FOR ETERNITY 2

The strings hum soft in the glowing air
A rhythm pulses like a heartbeat rare
The keys cascade like a gentle stream
An endless melody
A wordless dream

The song with no words

Missing You is an emotional song about longing and heartache after losing someone special. The lyrics express deep sorrow, memories, and the emptiness left behind. With a soft melody and touching vocals, the song captures the pain of absence while holding on to love that still lingers despite the distance.

Missing you

A new version of this song I've been working on recently. The music is based on a guitar track I made in 2000. The lyrics are new. It's a blues rock song with a bit of a country feeling. I hope you like it!

Lyrics © Señor Barends

Ah, I wish it was easy, baby, I wish I could let it all go
Now that you’ve been gone, so many days in a row
Each one feelin’ slower than the last
Just me alone, reflectin' on the past

I wish it came easy, darlin’, lettin’ go like you did that night  
Now I stare at the clock, countin’ slow until first daylight  
You walked like it cost nothin’ to burn it all down  
While I dug through the ashes, tryin’ not to drown  

I tried my best, yeah, I tried to show you so much love 
But all I had to give, darlin', just wasn't enough 
Time to let it go, gotta let it all go, but how, I don't know 
Lord, I don't know! 
Oh, whoa, I don't know!

Maybe it wasn't intended
Maybe it wasn’t all pretended
I know I made mistakes
Or did time change us into strangers again?
Now that you’re gone, how can I move on
If I don’t know!
Oh, whoa, I don't know!

That bed still dips where you used to lay, I lie there, but I'm miles away 
Every picture's down, but the wall still aches, time is the cure, that's what it takes 
So I let that needle spin another round, say your name, just to hear the sound

I poured out my love till the bottle ran dry  
But whatever I gave, baby, still passed you by  
Time to let it go, gotta let it all go, but how, I don't know
Lord, I don't know! 
Oh, whoa, I don't know!

I don’t know… I don’t know…
Whoa… I don’t know…

Time to Let it Go

Soul Gospel Love Emotional
Lyrics song by Sas 

From the Playlist-Gospel 

-My Dad Was Superman

[Verse]
He wore no cape just a coat of pride
A gentle giant with love as his guide
He’d lift me up when the skies were gray
My Superman in every way

[Verse 2]
His laughter lit the darkest night
A steady hand through every fight
I thought he'd always be by my side
But even heroes can't always abide

[Chorus]
My dad was Superman he could do no wrong
Carried the world like he carried me along
I believed in him like a child believes
Now I hold his memory close and grieve

[Bridge]
He got ill but I held on tight
Still saw his strength in the fading light
His spirit soared though his body stayed
A hero’s heart never truly fades

[Verse 3]
Now I see him in the morning sun
In the little things he’s never gone
His lessons live in the man I’ve become
I carry his love I’m never alone

[Chorus]
My dad was Superman he could do no wrong
Carried the world like he carried me along
I believed in him like a child believes
Now I hold his memory close and grieve

My_Dad_Was_Superman ( extended version )

[Verse 1]
A wanting flame impatient and alive
licking at shadows where secrets hide
dusk dripping red across the sky
heartbeats cracked open pushing against the tide

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands that grip like a wildfire’s breath
an ache that dances near death

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

[Verse 2]
The heat catches on eager spurs
a body arched a spine backed to a wall
wild and aching lungs full of breath
we’re ready to sear and make sparks collide

[Pre-Chorus]
A heart draped in passion’s impatience
lovers melting where their embers hide

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

[Bridge]
When the air runs out we breathe in heat
spin into the blaze—no surrender no retreat
born from the spark undone in a flash
we burn together—only red turns to ash

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

Caught in the Riptide by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I remember skipping class
Fifteen and feeling free
Ben McKinney, Logan Glass
Do those guys remember me?
Roll a blunt dipped in honey
Tell a joke, shit you’re funny

[Pre-Chorus]
I feel on top of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Verse 2]
By nineteen, flashing lights
Little pills of ecstasy
Danced all night, lost my sight
Cash was gone so easily
Lines and bumps in bathroom stalls
Chasing highs that break the fall

[Pre-Chorus]
Still feel on top of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Chorus]
Like I’m walking on white sand
And the water looks so kind
So I dive in, head and hands
But it chills me to the spine

[Main Hook]
Losing sight of the shoreline
Treading water to survive
I’m about to lose my life
‘Cause I’m caught in the riptide

[Verse 3]
Then came nights with no more light
Plumes of white in darkened rooms
Needles in the quiet fight
Sealing shadows to my doom
Light it up, bodies shaking
Shoot it up, future breaking

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m on the edge of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Bridge]
By the water, walls came down
First time I could speak my heart
Little boy lost his ground
When his family fell apart
Big brother gone, abuse and lies
Divorce that burned through all my skies

[Final Hook]
I was sinking, I was fading
Nothing left to hold on to
Then I reached for something steady
And it pulled me back to you

[Transition]
Now I’m standing in the sun
With a love that pulled me through
All that pain became the waves
That carried me to you

[Final Chorus]
Now I’m walking on white sand
And the water feels so nice
So I dive in, head and hands
And it warms me deep inside

[Outro]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

Treading water to survive

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

I was caught in the riptide

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

But with you, I’m alive 

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Instrumental Outro]

Caught in the Riptide

NORTHERN LIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I saw the Northern Lights last night
Slicing the sky like birds in flight
The sun goes down, the shine departs
Half a year of endless dark
If you were here, I wouldn’t complain,
But I walk alone on this frozen lane.

