prod me and dec3m

Lyrics:
Should've known better than this,
falling back again and again
I've always tried to make it alright,
but you won't let me make amends

Now I'm freezing,
you're so cold you don't believe me
You only call when you need me,
you still get mad when I'm leaving

Ima be honest,
darling I need you to stop it
I know that you mean me well,
but darling you've put me through hell

@riensu
Don't leave me all by myself
A life without you is just hell
I know that you mean me well
But I just can't take it no more

Do you want me to leave? Do you want me to go?
Losin' myself everytime that you're cold to me
No no no no no no no
everytime that you're cold to me

Freezing w/ Riensu

@anti-light
@blazedini
@2adore
@dami4k
@soxxinger
@ohman-goddamn

@anti-light
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
though, my life's like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
though, my life's like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth

@blazedini
Your heart look like amethyst 
I need you right by my side 
I dont need no therapist 
Baby you bring luck
Baby I bring love
Our heart align yea we never rust

Baby you’re are my stan
I hope you understand 
Your live is in my hand
There’s no amendment 

Our love is crystal clear
Future is coming near
Listen to my vocals and swing along~

@anti-light
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
though, my life's like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
though, my life's like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth

@2adore
got me singing songs
how could feeling this be wrong? 
so many words i wanna say 
what are we waiting for? come my way 
thinkin like i do, yea, you know its true
take me so high, it's only you and i 
just say it
stay right here
now tell me whats on your mind
be my dear
stayin side by side
wanna spend this night together you and i 
just be mine

@anti-light
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
throw my life like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth
baby i know that you want me
tell me how you'd love me
show me how you want this to be in your view
throw my life like a bad dream
tonight it's just you and me
save me from my past sins and tell me the truth

Spotify

Bad Dreams w/ blazedini + 2adore (dami4k x wintfye x frozy808)

with @xxomm

v4nity:
couldnt help myself
when i fell for you
been fallin in love too much i know
its too good to be true
but i cant stop thinkin bout that dress
how it looks on you
swear i cant stop thinkin bout how damn bad
i wanna be with you
tellin you what i know we could be
i swear it aint make believe
just want you to trust in me
swear you can put it all on me
cuz ill take the blame
ill take it all
wont let you go
wont let you fall
ill be the one to do it all
i swear that im givin my all

xxomm:
i swear that i gave my all
bitch i aint mean to fall
i see just what you doin
and it hurt me a lot
what happened to all our time
told you look in my eyes
you said you was gon ride
gave you my soul and you took that
no i really thought we could last
yea shit been movin way too fast
i thought you hated me
no no i cant deal
no i cant go back

v4nity:
couldnt help myself
when i fell for you
been fallin in love too much i know
its too good to be true
but i cant stop thinkin bout that dress
how it looks on you
swear i cant stop thinkin bout how damn bad
i wanna be with you
tellin you what i know we could be
i swear it aint make believe
just want you to trust in me
swear you can put it all on me
cuz ill take the blame
ill take it all
wont let you go
wont let you fall
ill be the one to do it all
i swear that im givin my all

make believe w xxomm (jayysoul)

@sh1nuchi
@kana-beats

different island, different time, and distant places
but I don't mind
cuz I got you
it don't really matter to me
lately you all that I seek
maybe one day I get to be
next to you when I sleep

shawty the time is tickin
but I ain't worried about it
bae this love ain't needa rushin
we could facetime while I'm smokin on these russians
I could fly out, imma hit that shi like a percussion
hit the lights and its action

shawty would u tell me if I'm saying sumn irrational
shawty kinda freaky, eat that shi like I'm an animal
no mixed signals
just me n u, me n u
I don't want no side hoe
everytime I get to see you I get my mind blown
can't keep my eyes off the iphone
is it safe to say that this is love

every second, every minute, every hour
you're on my mind
I think I'm sick! ohhh 

I want a maserati
kilos in my gucci bag
a beauty, aphrodite
how do I make you mine?
make you mine

is this love? [kanabeats]

this never going on dsp (:3 っ)っ
lyrics:
I just figured out last week on how i really want to go
I’ve been treading in this water, just to barely stay afloat
Who I was, shattered to pieces, I’m hellbent on what I show
All it took to take me out was couple people who I’ve known

It’s been getting hard to live, i'm losing faith in what is real
My filters getting worse, I’ve lost control on how to feel
To the friends I made this year, I’m sorry for the way i act
You’ve only met the me in grief, and not me from the past

I barely even function without substances now
Didn’t know it got this bad, this fast, i need a way out 
Do I heal my organs or my brain first? Is there even hope?
I still stutter from the pills i used in high school, i don't know

I wished I had the hatred, it would make this more easy
Your trauma bonding worked, and then you swore that you loved me
You said i saved your life, and your health depended on me
I crumbled from the pressure and then you took your leave

I spent a fucking year of trying to help you get sober
I got clean so fast, i had it done by october
And now that we’re over you've been doing better
If only it didn't cost us being over.

All of your conditions void your love from its truth
I keep reading all your letters,  i've been tricked i'm a fool
Rebuilt my guard for forever cause you
Lost my will to love fully cause you

In December, you offered a suicide pact
I declined and then you told me your suicide plans
Down to the gun and then the model, how its held by your hand
How far deep into the forest? Where your body might land? 

