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09 (feardorian)

kuru - sons prod me n yup

uploaded INCREDIBLY late; distro issues
produced by kuru

what's first

Produced by Kuru, Cure & Demise

Go
Go
Fuck around make you look bad
I’m in my mode with my brothers and sisters like why in the fuck was I sad? 
I don’t know why you would do me like that, but ima still bounce back
Tryna figure out why i would suffer alone, cause i’m tryna get me a plaque
Yasuyuki on my body
I don’t ever shop at saks
I don’t give a fuck if they copying me cause ima still count up my stacks
They said they loving my harmonies got too many flows that’s a fact
Doubting myself was like harm to me don’t ever want that feeling back
2023
Floating through the sea
Flying through the sky
Still don’t get what they see in me
I don’t really know but ima wonder why
I was too stupid to know that you’re lying but now i just see it through your eyes
Don’t need nobody to go rely
I don’t ever really wanna go cry again

Fuck it we ballin like hm?
Fuck it we ball in july again
Take out my twin to eat thai again
Do this shit my own way
Don’t ever think i’m complyin
You make money oh shit now they eyein
Fuck it i made my own rules
Your shit was never applying

I don’t really need your guidance
I’m cruising but without a license 
Say you making moves in silence
But trust me I think that shit loud
We in DC and we fuck it up
But you ain’t gon find us between all the crowds
I like staring at the clouds
Hide myself between a shroud
And i don’t like to use my logic
I know that my flow too chaotic
But i think my shit’s just symbolic
I’m in the garden and i frolic
Had to take my time off electronics
I was fuckin up my economics
And i know this shit too melancholic
But i had to get my mind right

Go
Go
Fuck around make you look bad
I’m in my mode with my brothers and sisters like why in the fuck was I sad? 
I don’t know why you would do me like that, but ima still bounce back
Tryna figure out why i would suffer alone, cause i’m tryna get me a plaque
Yasuyuki on my body
I don’t ever shop at saks
I don’t give a fuck if they copying me cause ima still count up my stacks
They said they loving my harmonies got too many flows that’s a fact
Doubting myself was like harm to me don’t ever want that feeling back

distance

Produced by Fakekickin

Ooh
So what
Ooh
Psh
I ain’t bouta do that shit you on we move in different lanes
Punch in do the same shit i know i’m scared of change
Pretend it’s all different know this shit the same
I can’t move like how you did man that shit’s too fake
I hate being in your thoughts man that shit too lame
I can’t i can’t open up ima close the gates
Goddamn tryna do something different tryna make the change

I can’t
Confess all my sins i’m not praying to shit though
Disconnect from all this shit no i’m not cisco
New faces but i stay the same that’s how this shit go
That’s how this shit go
Tell me how i win though
I don’t see shit but my reflection from the window
Bitch i’m getting bread i got a g-shock on my wrist though
Bitch
I’ve been losing like for years won’t take that piss though
Bitch
I’ve been doing this shit
I’ve been doing it alone
I hate doing this shit
But i’m still like finna go
I hate doing this shit
I hate doing this shit i don’t got a second chance though
There ain’t no second chances
Had to make my move I made my bread just how i planned it
Swear he think he up just wait a year they’ll know he’s planted
I walk round in all types of shit i’m causing damage

I ain’t bouta do that shit you on we move in different lanes
Punch in do the same shit i know i’m scared of change
Pretend it’s all different know this shit the same
I can’t move like how you did man that shit’s too fake
I hate being in your thoughts man that shit too lame
I can’t i can’t open up ima close the gates
Goddamn tryna do something different tryna make the change

We can still reach heaven

Produced by Cutspace & Whatever51

Still don’t know my place
Don’t know what to do
Don’t know what to say
Been repeating lines
Every single day
I just hate my mind
I just hate this place
Run around in circles tryna find my way
I just know it’s pointless you think it’s okay
I hate trying I keep giving up
I can’t get enough
I think that i’m stuck
(that i’m stuck here)
(that i’m stuck here)
(that i’m stuck here)
(that i’m stuck here)

You swear that they love me i know they think i ain’t shit
Can’t deal with the fake love just tell me what it is oh
It ain’t hard to say sum tell me that i’m nothing
Swear that i just had it in the bag but i was bluffing
Tell me what to do
I think i’m too stressed
I keep hating everyone cause i can’t do my best
I keep getting caught up in my words cause i’m not like the rest
Get this off my chest
Bitch i hate me 
I hate everything that just surrounds me
I’m faking
I put on every smile i’m still doubting
I’m missing
All the ones i lost i still can’t cope right
Lying 
Say i don’t want no help it’s just a joke right

It’s just a joke to me
Like what’s this s’posed to be
Catch up quick listen closely
Couldn’t see you through my oakleys
Been in the city got no sleep
I don’t like this life but it chose me
Haven’t ate in two days I feel ghostly
Tryna fake on my ass we ain’t homies 
If you say that you love me just show me
I’ve been showin mad love to like everybody i don’t think that there’s no one below me
Say you do i don’t think that you know me
Hope my 6 feet real cozy
If i died i wouldn’t be opposed to it
I won’t do it myself hope it chose me

Get so high i just dance with the moon
Bitch i hate they guts yeah i hate they moves
If i disappeared tell me what would you do
(tell me what would you do)

Misery ost

Kasper Gem - fix you found

kuru - i wish u left it unsaid (mh)

chosen prod 444jet jor

instrumental by balázs varga
recorded, mixed, and mastered by me
this is not a cover :)

1 2 3 4
i cant seem 2 rsn wit u
yea my friends fall out u get used to it
n im on my own so im doin shit
by myself by myself by myself
and im numb 2 the words that u throw @ my face
n it seems to u im a little disgrace
ima take these lines
ima take em to the face
gettin so many stares needa get outta this place

and im sick of the way that u keep treating me
i dont wanna deal w u
u dont wanna deal w me
and im too fucked up
to realize
whats going on w me
and i see the weight of the world now
n the sun gets wasted (s/o prblm)
and im so sic i might hurl now
baby im still wasted

baby i still hate it here
but i don't wanna run
right out of fear
but i needa get away
yea i needa get away
i cant seem to get away
needa find a better way
i should find a better way
i should find a better way
i should find a better way
i needa go now

needa get away

thats all for this year i think
hope u guys like it at least

Kasper Gem - fix you found

stilly