悲しいs o r r o w

EXCUSES + SPLASHGVNG

Hold my hand
_____________________________________________________________
Hold my hand
I need
some guidance
I need
Reliance
Still a kid in my bones like
Overthinking my whole life
9-5 kill my soul
Don't want to do what I'm told
I remember playing all day
Couldn't take a wrong way
Now I'm older
Push that boulder
It's September already
Now the summers' soon ending
My flame smolders
Getting colder

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown

But I never said it was easy
I'm waiting for death to come free me
I pray that this winter don't freeze me
There's levels to life like a Avicii
The king of my mind like Medici
I'm human, can't help but be greedy
I know that this world doesn't need me
I don't let it make me uneasy
Can't go back I know my own fate
I've tried to run but can't sedate
These feelings I've always felt
Inactions add up to hell
I can't help but to rebel
I'm stuck inside a cell

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
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Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Hold my hand

004. The Captain

Song I was working on for a little ep that got kinda scrapped.  Tryna work on new music but im really in a deep writers block.  F

Lyrics

I found a castle in the clouds
It felt like home encased in shrouds
I slipped my tongue and spoke aloud
You always knew I'd let you down?

Fuckin garbage
Don’t know why I’m talking
21
With chronic coughing
Ziplock bag
And it's filled with chronic
If you see it 
then I’m on it
All my family are alcoholics
Double up
Double cup it’s calling me
I don’t think that I’m ever getting free
I don’t know which persons really me

I found a castle in the clouds
It felt like home encased in shrouds
I slipped my tongue and spoke aloud
You always knew I'd let you down?

Always let you down but
You had held your ground my
Castles fall in tandem all around me
All around me
Nothings meant to last
I, hear the heavens crashing
Down the choirs sounding
All to war, all to war

Paradise Lost (prod. farber)

lyrics 


get slammed
pass out
i was down
im back now
two hands
on my face
in sand
its erased
u dont know
my pain
u dont
know my brain
u wont
try saving me
u cant
try changing me

oh im ripped
oh im gone
welcome to abyss
i hope u continue on
i might flip
i might flip it
tell me what u think when im outside of the living

i
i give up

flip

https://soundcloud.com/boxedcat3
prod. nevrfall
imagine having a broken Soundcloud that doesn't let u post

boxedcat - smoke

🎵 "Buried Thoughts" – An Alternative Rock Journey Through Inner Silence 🖤🔥

Raw, haunting, and emotionally charged, "Buried Thoughts" dives deep into the quiet war inside — where emotions are locked away behind walls of fear and silence. With atmospheric guitars, powerful drums, and a voice trembling on the edge of breaking, this track captures the struggle of hiding your truth… and the terrifying need to let it out.

💭 What happens when the thoughts you’ve buried start clawing their way to the surface?
This is the sound of that moment.

Buried Thoughts

SPOTIFY

recovery (prod. notmorgn) out on spotify

Prod. Yung Xander
—————————————
Lyric Samples:
Juice WRLD - All Girls Are The Same

Lost W/o U

guccihighwaters - dead

https://open.spotify.com/track/7LwojWYgr41iFpJyQyBG51?si=ca25ee436de84cd0

Produced by: Jody
Written by: @jobszzw, @goon444 and @octloser
Mixed & Mastered by: @jobszzw, @goon444 and @octloser
Art by: @1300gfx

lyrics: 

[intro, @goon444]
(and I can't forget)
(I started feeling kinda lifeless)

[Hook, @jobszzw]
I started 
feeling kinda lifeless
broken heart
I'm silent
I'm so done
can't fight it

I started 
feeling kinda lifeless
broken heart
I'm silent
I'm so done
can't fight it

[Verse, @goon444]
I can't fight it 
you can't deny it
and everything I told you was true 
and I hated it
I didn't know what to do
should I just keep on going 
or should I be on the move

(all love)
(all love)
(but you don't return it no)
(you don't)
(you don't)
(no)

[Verse, @octloser]
I miss the old me
satisfied with the nosebleeds
03 when we lived and we rode cheap
I didn't care what you told me or owed me
and now I'm up over codeine
smoke till I'm smoking 
old dreams
old news, like old memes
I hate that I know you miss me
all I want is to call this history

(but I know I never can)
(and I know I never will)
(woah)

[Hook, @jobszzw]
I started 
feeling kinda lifeless
broken heart
I'm silent
I'm so done
can't fight it

I started 
feeling kinda lifeless
broken heart
I'm silent
I'm so done
can't fight it

_________________
JØBSZ (@jobszzw)
https://www.instagram.com/jobszzw/

Goonsgrave (@goon444)
https://www.instagram.com/goonsgrave/

Loser (@octloser)
https://www.instagram.com/lvloser/

Jody:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj_5_w33LE3KSfuw5RhYu7Q
https://www.instagram.com/prod.jody/

ALL PLATFORMS

Lifeless ft. Loser & Goonsgrave (OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS)

can i spend the night here?
another day feared

how did i fall over the ledge?
changed into someone i’m not

but is all this my fault?
now that you’ve left
i don’t know how to move on

can i spend the night here?
another day feared
i followed what i saw would hurt

but then asked “can i spend the day here?”
another night feared
you followed what you saw would turn against you

will i see through all the lies?
how else will i find the light?

i’ll take the fall for you
and then try to remember the cause

but is all of this just stuck in my head?
is it the substance’s fault?

