2020

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

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you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

"Subject To Flooding" debut album from Jagwar Twin - coming fall 2018.

Subject To Flooding

Loser

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Losing Patience 8/9

i feel empty

Youth... i feel empty

vocals, performance, and all production by me.

doublemydose - “losing myself”
LYRICS:

I cannot sleep anymore
I’m losing myself
I will not dream like before
Laying dead and dry on the floor
I’m losing myself
All these racing thoughts I can’t ignore
I’m losing myself
I will not drift away
I will not drift away
I will not drift away
I will not drift away
I’m losing myself
I’m losing myself
I’m losing myself
I’m losing myself


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Losing Myself (Single)

Losing Myself

YouTube

losing myself

This is the most painful song I've ever had to write and record. I hope you guys can appreciate the vulnerability of this track. Available for download and streaming everywhere at midnight est.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/1Pq3b...

Apple Music/ iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/you-...

Google Play: https://play.google.com/store/music/a...

For any other streaming platform just type in "Presence You Were My Best Friend" and it should be there.

Lyrics:

I wish I would’ve picked up the phone
And been there when you needed me most
I wish would’ve texted you back
And cherished all the time that we had

I wish I would’ve paid more attention
And I wish I would’ve asked more questions
I wish I woulda been there for you
Like you were there for me

I can’t go back in time
But I wish I could
All of these feelings that i’m having
I really just cannot put
Them into words
Honestly my heart feels shattered
I’m tryna keep my composure
But it’s hard
When there’s a dagger
In my heart
I can’t believe that this is real
It’s been a week since you passed and ion know what to feel
You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
Now it’s the end and my brain just cannot comprehend
That you’re gone
This pain just keeps on hurting
I’m screaming out to God cuz I know you ain’t deserve this
I’m carrying this guilt on my shoulders
It’s a burden
If you were here I know you’d tell me just to keep on working
Through this

But it’s so difficult without you here
I’m in an ocean full of sadness filled with all my tears
I’m in the depths of mind and i just can’t see clear
And now all I really want’s to make you reappear

You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
I can’t believe the end’s here
I’m drowning and i can’t see clear
x2


This was supposed to last longer than it did
I can’t believe that you’ll never meet my kids 
I can’t believe that it’s really all over
And i’ll never hear your voice again as i grow older
Man

This all is crazy
We just was on the phone
You hit me up about my show and said you couldn’t go
You said that earlier that day you stopped breathing
My heart sank but it wasn’t that hard to believe it

Cuz i remember when i was with you
You fainted for the first time
I look on it now
And understand that was the first sign

That yo time was coming
I should’ve understood then that your time was running 
Out 

And if i could i would go back in time
But I can’t
And that’s the reason that i lose my mind

Because I shoulda been better to you/
I showed you love but should’ve showed it better 
I can’t believe that you’re gone forever

You were my best friend
My ride or die until the end
I can’t believe the end’s here
I’m drowning and i can’t see clear X2

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You Were My Best Friend

Thank you for listening <3
Couldn't do this without @scummusic and @sushisai <3

Prod & Mix/Mastered @farhantnvr

Available on the following and more!
Spotify: open.spotify.com/album/16nGzleYNXtVkZUZnXkuR0
iTunes: music.apple.com/us/album/never-get-it-right-feat-scum-suisai-single/1483388347
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Art by peppermerint
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Lyrics:

// Scum
Never get it right,
I don’t wanna die lonely 
Learned it let it go, 
Still wish that you could hold me down, down

// I’m Geist 
Never get it right,
Now I’m losing sight,
Lost inside the night,
I’m just a dying light. 
You can put my fire out, I know that you’d be better without me

You’d be better without me 
but I don’t think that I can breathe without you
Without you, I’m black and blue
Without you, what would I do?

I don’t wanna die, 
I don’t wanna die alone
I don’t want to lie,
But it’s been set in stone
I don’t want to cry,
I don’t want to cry no more

I don’t wanna die, 
I don’t wanna die alone
I don’t want to lie, 
But it’s been set in stone
I don’t want to see you cry,
I’d rather die, I’d rather die alone

// SuiSai
Like dont let this whole thing die slow
Used to think that we could
Run away into the
Cold night
Now i really just dont know
Did you ever love
Did you ever care
Who knows
Take a chance
Just this one time
Dont be so reserved
Question every little move
You know 
this is what you really wanted
We can take it back
If we really want

Cannot stand to see you
Push away some of the only people
That really care
Please come back

