sleep 2020

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lost boy by ruth b

A free track to celebrate Youth and Life. 

Sample: Endless Love 

 Spotify Album: https://open.spotify.com/album/6STwjBCu3CTEViSxJChKlV
 Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/eternal-youth/id1268684742﻿

Bandcamp: https://rudemn.bandcamp.com/track/eternal-youth




Artwork by "J. Friaça"

J. Friaça: http://imgur.com/a/wbJjN

Eternal Youth

Smashed this track out with my friend
Check him out, 100% back.
https://soundcloud.com/sfweeb

Lyrics:
(Chorus)

I can't be there
Be there
I can't be there for you.
(x4)

(Rivilin)

two eyes to the shallow grave,
don’t come no I can’t be saved
remedies for sleep, remedies for ache
everything I do ending up in pain 

shaking on the ground
breathing in my brain
everyday I day die every time I wake
don’t know where I am, hoping I am sane
linger here a bit wasting out the day

I don’t want to be here I don’t want to see this
you don’t want to see me, I don’t want to hear this
bring it back to me, bring it back to us
everything we say turning into to lust

everything we could have seen, everything we could have been
everything about us, everything I don’t say
I’m the stains you scrape off the wall
I’m the one who’s just lost it all

that person in the mirror I see
hates you as much as I hate me
it’s that person in the corner of my eye
I linger their and stay for awhile

pushing your cigarettes into my neck
pull the rope push the chair my life is your debt
I’m your canvas paint me perfect,
hang me up and say I’m worth it

I don’t want to be here I don’t want to see this
you don’t want to see me, I don’t want to hear this
shaking and shaking, your always just taking
so wont lock the door and say always just breaking

everything we could have seen, everything we could have been
everything about us, everything I don’t say
bite my tongue just to watch me bleed

(sfweeb)

I don’t know what more can I say Hatred and rage Hanging around me lingering deep deep down inside my ribcage Pray for incineration Soon as I open eyes every day No motivation mental frustration I'm trying to find a way yuh Constantly feeling alone Minimal serotonin fucking accident prone don't know where to call home on the precipice around my throat is the rope the black void inside my head fuck I can't get of bed Ever prevalent dread ‎just wanted honesty but now it’s obvious how very little I meant Fuck me up for your own benefit, yuh Erasure of feelings through chemicals that’s how I know how to get through the day Internal body clock counting the minutes down till your boy get to decay Fuck I was almost deluded enough to have thought that id cross your mind I know it’s too late & u hate me but know I'm not always this shit all of the time

Never Knows Best (Ft sfweeb)

Hobo Johnson - Romeo and Juliet (Live)

y'all kept asking for music on IG so ima leave this here til my album :)

indecision

SCHOOL NIGHT

SCHOOL NIGHT [LEAK] *prod. HOllY*

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
mix/master w/ ch!o
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AppleMusic/iTunes - itunes.apple.com/gb/artist/sepha/1243252989
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Social -
IG - www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
Twitter - twitter.com/_SEPHA 
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Lyrics - 

oh you know that i'll try the best that i can
to feel motivated and real in the breakfast routine 
at the cafe til
my work days feel backwards
still my will goes forwards
bury my deep desires within
its a circle of chores drawn for us
on paper - with achievements on one half 
regrets on the other
and a motive to tick for when a new day begins
only all the stars will know
the feelings for the ground and air
a force above where i lay my care
not thinking of some god
as an excuse for everything
that i don't know
oh that i don't know

but i'm

tryna find a thing to hold onto
make me feel better
my love
x8

LINK TO ALL PLATFORMS

Feel Better

I Heard You Were Looking For Me

[VERSE I: Black Window]

It's the most wanted
most hated
most haunted
boys that paid the cost
slowly dying but I'm flossing
looking good, ain't he?
boy bounced back from the dead
my business still shady
I still tip toe on the ledge
that shit ain't ever changing
I take my chance riding dirty while speeding
lane swanging
I fucking made it to 30 without my neck breaking
my gun that's holding a 30 that got his legs shaking
meanwhile his girl in the room with my picture masterbating
slowly crawling out the dirt
when it comes to death I like to flirt
my hills have eyes and a smirk
my cuz got blues and he got that syrup, boy

[VERSE II: Duck Boy]

If I keep it up, all these 30s gonna kill me before 30
another day wasted up my nose and it's still early
don't you worry
i'm always in a hurry
so i copped a foreign coupe
riding around town 'til i got to pull up to the court at noon
snort another blue
now i'm feeling sorta blue
nothing new
one of the chosen few
the rest of yall give him some room
it's best if yall didnt assume that he was destined for imminent doom
unless he is ready to get in the tomb
ruby such a bum but he make it look good
trunk in the front
yeah, that's what's under the hood
talking all this shit, mane
i wish yall really would
another million plays, mane
i wish yall really could