can i spend the night here?
another day feared
i followed what i saw would hurt

but then asked “can i spend the day here?”
another night feared
you followed what you saw would turn against you

will i see through all the lies?
how else will i find the light?

prod/mix/master by me

north of lake willow

heart beatin out my chest
and i’m the the only one to pick it up
you hide your feelings? i put mine on ice in a cup!
i’d be lying if i said i didn’t give a fuck
it’s obvious when i work hard i’m hardly givin up
she wanna fuck drunk and even when i sober up
i don't smoke trees anxiety is actin up
i quit the coke keys cause i was hardly livin bruh
if you ain’t livin for yourself who you livin for
if you ain’t livin for yourself who you livin for
if you ain’t livin for yourself who you livin for
if you ain’t livin for yourself who you livin for
if you ain’t livin for yourself...
i deal with these problems
you don’t wanna know where i got em from
heart fucked
double cup up
am i hot enough
pullin my drawstrings
and with my chain she do the same thing
i let it fall cause they like it when it’s dangling
fuck a booth i record this in my room
feel like lil peep cause baby id give u the moon
i do this myself it’s handmade ain’t talkin June
i don’t wanna hear no empty promises you gotta prove em

heart beatin out my chest
and i’m the the only one to pick it up
you hide your feelings? i put mine on ice in a cup!
i’d be lying if i said i didn’t give a fuck
it’s obvious when i work hard i’m hardly givin up
she wanna fuck drunk and even when i sober up
i don't smoke trees anxiety is actin up
i quit the coke keys cause i was hardly livin bruh
if you ain’t livin for yourself who you livin for

Out My Chest (prod. smokerose)

my way out

Promoting Sound: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-u020DJPYU
SauceOnly: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOv0ZidiSbY

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6ONLtSLiz9e2C8kEmSIklX
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@rarinmusic @kvnny @sydcxx prod @vannydd
mixed/mastered by (@rarinmusic + @Jayavem)

art by @GLXSGXW

Lyrics:
rarin:
i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah 
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2
--
kenny:
it’s just the blind leading the blind
but shit it happens all the time nowdon’t know what you got in mind
tryna figure out what’s up in mine nowi feel like a shell of who i once was
i’m so sick and tired of falling into bad love
been to hell but i ain’t never make it back up
i really wish i stayed away from the bad drugswhy’s it so hard to changei been needing a break
but i just can’t get awayi been counting the days
but nothing change but my banki pushed my loved ones away
i think i made a mistakei’ll fucking bend till i break
but i been feeling the strain
--
rarin:i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah 
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2--
sydcxx:
feelin better when you’re gone
got a minute to myself now
ill be empty later on
take a breath and let it out nowI used to think that your love would mean something to me
but I can’t feel a thing and I’m dying to sleep
I put my heart on a shelf
don’t wanna help myselftime don’t heal all the things that they say so
sky not clear and I don’t got a raincoat
three more days til I do what I came for
don't be scared I just don’t wanna live no more
--
rarin & sydcxx:
i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah  
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2

Paralyzed

Paralyzed (Feat. Kenny & Sydcxx)

Paralyzed (Ft. Rarin, Kenny & Sydcxx)

SEON
Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/seon_47/
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/seon47
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/4sADZZMvbgQIsCCkmqUYF8?si=GAy9sTfZT0mltRH95_z83g
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/seon/1450454400

Wrote my mom and I told her that I miss her
I Wrote my dad and I told him that I miss him too
Sorry for the time that I’m missing
Wish That I could come home bring me back to you

Where do I get started 
Haven’t seen your smile
Watch me come from crawling
Loved me didn’t love myself

Know you work for me
See you slave in the day 
Bought a car for me 
All mistakes that I make 
Still you saving me
Losing trust 
So I thought that you hated me 
You created me

I’m the one to blame used to lie lie lie
Never change ways didn’t try try try
Knew that it’s over the light to the fire
Ran away gone I was lost for a while 

That’s how I gave up it all
Left my family for a fall  
I’m so sorry that’s the truth 
Mom and dad oh I love you

Wrote my mom and I told her that I miss her
I Wrote my dad and I told him that I miss him too
Sorry for the times that I’m missing
Wish That I could come home bring me back to you

Where do I get started 
Haven’t seen your smile
Watch me come from crawling
Loved me didn’t love myself

You stayed but I leave 
Now I’m getting clean 
See things how I never used to see a newer me 

Wrote this song for you 
I’ve been needed to 
Tell you thanks for all 
You’ve done for me a growing seed 

Call me and we talk for a little while
I just need to hear your voice it calm me down when I’m in the wild
You tell me it’s okay to tell the truth but I’m in denial
Im missing being home and back when I was a little child

Sorry for the past I know I‘m failing as a son
Bet you wish you didn’t have me only having one
I will make it right give me time and I’ll be home

Wrote my mom and I told her that I miss her
I Wrote my dad and I told him that I miss him too
Sorry for the time that I’m missing
Wish That I could come home bring me back to you

Where do I get started 
Haven’t seen your smile
Watch me come from crawling
Loved me didn’t love myself

Wrote my mom and I told her that I miss her
I Wrote my dad and I told him that I miss him too
Sorry for the time that I’m missing
Wish That I could come home bring me back to you

Where do I get started 
Haven’t seen your smile
Watch me come from crawling
Loved me didn’t love myself

Where Do I Get Started- Single

Where Do I Get Started [prod.Kado]

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