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty town don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.
(Oooooh oooooh)

[Chorus]
Just us two was all I knew
Now I’m still here, but half of me’s you
Win or lose, I can’t undo
The life we had, just me and you
(Oooooh oooooh)

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mountains split in two
But nothing broke me like losing you.
The earth can shake, the sky can fall
Saying goodbye’s the hardest blow of all
When sorrow calls, I can’t confide
I only whisper to the other side

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the fire, through the unknown
I stumble on, but I’m alone
Your hand once held me, your love the flame
Now I cry and call your name (mmm)

[Chorus]
Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

[Bridge]
The colors rise where the shadows go
Green and violet, the heavens glow
I search the stars for a sign of your face
A fleeting spark in the vast of space

[Outro]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty house don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

[whistling]

Northern Lights

Woke up tangled in these sheets again, your laying next to me, 
I watch every breath you breathe 
Memories like whiskey burning slow, emotions I can't forget.  
I told myself I'd walk away, leave the fire where it lay,  
But your voice creeps in like midnight rain, pulling me back to that day


I'm fighting wars inside my head, losing ground with every word unsaid,  
Heart's a prisoner in this endless game, baby, baby, im calling out your name.

  
Oh, tears they surely flow, your arms, they won't let me go,  
Drowning in the waves of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking, trying to find my way,  
But your hold's like thunderclouds, stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul,  
Tell me how to heal when I'm losing control.
 

Late nights staring at the ceiling cracks, your laughter fades but never dies,  
I built these walls to keep you out, but they crumble with your alibis.  
Promised I'd be stronger now, turn the page and take a bow,  
Yet here I am, replaying scenes, caught in what we could've been.

 
I'm chasing storms that never end, bending rules I can't defend,  
Soul's a battlefield, scarred and torn, wishing I was never born.

 
Oh, tears they surely flow, your arms, they won't let me go,  
Drowning in the waves of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking, trying to find my way,  
But your hold's like thunderclouds, stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul,  
Tell me how to heal when I'm losing control.

  
Maybe one day I'll rise above, learn to trust and find real love,  
No more chains, no more lies, just me under clearer blue skies.  
But tonight, I'm still here, whispering my fears into the mirror,  
Hoping dawn will set me free, from this shattered symphony.

 
Oh, tears they surely flow (flow), your arms, they won't let me go (let me go),  
Drowning in the waves (in the waves) of what we used to know.  
I'm breaking, shaking (shaking), trying to find my way (find my way),  
But your hold's like thunderclouds stealing light from the day.  
Heart is broken, echoing through my soul (through my soul),  
I'll learn to heal, yeah, and let you go, I'll (let you go), I will (let you go)



Tell Me How To Heal

Ruth Langmore – I Don't Belong (but I'm still here) v. Blues Rock – Ozark..VERY BAD GIRL!  From the Netflix series Ozark. My favorite character!

Verse 1
I grew up with the river mud, Ozark blood in my veins
Daddy taught me how to fight, but he never taught me shame
Trailer walls too thin to hide the thunder when he’d roar
So I learned to wear my armor before I knew what it was for

Pre-Chorus
They said I was trash, I’d never rise above
But I built my own fire out of ashes and love

Chorus
I don’t belong in your country clubs
I don’t belong in your boardroom suits
I don’t belong in your clean white lies
But I still belong to the truth

You can break me down, you can lock that door
But you’ll hear my voice forever more
I don’t belong, but I’m still here
Ruth Langmore

Verse 2
Books I stole from the library, words they never taught in school
Every page I read was gasoline on a spark they couldn’t rule
Men with guns and southern drawls, money washed in blood and fear
But I kept my backbone steady, ‘cause quitting ain’t in gear

Pre-Chorus]
They said I was cursed, but I rewrote the lines
Turned my pain into bullets, turned my scars into signs

Chorus
I don’t belong in your country clubs
I don’t belong in your boardroom suits
I don’t belong in your clean white lies
But I still belong to the truth

You can break me down, you can lock that door
But you’ll hear my voice forever more
I don’t belong, but I’m still here
Ruth Langmore

Bridge
Raise a glass for the ones they doubt
Raise a fist for the ones locked out
We are the storm that they can’t ignore
We are the Ruths, we are the roar

Final Chorus / Outro
I don’t belong in your country clubs
I don’t belong in your boardroom suits
But I belong to the fight I choose
And I belong to the truth

You can write me off, but I wrote this song
I’ve been the underdog all along
I don’t belong, but I’m still here
Ruth Langmore

I Don’t Belong (Ruth Langmore from Ozark) v  Blues – VERY BAD GIRL!

NEVER TURNING BACK

It's my passion to make quality songs using all resources available to me. As a music enthusiast I'm interested in many different genres. 

My music production process is a blend of traditional songwriting and cutting-edge AI. 

It all starts with the human touch: I craft the lyrics and song structures myself, sometimes accompanied by music I recorded or composed.

From these foundational elements, I then bring the songs to life using synthetic voices and musicians. 

A key aspect of my creative flow is "jamming" with what I call "personas", distinct AI voices and styles that offer consistent character and sound. 

My roots in music stretch back to the 1970s, when I was a drummer boy in the local harmony. 

The 1990s marked a pivotal moment with the advent of MIDI, opening up new avenues for instrumental composition. 

The early 2000s saw me dive deep into Digital Audio Workstations (DAWs), and during that time, I also picked up the guitar. 

Since 2024, integrating AI into my workflow has been a transformative experience. 

It has unlocked unprecedented creative possibilities, providing access to a vast array of virtuoso vocalists and instruments, from intricate acoustic guitar arrangements to full orchestras.