Produced by https://soundcloud.com/livingpuffy

lyrics:
I love you but you fucking haunt me 
I don't know why you had to rob me 
I love you but you fucking haunt me 
You stole everything that I ever loved 
Left me with pain never feeling enough 
Why did you do this to me 
Why did you ruin me 
You broke me into tiny little pieces 
But the world would never know 
Because you don't want me to show 

You destroyed me 
Are you happy now
Push me to the ground 
But you seem so damn proud 
Body exhausted and I’m so afraid 
I hate the way you took my life away 

Closed off from the world 
My mind in a constant swirl 
I'm stuck in a drought and i can’t get out 
No one ever hears me when I scream and shout 
Pages filled with so many thoughts 
It hurts so bad and I need it to stop 

I love you but you fucking haunt me 
Ghosts of my past but at least they want me 
They come to my dreams, no they don’t bring peace 
A nightmare it must be 
I was so young I just wanted your love 
I just wanted to be good enough 
Why wasn't I ever good enough

i love you but you haunt me (prod. LIVING PUFF)

Outlaw

Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

regret

Sleeps X - Rear View

lampost lights w/ never

reuploading, this song will never be up for profit it just means a lot and i love it <3


lyrics:

writing alone 
in my room yet again
never thought i’d be 
back in this bed
always fuxk it up 
and lose my friends
you left me broken again
open my heart, maybe you’d see
who i really want to be 
this time
feeling so blue
maybe i’m not meant for you

i really wanna be the one for you
baby i’ll just keep making tunes
all about the times we shared
i hope you actually cared 

oni boy:
black blood dripping on my finger tips
baby i be saying words but you ain’t hearing it 
you shut me out now we won’t talk again 
baby i’m in love with you so i’m not fucking standing it
i can’t fucking take the shit 
i’m staying in the pit
my broken bones can’t get me out im suffocating
my life’s fading 
this life your taking
baby i can’t breathe i just convulse and start shaking

ichorus:

i really wanna be the one for you
baby i’ll just keep making tunes
all about the times we shared
i hope you actually cared 

decks:

i just want you to care for me
i been needing some clarity 
baby things aren’t actually 
what they really seem 
i been staying up all night 
looking for the northern lights 
i jsut really need a sign
that i’ll be alright

Cared + Oni Boy & Decks (Noria)

prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0jK0w2f_rlzx4IY8RoBMCw

im sorry :/

5521 (prod. nevrfall)

lyrics

sorry, the number u have called is unavailable at the moment, 
please leave a message at the tone

hey uh, so
I'm calling cus I
I saw what u posted today
and I can't just can't do this at all anymore
I don't know what made you think it's okay to just
fuck my best friend like that but
we're done
n uh, you're not gonna see me anymore
bye

I've got a feeling that sits in my soul
to fight thru the pain
to let it all go
of all the blood I bled
I know there's more to give
n I can't taste the ash
I know u slept with him
if I could I would forget u
here's a list of everything u said that wasn't tru
God damn I'm gonna miss u
but I wish I never met u

I wish that this could be
one of the last songs I write about u
but we can both see
that this is gonna take a bit of time 

I remember freaking out cus I got sober 
I remember dates we set for late October
but we had to wait till it was over
where u at?
I'm smoking out the back
two packs and friends wanna get a bag
ride fast, crash a car n fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse, yeah
lock myself inside my house
I keep it down
cus I'm trying not to cry loud
it's all ash, but I gotta clean the bong out
two hits n I'm gonna put the knife down
yeah

does it cut u when i say that i don't want u around?
ur in my head but I still tend to keep my ear to the ground
n I swear
it gets so overwhelming 
time flying past 
but it feels like last week

n what do I say when I can't breathe?
what do I say to make this pain cease?
I'm all choked up n I can't think
what can I say to make this okay?
I hope u hear one of my songs
but u don't know so u sing along 
till u look down, see my name so
u say: "oh shit, what have I done?"

we're sorry, u have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service
go fuck urself

Salem Pt. 2 (5head)

VERLOKA - Я побудую дім

New single "Cancer (I've been gone)"
Inspired by those hopeless feelings during the battle of cancer and other health issues
I love you and i hope you recover strong and fast

(Lyrics)
I’ve been gone for so long 
Everything just went wrong 
I’ve been gone for so longt
I can’t keep holding on 
My own body is my enemy 
The cancers eating away at me
My own body is my enemy 
I guess there’s just no hope for med

The doctors say I only have a week 
Got my bucket list but it’s incomplete 
Its getting hard to stand on my feet
Is there any hope for me?
Should I write that letter to my mom
Say I was sorry all along 
I guess I’ll put it in this song 
So you can hear it when I’m gone

Prod. Yungspoiler
Mixed by Yago

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