ONE LAST LOOK AT THE DAMAGE

i'm in love with that vibe

credits:
@guardinmusic
couldn't find any sc of saiah or squrl :( [update: maybe it's @iloveyousai]

saiah x guardin - polaroid [prod. squrl] (lil sped up bcuz copyright)

prod https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales
cover @amanda260lai

Lyrics

Full moon shine and the white light bright
Face been drained from a vampire bite 
Sunlight shine and I’m out of sight
Parasite with an appetite

Full moon shine and the white light bright
Face been drained from a vampire bite 
Sunlight shine and I’m out of sight
Parasite with an appetite

I ain’t feeling right 
There’s a fight in my mind
Do I give up and die
Or do live through the night

Do I drink to survive
And then hate on my life
Do I give up the fight
And then be my demise 

Lone in the dark
I gotta clear out my thoughts
Blow em right out
With squeeze and a pop

I’m floating in darkness
Act like harmless
And when your guard down
I’m gun slit down the whole wrist

Full moon shine and the white light bright
Face been drained from a vampire bite 
Sunlight shine and I’m out of sight
Parasite with an appetite

Now I’m hunting in the darkness I got blood on my mind
Ima monster and I know it but I ain’t ask for this life 
I been transformed by the trauma all it took was a bite
I seen suicide, death and lost my cousin all right

I miss you

Full moon shine and the white light bright
Face been drained from a vampire bite 
Sunlight shine and I’m out of sight
Parasite with an appetite

I feel empty on the daily I’m a shell of myself
The trauma got me going crazy bringing out a new mouth
I’m sipping bottles while they offer me some coke by the mound
I ain’t playing I know killers but I ain’t make a sound 

I been drunk and grippin' shotties might just empty a round
I ain’t playing this the life I live you ain’t what I’m bout
You ain’t know this side of sloth you still thinking I’m sound
Well it's been a couple years and the trauma been loud

Full moon shine and the white light bright
Face been drained from a vampire bite 
Sunlight shine and I’m out of sight
Parasite with an appetite

Vampires and Parasites

⚜ spotify / apple ⚜

Vampires Are Parasites (Nicolas Sales)

Mixed by Big Roshi and Rivilin
Written by Big Roshi and Rivilin
Produced by Miler Prodz

https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpvUp7pUpSQ

Lyrics:
Okay im depressed
Red my knuckles made a mess
Now my neighbours are too stressed
And the police gone arrest

Plenty math but theres no tests
I live underneath the rest
Hope my music adds to somethin
Cus I gave up on the rest

God I hate it when you speak
Why did you have to remind me
Now im thinkin bout this week
Why i always say Im grimey
Cus I never left this seat
I left all my pain behind me
Why the fuck you try to speak
Im a asshole go n try me

I dont play around with exes
Less is
Benefitting me
I need money more dough
Make me loco
only got a week
Why the fuck are you testing
Not interesting
Learn to move ya feet
Are you trying to fix me
Are you that into risking
Everything you invest in me

Im listening
Trying to find my home
Dont miss me
Cus i dont deserve it
Erase all yo sanctity
You locked inside your churches
Act a fuckin riot
Only safe inside the circus



Cradle
Im lethal
Shut yo mouth dont fuck witcha people
Made my money
Give a fuck if im evil
This aint a movie
There are no sequels

Used to work 50 hours a week
Put the bus inside the cart and wipe the grime out the sink
Only time i heard a voice is when they yellin at me
And thats why i say

God I hate it when you speak
(why did u have to remind me)
God I hate it when you speak
(Im a asshole go n try me)

I’m over being medicated, sick of being sedated
your stupid little voice makes me wish never dated cus you know that
looking back now, filled with regrets
you say you love me, don’t care

going in berzerk like my name is gutts yeah
I don’t know shit, but you know I got luck 
you’re hitting me up, leave me alone
making the cracks in my phone  

I was hooked on an ex for the past six years yeah
how is this life when I’m running through the Blair witch project
nonsense, it ain’t a clear a screen yeah
life ain’t black and white like you always perceived me

breaking my knuckles on the wall, 
frustrated to death when you call
it’s like working a 9-5
barely coming out alive

our relationships and episode for your friends to watch
it’s complicated when my emotions were all dislodged
charging through I don’t mess with exes
the last one almost killed me no joke

I’m an asshole I know, I’m an asshole I know

Asshole feat. Rivilin +Miler

SEPHA = singer//multi-instrumentalist//producer ☠✮ ✯☠ 
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All songs written, recorded and produced by SEPHA. (Joey Aybak) unless otherwise stated. 
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contact - instagram - @ sepha.a 
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