (jolst)

context: this is the original version of nickisgonenow’s “there was blood on the floor underneath u” but we had a falling out, and it resulted in him taking me off the song before release 

nick passed away recently; fortunately for me, i was able to squash our issues long before that happened, and we were once again on good terms, he was a super talented person, and seeing the success this song would go on to gain never once bothered me (which is weird because i’m naturally a super jealous person) and i think that’s because i knew he had a banger on his hands, i remember when he first sent me this open and it shook my whole house on the speakers, i lost my mind. this song is perfect as it was without me squeezed on at the end, and i knew it 

nevertheless, any work i have with nick is now public on my profile, he was a character and a super talented person that i had the honour of working with 

i miss ya nick, and i hope whatever greets us after death is treating you well

my verse lyrics: 

and there was blood underneath you
dripping down from your nose 
wanna cry? baby me too 
and i just wanted to see you
bad day, feel ashamed
i just wanted a redo
i don’t feel it
i’m too fucked up to see you
out of my league
all these girls they wanna be you
down another bottle throw my sorrows in the back room
standing in the mirror
say “i love you”, you don’t have to 

__________

beat by: @nickisgonenow
featuring: @nickisgonenow
u the goat nick fr

underneath you w/ NICKISGONENOW (prod. NICKISGONENOW)

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

sendflowrs

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