Spotify

Never Get It Right w/ Scum & SuiSai

All vocals, lyrics, mastering by me.
Beat by @sorrow_bringer
STREAM on SPOTIFY - releases February 11, 2021.
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/doublemydose/far-from-perfect

LYRICS:
The rains back now
Got my head up in the clouds
I’ve been waiting for this sound
I find comfort in it
Made it to the fall
Been thinking bout it all
Still don’t know who to call
Why do I dwell on…
Memories, not living in the present
Lost and disconnected
Feelings of rejection
Staring, at the cracks in the pavement
regretting what I’ve wasted
not embracing changes (oh no)
Help me find what I’m missing
Mistakes make make up my history 
I’m honest no more mystery
I wish I could take back
All the pain of relapse
Anger’s how I react
You never deserved it
I never was worth it
I'm so far from perfect
I'm drowning at the surface

far from perfect - single

far from perfect

SPOTIFY

Far From Perfect (prod. sorrow bringer)

Last One Home

Beat/instrumental production by me. Vocals, lyrics, and songwriting by @goldengoddess_official and myself. Art by myself and @deaftone
WEBSITE:
https://BeatsByHorizon.com
SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/album/10zzxfppHRM4TLLeKmbtjT
APPLE / iTUNES: 
https://music.apple.com/us/album/poison-single/1486106886
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LYRICS:
[EVENT HØRIZØN]
Dreaming and delirious
A fire in my mind
Judging every thought I have
I’m never satisfied
Some say that I’m capable
Can’t tell if that’s a lie
Habits that I’d like to shake
how the fuck will I get by
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me 
leave me, leave me
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me 
leave me, leave me
[Golden Goddess]
And if I never see you again my darling
I will always remember the way
you made me feel like I'd be on top of the world
some day (remember)
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me, leave me, leave me
[EVENT HØRIZØN]
Out of control
losing my soul
(I'm sorry, I'm sorry)
I'm poison to you
but I love you it's true
(I'm sorry, I'm sorry)
[EVENT and Golden together]
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me behind
My love is poison leave me 
leave me, leave me
I'm poison to you...

Poison - Single

Poison (feat. Golden Goddess)

Poison (ft. Golden Goddess)

i'm waiting for a friend
someone to hold my hand
i'm waiting for a friend
someone to hold my hand

im fading
i break-in
i'm fading 
i'm breaking
alone again
in my room

Imaginary Friend.Wav

Stream on Spotify - out on February 11th, 2021:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/doublemydose/far-from-perfect
 <3 Hope you enjoy something.
Vocals/lyrics, mixing and mastering by me. Additional background vocals by @darya-naumenko. Guitar and beat by @sorrow_bringer, additional production by me.
LYRICS:
[verse]
Nights pass by too fast 
Within four walls I stay trapped
I’ve tried to drink away the past
But that shit always came back ya
Feelings I don’t show no 
Don’t want them to be known 
Where the fuck can I call home?
I guess this is the life I chose
[chorus]
I don't even understand
Why I continue to treat you this way (this way)
I swore that I'd change (I'll change)
I'll take all the blame
I don't even understand
Why this always happens to me (I don't get it)
I'm so incomplete (so incomplete)
It's you that I need (so beautiful)
[bridge]
Too beautiful for me
 Just leave me as history
Always say what I don’t mean
I’ve cut you slow and watched you bleed
[chorus]
I don't even understand
Why I continue to treat you this way (this way)
I swore that I'd change (I'll change)
I'll take all the blame
I don't even understand
Why this always happens to me (I don't get it)
I'm so incomplete (so incomplete)
It's you that I need
You're so beautiful
[outro]
So beautiful (beautiful to me)
Too beautiful for me…

too beautiful for me

STREAM SPOTIFY

too beautiful (with sorrow bringer)

https://presence.fanlink.to/IllGetThereToo

I'll Get There Too

prod. diamoon, odece, remghost, nate2timez, deadfish

thanks to @yungaxstn for the featuring <3 

Lyrics:

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

[verse: gothurted]
You're falling down
I'm falling for you
I've been lying on the ground
Thinking bout what I can do
To hide the tears that I drop
To show the smile that I've lost 
Seems like I loved u the most
Now I can't love anymore
insecurities, please don't look in my eyes
I don't want you to see all the pain that I hide
Wrote u thousand letters
Tell me have u ever read one
Words that fly like feathers
People that now are done

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

[verse: yung axstn]
The feeling stronger as it rushes up to me 
I feel like leaving here as there’s not much left in me 
I know I say this is a lot but I feel so fuckin hopeless
Believe it or not this is the way I’ve been feeling