I did nothing but to try and to improve just for you
When the fuck was i selfish? My friends are confused
He saw my eyes lose all its color, what the fuck did you do?
I’ve never been closer to death, i've become just like you





But the difference between us lies within our morality
Because id never put my problems on another entity
Watch them burn and wither at the flame forged by my weaponry
I would never place my burdens on the people that i meet

It's just like we traded our spots
But the scene has been skewed, cause i dont got a crutch
No one to guilt for relapse, im fucked
I would never involve the person I love

I don't think it will ever get better
All my friends told me soon, but that sounds like forever
Cause my meds are helping less as life goes on
cut me loose cause who i was is fully gone

debris ii

the first single off my ep "melancholy memories"
mastered by me & mixed by me
produced by @recyclexbin <3
[chorus]
over and over again
the echoes of your voice enters my head
so many words i wish i could of said
i had to go place your coffin instead
i had to wish my pain would go away
but it was getting worse day by day
my friends would watch and just pray
that i would hopefully be healed fully some day
[verse]
i wish we could meet in the middle of the gates
so i can tell you everything
my heart is full of so much hate and so much rage
i don't know who to blame
i don't like to think about it
i don't like to think about love
i can't wait i know you won't show up
you got me so fucked up
i have to act like you don't exist
to regain what i once had
they like to call me a egoist
but i never had what yall have
[bridge]
just because i don't cry
doesn't mean anything
i hope that i will die
so i won't feel a thing
but for her i will try
to obtain a wedding ring
and for you i will try
to
try to
get the voices out of my head
[verse:2]
when you text me my heart jumps around
when i hear you crying my smile turns to a frown
i got you violets to make you feel better
lets travel across the world together
i can't help but overthink
about you finding someone else
it puts my brain in the portal of hell
but i can't tell no i can't tell
i cannot listen to their bullshit
something tells me its not worth it
i know that you're the one
but the voices keep on pushing
with all that we have been through
i can only hope you don't do it
if you have evil intentions
its hard to see right through it
[chorus]
over and over again
the echoes of your voice enters my head
so many words i wish i could of said
i had to go place your coffin instead
i had to wish my pain would go away
but it was getting worse day by day
my friends would watch and just pray
that i would hopefully be healed fully some day

voices

voices (recyclebin)

instagram.com/4javan

ty for listening

lyrics:
yea im a mile away (dont just ask me why)
and i dont wanna wait (in a suite n tie)
why yo ex's there, now im the kryptonite oh 
like baby can we
do this again baby
cuz i been so scared latelyyyyy
and this shit been drivin' me crazy (da da da da da oh)

we were once in the cut
now you wanna throw me out and call me bluff
and i dont know bout you but i've been feelin numb
and i just wanna show you i'm enough
show you what is love (ohhh)
while im writin' poems, you've been writin' letters
nothin' really changed but you been like the weather
fuckin wit my feelings ever since december

mile away

prod. @rewind214

@222bino
@whyhaze
@1toge

lyrics

@222bino
dime si tu volveras 
a mi vida algun dia
aliviame esta agonia
cierrame las heridas 
mi amor sigue en pie
todavia 
hay que volvernos a ver
una vez mas 
que sin ti a la deriva 
voy a estar

@whyhaze
en el silencio del amor
mi corazón llora tu ausencia 
en su mente no soy nada
una sombra en la distancia 
i could be so much more
for you my love
she took her fangs and put them through my neck i hope i don’t wake up
leave me in a dream state
where you’re still here in the morning 
i still think of what we had
te quiero una vez mas

@1toge
mi amor i don’t know
if i let it go
i wanna see you right beside me 
pls don’t let me go
esta noche just stay a mi lado
nunca te dejare
sera amor ? tal vez
dime la verdad 
i know i’m not good at this love
but i’ll be the one
amor me matas
por que tu faltas
dime if i’m not the one
just tell me you wanting me so

agonía + whyhaze, manni ✰  (rewind)

go on and take me
baby dont hate me
ive got cuts all on my body
know it hurts to see me here like this but
i cant help but stop it 

so baby keep my heart shut 
i keep my eyes closed 
i hold my thoughts back
like what do i know

you give me reason 
i keep my heart near
i want you right now 
i want you right here 

you wanna take my soul
and burn my eyes 
you dont see what i see baby pick a side 

you dont bleed how i bleed baby hold me tight
i dont need what you need baby im alright 

@neohn 

i need ya right by my side
until the day that i die
ever since u fell out the sky
feel like my hands are tied
u leave me petrified
no matter how hard i try
it comes back to bite me
ya i think its likely that im

cursed to the core
is it even worth it to
try anymore
i laid my heart out on the floor
if u jst asked ill give u more
baby dont look back
its not a pretty sight
so spare your beautiful eyes

what do i know +neohn (clockwork irony)

@stayclears
https://open.spotify.com/track/3PJp0c2ldhVvpzNF7Itnjh?si=96288e4cc6814633

Spotify Link

Restless w/ stay! (Jayysoul, Grimgar, Uptempo, Nineteenbands, Sp, & Victor)

mastered by me & we mixed our vocals
featuring da gang @1zora :D
produced by my manager @jichuuu <3
[chorus]
i ain’t running, no i ain’t running
i said i’d get myself some help but still ain’t done it
it's like everywhere i go i feel nervous
it's time to break my shell from beneath the surface
i got so many waves of sorrow
the void you left behind just turned into a shadow
i cant get your fading echos out of my head
i now agree with you i wish that i was dead
[akasuki]
i cant get ur fading echoes out of my head
every word u left behind the whispers we once said
and i can only think about how
i now agree with u, i wish that i was dead
living without u is the life that i now dread
the pain is endless in this sorrow im confined
echoes of u, theyre tearing through my mind
(nooo i aint runninggg, i aint running)
[chorus]
i ain’t running, no i ain’t running
i said i’d get myself some help but still ain’t done it
it's like everywhere i go i feel nervous
it's time to break my shell from beneath the surface
i got so many waves of sorrow
the void you left behind just turned into a shadow
i cant get your fading echos out of my head
i now agree with you i wish that i was dead

is this love? [kanabeats]

sh1nuchi

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