An ambitious album from 2012 remixed and remastered in 2021.
The recording of the album started in July of 2012 but in September of that year my father revealed he had cancer and he died soon after. The album was finished and released on November 10, 2012. I had always wanted to hear a better mix of the album and so, before it's 10th anniversary, decided to go for it. This remix and remaster replace the original version that was once available here. I hope you enjoy it!

Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Hopes and Fears (Deluxe Edition/2021 Remaster)

Deeper  (Every Tear I’ve Cried)

Deeper than you know is my love for you
Deeper in my soul is a place for you
Time is funny in the way that it never stops
It waits for nothing and all you’ve gained is lost

Deeper in my mind is a memory of you
Long before the wedge that split us in two
It’s a memory of you singing to a song on the radio
That’s when I saw your true emotions, when you let yourself go

(Chorus)
Every tear I’ve cried comes from deeper inside
Every tear I’ve cried comes from deep inside
From a well full of memories in my mind
To all that bitter space we lost in time
Every tear I’ve cried comes from deeper inside

Deeper in my heart is where I ache for you
Where the cold hard facts of life can be so cruel
The way you surprise another, half way around the world
Smiles reflected on ocean tides and your happiness unfurled

Deeper in my soul is where I cry for you
Deeper is this pain that I wear for you
I will always feel it’s my fault for so much wasted time
And I will cry forever, these tears will never dry
(Repeat chorus)

...for dad....

Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Hopes and Fears (Deluxe Edition)

Deeper (Every Tear I've Cried) (2021 Remix)

Dropping Cannonballs (Dedicated to Keith Moon)

Now here is my story
In all it’s sinful glory
About the way that I like to get stoned
It’s an every night affair
So come along if you dare
Otherwise, you better stay at home

(Chorus)
Oh, it’s wicked, it’s crazy
Everything will be hazy
But you’ll feel ten feet tall
Smoke if ya got ‘em
Drink to the bottom
Dropping cannonballs

Now you get yourself some weed
But don’t forget you need
You need booze in the other hand
Take a drag off that grass
And hold onto your ass
‘Cuz that’s only half the plan
(Repeat chorus)

Now you drink a drink
Whatever you think
You’ll drink to swallow it down
Exhale your smoke
And hope you don’t choke\
‘Cuz puke will  make you drown
(Repeat chorus)

Now mind you, I said
This will all go to your head
Before too long
You’ll be bumping into walls
But cheer up, don’t be sad
Give a smile and be glad
That you were dropping cannonballs
(Repeat chorus)


Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Hopes and Fears (Deluxe Editions)

Dropping Cannonballs (2021 Remix)

Beautiful Light

When it’s dark and I’m alone
And so far away from home
I begin to realize
What’s missing
Through all the noise and the lies
I can stare into your eyes
And find the reason why
I’m existing
No one could ever make me feel
The way that you do
When I’m by your side
I can feel my love for you

(Chorus)
What a beautiful light you shine
Don’t you ever let it hide
It illuminates from inside
What a beautiful light you shine

It’s something I can’t explain
The feelings come back again
When I see you in the sun
Alive and smiling
It’s like you soak up every ray of the sun
And somehow turned it all into one
Great light of love
Brightly shining
(Repeat chorus)

Never again should I be alone in the dark
Never again should we be apart
There’s a love inside you
I don’t feel from anyone else
I’ve never felt this love
At least not from myself
What a beautiful light you shine
(Repeat chorus)


Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Beautiful Light (2021 Remix)

Long Way Down

Everyday it’s a struggle
To survive
And everyday I barely make it
Make it alive

(Chorus)
It’s a long, long way down
I’m too far gone to turn around

Sometimes it doesn’t make sense
To get out of bed
Just getting through the day 
Is something I dread
(Repeat chorus)

This hole I’ve fallen in
Looks like it’s pretty deep
Blacker than night
No light at all that I can see
(Repeat chorus)


Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Long Way Down (2021 Remix)

My City, The Ghetto

My city’s a ghetto
And you’re the queen
None of this is like
What it used to be
My city’s a ghetto
I’m the king
What I don’t have 
I didn’t really need

(Chorus)
My city’s a ghetto
Get loose and lay low
That’s where the bullets flow
My city, the ghetto

SWITCHBLADE!!

My city’s a ghetto
And you’re the queen
You’re probably the prettiest thing
I’ve ever seen
My city’s a ghetto
And I’m the king
I rule
All over everything
(Repeat chorus)


Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

My City the Ghetto (2021 Remix)

Hopes and Fears

When we’re not hoping
We’re fearing
When we’re not fearing
We’re hoping
Hoping that when it’s all over
There’s nothing left to fear

When we’re not fearing 
We’re hoping
When we’re not hoping
We’re fearing
Fearing of hoping
That the end is near

(Chorus)
Ooh, babe don’t give in
And if you do go down with a grin
In the end we all share tears
From our hopes and fears

When we’re not hoping
We’re fearing
When we’re not fearing
We’re hoping
Hoping that someone out there
Really understands
When we’re not fearing
We’re hoping
When we’re not hoping
We’re fearing
Fearing this might be the last sunset
As we’re holding hands
(Repeat chorus)


Words and music by Shawn Ames
Copyright (C) Shawn Ames/Number 9 Productions 2012/2021

Hopes and Fears (2021 Remix)

It's me, making beautiful noise!
I play all of the instruments, write, arrange, record, produce, engineer, and play all that you hear.
A little left of center, always speaking my heart and warped mind, if nothing else I hope you give a casual listen to the music I've created and I hope you enjoy it.
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