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

STREAM

Nothing Left ft. yung axstn

LIL LOTUS & NEDARB - NEVER COMING HOME

LIL LOTUS & NEDARB - GRINDING MY TEETH (FT. DRIPPIN SO PRETTY)

Vocals, lyrics, and final mix down by me. Beat produced by @lovewithme
PRE-SAVE on SPOTIFY:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/eventhrizn/now-were-free
LYRICS:
Takes me awhile I can’t move on
Reminded by this silence that you’ll stay gone
I was wrong
Know that I’m defined by my past actions
Neglected change I stayed the same it happened 
It’s tragic
No matter what I write can’t get the words out
Wish I had a way to change your hurt now
Tell me how
Can’t accept that this is how you’ll know me
Drown me out forget my name and what we would be
Now you’re free 
You’re better off without me
Now we free
Gotta maintain the boundary
Now I’m free
Yet I wish you didn’t leave
Let It be
Now we’re free
Kept up every night with knife in my chest
Cause you’re with him could’ve guessed
Tell me does he fuck the best? Oh no..
So crawl back to what you know
You’re missing what was home
But bitch I’m on my own I’m done
Now i’m finding what to live for
Break all I touch my soul’s in uproar
Can’t ignore
Hope i hold onto it just kills me
Say it will be different and I’ll feel free
Do I believe?
No matter what I write can’t get the words out
Wish I had a way to change your hurt now
Tell me how
Can’t accept that this is how you’ll know me
Drown me out forget my name and what we would be
Now you’re free 
You’re better off without me
Now we free
Gotta maintain the boundary
Now I’m free
Yet I wish you didn’t leave
Let It be
Now we’re free
Kept up every night with knife in my chest
Cause you’re with him could’ve guessed
Tell me does he fuck the best? Oh no..
So crawl back to what you know
You’re missing what was home
But bitch I’m on my own I’m done
Music’s all I need
Ya watch me fulfill my dreams
Kick back and smoke my weed
Like me he won’t succeed 
Now you’re free 
You’re better off without me
Now we free
Gotta maintain the boundary
Now I’m free
Yet I wish you didn’t leave
Let It be
Now we’re free
Kept up every night with knife in my chest
Cause you’re with him could’ve guessed
Tell me does he fuck the best? Oh no..
So crawl back to what you know
You’re missing what was home
But bitch I’m on my own I’m done
I’m done with you
You know we’re thru
It’s over
I loved you like no other
But I won’t let that happen again

Now We're Free - Single

Now We're Free

SPOTIFY + APPLE MUSIC

now we're free (prod. lovewithme)

Spotify: https://ampl.ink/j48Br
Visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_cW1fCxUIMc

Artists / Producer:
@lilskeleskrrt
@deadspyro

Lyrics:
it’s been a rough couple nights 
and I’ve been feeling so down 
thoughts attack my mind everything is too loud 
I feel my body fall apart I don’t know what to do now 
I think I’ve lost control 
I’m scared to be alone now 

I’m scared to be alone 
be alone 
they tell me I’ll get better but I don’t believe em no
I don’t wanna do this on my own 
I don’t wanna do this on my own

it’s getting harder and harder to breathe 
harder and harder to see 
harder and harder to realize that no ones saving me 
(x2)

skele - scared to be alone (prod. dead spyro)

i don't like u myself

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt

Produced by Low Hope.

YOUTUBE:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPJ1JIkYCOE

LYRICS:
its been a long week of the same things
sleep when i get home so i dont feel a thing
im not doing well but im sure that u dont care
my lungs r getting sore from breathing in all this frigid air
heart cold, eyes colder
feel low, ill feel lower
and my soul, feels older
i wish things, moved slower
teardrops turn into ice on my sweater (its cold and i miss u)
im getting really sick of this weather (its cold and i miss u)
tell me what is love, like will i ever be enough (its cold and i miss u)
drag me through the mud, ill wait here until you're done (its cold and i miss u)
teardrops turn into ice on my sweater (its cold and i miss u)
im getting really sick of this weather (its cold and i miss u) 
tell me what is love, like will i ever be enough (its cold and i miss u)
drag me through the mud, ill wait here until you're done (its cold and i miss u)

it's cold and i miss you

skele - it's cold and i miss you

"this really isnt the life for me...and im sorry i couldnt be everything i tried to be"
"My head hurts my heart aches those texts make my heart break"

2020

solitare night