written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
mixed/mastered w/ chio
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Lyrics:
6am
get up
feel doubt
shake it off
walk about
while the sleeping sky is teasing you
tally scores
of the chores
of ur day
to rid away
all the clouds
that carry all ur desires and gods

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u
so let it go
x2

works ends
it sucked
now its night time
ur a night guy
work for breaks guy
have a pint guy
hide ur thoughts guy
and appear
all smiles
to live the day
its first world problems
at a table
while third world devastation
through a screen
far away
makes u stressed at yourself
thinking why am i taking this for granted sink another one in on a bread line
not a death line
just a casual small wage alienation with information overload to keep you always envy dreaming

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u 
so let it go
x2

its weekend 
wake up
make upf
or all the lost
hours spent on time for someone else
indulge
go big
everything's yours
to give 
til it goes back to the grind again
and u check ur
ur wasitline
ur frownline
ur health and ur bank account
and think why did i do that thing fuck it
its another day
probably do it again
try to break the pattern before it goes in circles

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
leave all my worries in an old life
leave all my worries in an old life
leave all my worries in a

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u
so let it go
x2

so many things (that could kill u)

life changes he’s not coming back again
im not him, so why should I have to pretend
im not losing, im just falling down
im doing fine, im ye, im gone

it’s in stages times just a blur
im living in the background unheard
is this what it’s like to withdraw
You’re outside my house, crash through the door

It’s outstanding, reprimanding but you say it’s all the same 
when you play this game it’s up to you 
sitting on the rock in the south beach back then
look me in the eyes, say it’s not working

let’s end it, not mend it, 
toxic behavior takes hand and you just leave
smile at me and say your alright, 
don’t worry im doing just fine

drowning in alcohol, listen here take the toll
im just here growing old, fires low, running cold
burning at both ends losing sleep
I opened up, you just make me weak

no sleep, no end
ups and downs, lose friends
you say that you have changed
I say that we’re stuck on repeat

yeah yeah ulcers building in my fucking mouth from the stress of this
I don’t really understand so I just want to fucking quit
spitting out blood on the daily you made 
into something I just can’t forgive

is it selfish to blame you for being suicidal?
I know its fucking pathetic but it’s hard to swallow
the fact that you fucking gaslighted me 
until I didn’t understand who I was

most days I didn’t wanna wake up and sometimes I still don’t
I was living on a pile of drugs I wake up and I choke
on a mouthful of my fucking own vomit 
it took me here to realize that you fucking weren’t worth this

yeah so fuck you and fuck your fake friends
always talk behind our fucking backs
and you started to pretend that everything was fucking fine
but it wasn’t so I took my chances and I fucking left

OUTSTANDING

@rivilin

Lyrics

Yeah, I swear that someone's fucking died in this room
I think it's haunted, I swear it’s haunted yeah
Feeling like there’s eyes just in the corner
They're watching me yeah, it's paranoia always

Feeling like im not worth much to you
It's what you said yeah, but they ignore ya and say that
The stars in the sky yeah they're not for you yeah
Cus they don't suit ya, cus your not perfect, not worthy

But I say fuck them they're all just cunts yeah
I'll build a staircase up and grab the things they denied you from the start
So fuck all of this negativity yeah, 
I don't want to be sad for the fucking rest of my life and you fucking know that

I'll show you that you’re worth just everything yeah
You know that id kill a fucking another just to see that you get home in the end
Cus I don't give a fuck about another
I just want you, yeah, to start the spark of the ember inside

Yeah cus I feel like your just the fucking one yeah 
The fucking one yeah, who puts a smile on my face
Im sick of fucking feeling like im scared yeah
Like im scared yeah but im not gonna waste this fucking  chance

Cus I never fucking thought id ever be happy yeah
I’d be happy yeah, so what the fuck have you just done to me
Cus you just make me want to be alive yeah,
Just believe yeah, I don't feel like I want to die early

What the fuck I'm in a dream
Everything can't be how it seems

This is too good to be true
Man I must've got some screws loose
Lost in my brain
No way this feeling fake

I been fucking happy lately
Just creating in my lane, please
No fucking lames, I just want this feeling safe

So baby don't you play me
Cuz it might just fucking break me
Might just lose my fucking life and take yours on the way b

Sorry, kind of crazy
My trauma fucking made me
A little bit fucked up and now my triggers got me shaking

But do not fucking worry cuz my empathy trump hate, I relate
To the fucking pain, I know we'll find a way
So just hang on to that feeling that I know you stashed away
Its okay baby,  manic, but I understand the pain

Yeah cus I feel like your just the fucking one yeah 
The fucking one yeah, who puts a smile on my face
Im sick of fucking feeling like im scared yeah
Like im scared yeah but im not gonna waste this fucking  chance

Cus I never fucking thought id ever be happy yeah
I’d be happy yeah, so what the fuck have you just done to me
Cus you just make me want to be alive yeah,
Just believe yeah, I don't feel like I want to die early

Mental Scars

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Mental Scars

rain (construct)

rain (construct) (prod. UNREMORSE)

