lofi stuff

Singles

Produced by Forlorn.
FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/second-guessing

LYRICS:
I feel insane, or maybe same as I've just always felt
My brain's deranged, detached membrane but failed to ever tell
Maybe today I'll end up dazed or something never dealt
I'll never say what flows throughout my brain and causes hell
Always unchained, my life just burns as all my joy just melts
Always in pain, I have no mouth but I wish I could belt
Out words in blaze, never contained within my awkward gaze
But life's a haze and I just wish that I could simply phase

Up on out of this realm of existence
Phased by nothing but I still feel like rubbish
Whipped by my passing thoughts, it's nothing but torture
Gripped by my lasting thoughts, I can't settle no score
My soul is fading away, I don't know what I could say
To make it last one more day, cause I just don't wanna pay
I thought I found myself but I'm still a lost soul
Tryna find me some purpose with no real large goal

Anticipation killed my ambitions beyond belief
Expectations ruined everything that I ever achieved
And it's a hard pill to swallow
Just move forward is my motto
Because ain't no use getting stuck in my own shell
When all it's done is created my own personal hell
That I wish to escape any time, any date
Let me out to see the sun and what I have done

Second guessing first impressions
Lacking blessing and I'm stressing
Overworking, overthinking
I was floating, now I'm sinking
Where has my mind gone lately?
It's felt like a gun pointed toward me, off safety
Convinced everyone I know hate me
Times slowly ticking as depression's constant kicking
Leaves a mark and doesn't stop till it's finished
Or leaves me feeling diminished
Bleeding out every positive feeling that I've ever kept
Instead of using these emotions, I just gave up and wept

Tears run across as my face as I put the pen to the paper
Put my heart and soul towards all of it but I still gotta cater
To those who'll never care what I deal with, or what's in my favor
To them this life is but a game and I'm simply a player
Playing into they hand, or simply playing myself
Constant reminders of time passed, I think I need some help
But I can't find the energy to ask for assistance with what I done dealt
Or simply speak the words to what I done felt

So instead, I'm just folding like some origami
Cause in the end, I'll just probably
Never find the answers, hardly
Ever expected more, only expected folly
But where should I even go now?
Where do I continue without a how?
Drowning at every moment of overwhelm
So, how could I ascend?
As I'm progressing through life, I feel more like an inkless pen
Moving forward without any real path or passion like I ain't actually

Worth anyone's time or a even moment of talking to
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue

Second Guessing [prod. Forlorn]

Produced by Bloom.
FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/i-couldnt-tell

Lyrics: 
[ hook ]
woke up feelin like someone else
lost track of time and myself
I cant help but watch the world spin
round and round
I think its too late to help
couldn't speak
I couldn't tell
that my life was crumbling
it all comes tumbling down

[ verse I ]
unsure to which way I've gone
haven't been anywhere in so long
scared to re-enter the world and see what's going on
and I don't know why
I feel this way or how to chase a high
not sure if I'm at rock bottom or simply in a rut
but I know I'm too far to simply give up
on myself, for those around me
I was sinking as far as I could see
now I can hear so I swim and no longer drown

[ verse II ]
you think you know yourself until you don't
until your existence comes into to questioning
or mentioning
any other possibility to who you are
you think you know yourself until you don't
until your existence comes into to questioning
or mentioning
any other possibility to who you are

i couldn't tell [prod. bloom]

a nice chill tune about a dog hope ya like.

For a Free download the least you can do is follow me and not cheat me for a download, is that too much to ask?

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僕の子犬

update dec 2020: finally mastered the track +slight bass boost lol
Full name: Chiisana Boukensha (Miraie Remix)

Watch it on YouTube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GqWDFqYqOlQ

Free Download 💕

Konosuba ED (Miraie Remix)

Bang bang!
I'll load my plushie gun for youuu~

PLUSHIE GUN!  [NOW ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC]

Watch it on YouTube:
https://youtu.be/TZf5cx4SLKw

"Don't you think your kindness is not being appreciated?"

Free Download 🎃

Sayonara Remix (Doki Doki Literature Club)

Cinnabar

One of the fastest songs I've ever written. Synced to play with "[TF2] THE REWIND 2 MEMES VIDEO".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEaEnQCVMak

Match Point

🌙BAD END LONELY🌙
track / @Discent

[verse]
ねぇやっぱり悲しいんだね
映画館じゃ笑っていたのに
選んだ今じゃない bad end lonely
セカイまで憎んでしまいそうだ
その涙が願って晴れるなら
架けるワンダーランドへ
僕もあの主役のように雲の上で
ずっと飛んでいれるのにな
泣きたくない楽になりたい
喉が乾いてさキミにワケも話せない
描いたblueberryをすぐ側で
わかりあって 言わない you & I
共鳴したsympathy
上映時間は静まり
心配はないと
思い込みすぎた信頼
花火が変わる
タイムラプスみたく
忙しない夏
形を残した

[hook]
相変わらずヒグラシは鳴いて
明日をまた生き延びる僕らと
同じで なんだか違うような
2人ぼっち
相変わらずヒグラシは鳴いて
今日をまた生き延びた僕らと
同じで なんだか違うような
2人ぼっち

BAD END LONELY (Prod. Discent)

Hellkite

$HINOBU - end of the line

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smw&chill

free breakbeat kit

FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/lost-left-side
Produced by Wendigo.

