1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

produced by hiraeth

remember to wash the socks u came in

And its so obvious
How can you not see me
See me
If I ran away would you need me ?
Played your last messages on repeat
This the last time that you’ll see me

So let me down
Pull me out
Of this hole im in
Baby would you cave it in 
What is happening
I can’t believe I shat again :p!!
Blood is everywhere
Im crawling out of bed again

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Trying to run from the past
Tell me how hard does it get now
Living to die in a bed
No in-between to forget now
Call me when all of it ends
Im putting a gun to my he’d now

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

newmaker

@hiraethsry
@prodjpjp 

lyrics
// hiraeth
stab with me with a knife and put it in my back
“i could never love you” wym by that
i don’t wanna die but life is going fast
text me when ur drunk and say you want me back

i don’t wanna talk to you
lemme go i swear i never intrude
stressed out now my hands are blue
left me, what’d i mean to you

cut around my wrists i’m laying staring at the ceiling
out of body fuck i swear i’m living for a reason
blood trail on my arm i’m steady looking for a meaning
tryna cut you off ur never good to me i’m leaving

i don’t wanna talk to you
lemme go i swear i never intrude
stressed out now my hands are blue
left me, what’d i mean to you

// geist
what’d i mean to you?
you crossed my name out in red love
held me close, just to say that we’re losing touch
cut me deep and then scream that i’m not enough
want me now, when i say that i’m giving up

here we go again
dancing in the rain
couldn’t save my face
so i ran away
pretty little waist
only caused me pain
covered in my blood
oh, how you love the taste

did you mean it?
tell another lie or you could say that i’m the reason
people fucking change but just as not as quick seasons
you know that i’m hurting so just leave me in the deep end

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Intrude w/ hiraeth [JPJP]

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

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Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

【﻿ｏｎｅ　ｄａｙ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｌｌ　ｈｅａｒ　ｍｅ　ｏｕｔ】



prod. @jeweler737
thank you so much for listening.
thank you for being here.
x

i won't get this right
i never do
just another night,
where i think of you
and i know it's hard to cover all that spite
i do it really well, with a dulled knife
mom i'm sorry if you hear this
i never wanna speak up on how i'm really feeling
i know that you fear it; me leaving this planet
but i want to every moment
i've been caught in my own headlights
they're too blind to notice
turned to my own hand, in search of an answer
but all i receive are emotion enhancers
i've been down like forever
as far as i can possibly remember
(so dismembered)
i wouldn't wanna hurt an ant,
but i'm so selfish
i just can't help it
and i'm so sorry, i'm just not sober
here comes october
i'm getting older
just another disorder, that i didn't order
goodbye sweet child
i no longer can hold you
i don't even know you
here come's the morning
i'm one step closer
maybe i'll get an answer
but i don't have the energy to speak right now
(nor feel)
one day they'll hear me out.
oh,
we're among the earth, beneath the dirt
i feel it all, besides my worth
so all i have are these verbal words
i can't figure out if it's a bless or curse
oh what a mess i've made of me
i won't get past twenty-three
so here i am, still brittling
imagining all that i wanna be
will i ever be?

splitting hairs while the universe has it's back turnt.
a naive child leading oneself into great danger
letting greater danger bid on the outcome.
eyes creeping open ever so softly
are we in
are we...
how come?

fomalhaut [prod. jewelryboy]

produced by: @everythingmackk


and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her 

and i broke loose
for you <3 
all the shit i did, 
i swear i had to do
split me in two
and i’ll play the fool
as long as u pick up 
when im calling you 

and i swear i would do about anything u asked 
what u want
we can hit the town and try to make it back
i’m so drunk ! 
she pulls me closer says there’s something i gotta ask
i said go, 
you can tell me girl i promise i wont laugh
she said 
“boy i think i’m falling for you,
don’t think i can mask
things i feel any longer
so please ask what u gotta ask”
i was shocked,
now my heart was pulsing, felt it in my hands
was this real?
or am i dreaming 
either way, i’m gonna stay right here 

and my heart rate 
it slows down
used to talk alot
guess i’m on my own now
and i beg you 
to come round
she don’t talk to me
she’d much rather go out
and you’re a liar
cold, no fire
all the rubies in the world couldn’t buy her
i can’t find her
so i retire 
and im bound by these ropes
but couldn’t tie her

to those before, and to those after (mackk)

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And I know that I'm selfish, I'll tell you I'm sorry
But then I fuck it up again
I know you're trying to help but when you call
I know we can't be more than friends
If I'm not enough for you right now
Go ahead and leave
Cuz It's not getting any better
You can blame me if you want

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And she said don't go
The nights get so cold
But I still ran away, I hate LA
Can't eat, my bones show
And I know that you're hurting
For that, I'm sorry
But I won't let you take it out on me
I won't let go of my hopes
Don't say it's just a dream

I think I should call it a night
I've been staring too long at this screen
If you wanna leave, you can go
It makes it easy for me

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

sometimes, i pretend like i don't see it

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

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prod. maxchris x ayoley

lyrics:

if you're in pain reach out to me !!
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with u i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
you'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second

oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds
they'll beg you for an open till you cave so grit your teeth and give a scrap you made a month ago and let them
send a single snippet and they rip it just so they can load it up in fl studio and slap a halfass verse around it
god i wish i was kidding
but feels nice to vent all the shit that i live with
there's two types of friends and i know which is which
yea i've got my ways but i'm not spilling shit

-

if you're in pain reach out to me
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with you i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
u'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second
oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds

sometimes, i pretend like i don't see it

Shiki XO

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