Featuring my homie: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

Like the band of four, leaving your home in the shire
we only had each others friendship, no other desire
except a ring, a burden around your throat
and the more you press on you find the weight chokes

leave your ghost by the bed, this paths not for the weak
hear the screams in the distance they're stabbing at false sheets
pull out your dagger as they pierce you through the cloak
yeah you watch it turn to dust but the struggle you won't be broke

hear the horns in the distance the north is coming close
feel the fear in the boots but the fire you gotta stoke
just to keep your feet going on, keep with the struggle right
you gotta keep on going, sadly there's no end in sight

and when you finally reach it you find you're on your knees
till you think the ones who love you wanna throw you to the fiends
like please get away how did it turn like this
one day i'll be smiling with everyone that i miss

i didn't understand back then whats up,
i'll bite my lip, take a knife through the gut
and when you see me smile please just dont say
i miss the person right here won't you stay

the dark flame came embraced all my face
if i turn yeah i'll see myself yeah replaced
and when you sing i'll try to rise up again
and then we'll see a perfect home through the lens

$lothboi:

I got to bone to pick
I’m tired of the holiness
The higher I be up the flying hit me with the turbulence

Surrounded by thought me
I might’ve had lobotomy
There’s something in my head that ain’t apart of what I want in me

I’m splitting like I’m missing
All the glue up on the leather

I’m hitting like a whippet
When I mix it all together

I’m fitting like a condom on a dick in chilly weather
I be slipping when I’m falling but a spark will make me better

(Spark Sound)
(exhale)

Leme hold a bit
Gas so strong
Bouta blow the bitch
Up

(exhale)

Leme roll this shit
Gas so packed
Bouta fold a bit
Yuh

Get a load of this
Man so up
Bouta jump and get stuck

Plan so fucked
Bouta duck
And get bucked

Man no luck
Just refuse
To get stuck

Waterford Ft. $lothboi

Free Download

Scotty Buckets - Muthafucka Slick

Better Off Dead - LivEviL (MMXX SIDE A)

Say That you Need Me Well That Was All A Lie
Say That You Want Me I Don't Even Know Why
Yet I Still Want You I Need You By My Side
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Feel Like There's Something Wrong With My Head
Half The Time I Just Wish That I Was Dead
Emotions I Can't Hold em , Drowning In My Bed
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Tempting Thoughts Of Suicide 
But When I Die What Will I Leave Behind
What Will I Leave Behind 
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Say That you Need Me Well That Was All A Lie
Say That You Want Me I Don't Even Know Why
Yet I Still Want You I Need You By My Side
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Feel Like There's Something Wrong With My Head
Half The Time I Just Wish That I Was Dead
Emotions I Can't Hold em , Drowning In My Bed
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Tempting Thoughts Of Suicide 
But When I Die What Will I Leave Behind
What Will I Leave Behind 
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

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Life Or Death (Prod.Kuroime)

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LYRICS

RIVILIN:

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop
Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood
What’s it like when you lose touch
Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek, 
I don’t want this I don’t want
Cutting me down so deep
I feel like im just not enough

lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now
weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown
covering my ears, the water rises
your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams
explaining why you just leave
depression got too much
and you just had to block out the noise


$LOTHBOI:

Drown in pain
Drown in hate

I feel the pain
All in me

Shallow breaths
Steal my life lately
Tight my chest the
Panic hates me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yeah
Memories replaying dread man
How can I be expected
To live this life, shit this aint it

2nd verse

Manic depression
My body be trembling

Tight in my chest
I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath
Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life
But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days
Why do I hate me

I’m not okay
My mind is crazy

What can I say
I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me
I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain
Seeded in memories inside my brain
Tryna forget my collection of bad days
Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain
and bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days
We fight past our memories living in pain
but we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Not Enough (Ft. $LOTHBOI)

Nervous by Dole (feat. Cinoevil) [prod. Khezie Beats]

Into Misery:

going 90 on the highway
i can’t feel a thing
no pain, no fear
you’ll remember my name

just a lost boy
always tryna find my way
just a sad boy
don’t think i remember a thing


baby i got everything that
you could ever want
i pull up to the show
yeah i ain’t even tryna stunt
i got racks up on me
but i’m still lookin for love
i tell my baby call my phone
she thinkin i’m enough

no sense, i can’t fix
what’s up in my head
paranoia stress
always filling me with dread
i can’t get no rest at night 
i guess i’ll sleep when i’m dead
i can’t get no rest at night
i guess i’ll sleep when i’m dead

$LOTHBOI:

Save
My fate
From 
Hateful Games
Like
I can taste it 
Iron in blood ye
Red drops like eyeballs
At midnight we faded
Fuck all your hatred
Fuck all your games yeah
Tears down my face while the smiles starts breaking
Sloth ain’t no pussy
I’ll fuck on a bitch
With a blade on my hip
Finna slit all yo wrists
Depression come in 
Im the voice in your head
I see teardrops on faces of some of my friends
Like
I got killers on deck
And some of em dead
Trippin cuz I miss my brother he left

What am I finna do now
With this hole in myself 
Hit the ground with a bounce

Lost Boy (feat. $LOTHBOI) prod. CRCL

SEPHA = singer//multi-instrumentalist//producer ☠✮ ✯☠ 
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All songs written, recorded and produced by SEPHA. (Joey Aybak) unless otherwise stated. 
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contact - instagram - @ sepha.a 
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