LYRICS:

[ hook ]
ILL SEE YOU IN HELL
THAT'S WHERE I LAY
YOU'VE ALREADY DUG A HOLE
SO CLAIM YOUR GRAVE
PICK YOUR GOD
AND SIMPLY PRAY
WHERE DOES LIFE END?
I CANT SAY

IT FEELS SO USELESS
GRIEF SO RUTHLESS
WHY DOES MY SMILE
FEEL SO TOOTHLESS?
PICKED APART FOR CHANGE
HOPING LIFE WONT STAY THIS WAY

[ verse ]
SHATTERED HOPES AND DREAMS CANT GLEAM
UNDER ANY LIGHT, NO MATTER HOW BRIGHT
A LIGHT MIGHT SHINE OR RAIN DOWN UPON
WHAT ONCE WAS THERE, BUT NOW ISN'T

HEARD THAT HOPE WENT MISSING
DREAMS REMINISCING
SUICIDAL THOUGHTS WERE SURELY COMPLICIT
IN RUINING WHAT BE CONSIDERED PURE GLEE
SO AND SO SAID THEY MISS HOW HE USED TO BE

OH SO HAPPY
THOUGHTS SO SAPPY
BITTER BUT LAUGHING
PAIN PUT IN RAPPING
PECULIAR THOUGHTS PUT FORTH IN MIND
LOST LEFT SIDE, WOULD YOU HELP FIND MINE

INTERESTING PROPOSITIONS BROUGHT FORTH BY INTRUSION
RATHER END MY LIFE BEFORE I GO TO AN INSTITUTION
SOME MAY QUESTION MY DECISION, OR INTUITION
FUCK YOUR JUDGEMENT, YOU INSOLENT PIECE OF FUCK SHIT

SUFFER IN SILENCE OR TO SOMEONE I DON'T EVEN KNOW?
FUCK YOU, I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE A PROFESSIONAL
ITS ALL THE SAME WHEN YOU DON'T SEEK HELP, YOU JUST SEEK CHANGE
AND EVERYONE IGNORES YOU SO YOU ALWAYS FEEL DERANGED

SEE YOU IN HELL WHEN I EVENTUALLY TAKE MY LIFE
SPENT HALF MY TIME WONDERING WRONGS FROM RIGHTS
BUT IT'LL NEVER MATTER OR CAUSE ANY CHANGE
BETTER PREPARE IN ADVANCED AND JUST PICK MY GRAVE

Lost Left Side [prod. Wendigo]

FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/swan-song

LYRICS:
[ verse I ]
I cant be what you want me to be
plain and simple, I wish to remain me
I am not sitting here, wishing for your sympathy
I am here to simply ask that you think clearly
It's always mental gymnastics
swear I've just about had it
fed up with the bullshit
what you wanna call it
entire scenarios go through my head
options played through stereos
some where I'm dead
say what you will, but ill take my words to the grave
mental messed up to where some simply think I'm insane
your interpretation of me is meaningless anyway
call it a day and go ahead, play me a serenade

[ hook ]
play me a serenade
so I can go away
listen to my swan song
to know where I went wrong
today is not my day
it never is, I say
but you just play along
to my final swan song
I feel some sorta way
anything but okay
happy but it feels wrong
I can never play along
or so I say
maybe its all in vain
writing my swan song
so you can sing along

[ verse II ]
toxic truths fill my mental and
I feel as though I cant escape
lies told through gritted teeth
wish I could go away from this pain
overthinking, overstressing
over what's over
not what's to come
I often feel dumb
sometimes even done
reached my limit
I ain't quitting
perplexed about my next move
swear life ain't smooth
anti social anti interaction
stay inside all day
I don't see the sun
I'd like to believe its only a matter of time
before I fade away into the sky
but one last wish before I go away
go ahead, please play me a serenade

Swan Song [prod. $HINOBU]

ORIGINAL SONG: Shun Akiyama - Baka Mitai
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BAKA MITAI ($HINOBU EDIT)

HERE'S WHERE DEMOS, SCRAPPED SONGS N OTHER SHIT THAT DON'T FIT GOES.

$HINOBU - end of the line

SHINOBU SUCKS