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thank you for listening <3

LYRICS
I be on my sad shit
Rolling up a fat spliff
Take away the edge in my mind
Jump off that cliff
Embrace the fall
And land in madness
Or take another hit
And pass out on the mattress
My mind is damaged
How have I managed
Inhale the weed
Coz it helps calm the panic
Walk through the mist
And I’m covered in ashes
Killing myself bit by bit
Feeding my lungs
All this smoke like a gift
Coughing up blood now
I know I am sick

I’m Just a kid
But I’m suffering
Had enough of this
Might just call it quits
Why you calling me
Every night at 3
You just want my weed
You don’t love me

Take a blunt to the face
put me in comatose
Make me feel so great
Feel it all through my bones
I don’t like how it tastes
I don’t even like it though
But how can I change
When I’m feeling so low
I’m so out my zone
I’m so out my place
I can barely even focus
Always got me so dazed
Like my heads in space
Like my bodies in a grave
19 but the way I live
I’m ten times that age

nineteen (prod. RVMXO)

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All these drugs 
Give me cardiac 
Give me heart attack
Plastic baggies for my cash
While I’m rolling in the back
Double styrofoam cup
Make that lean go splash splash 
Yeh it make me feel so good
But I know it’s so bad
Now I’m in my thoughts
Like am I really proud 
Of myself 
Knowing that I need some help 
Oh well
I’m in hell 
And I’m burning up
My bodies gonna melt 
Yeh I’m burning up
Like a cyndaquil
Always feeling so ill 

Like woah
Leave me alone for a minute

Rock bottom on my own
Take a drink to help me cope 
I’m avoiding all the light
You won’t see me I’m a ghost 
She said I got a stained soul
They say I’m such a lost cause
Think I’m runnin outta hope
Leave me here coz I’m a corpse 

All this caffeine 
Keep me up at night
Keeping me alive
Can’t last a few hours
Or my brain starts to fry
Why’s my mouth always dry 
Why the fuck am I so skinny
Coz these drinks 
That I have 
Keep me going 
Through the evening 
I know
There killing me
My heart can’t take it no more 
I’m dying 
But the rate it’s happening 
Is so slow 
Dead by 25 
I just have that feeling so
I’ll leave it up to fate 
To continue down this road

blood clot (prod. RVMXO)

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Pitch black skies
Let the stars be my guide
On this cold winter night 
I don’t wanna catch a ride I

Walk through the snow 
when the weathers below 
I’m a cold blooded monster 
I don’t need a coat 

I gotta go 
My shoes are so damp
And my clothes are so soaked 
Everything’s froze 
My skin is so pale
You’d think I’m a ghost 
Yeh I’m a ghoul
This life that is live 
Is taking it’s tull 
 I’m not whole 
I’m so stagnant these days
That I’m now growing mold

Please stop ringing my phone 
I get anxious on calls
I get anxious on techs
That’s why I never text 
I keep losing my friends 
So I’m sorry to them 
Nightmares that never end 
Keep me up till the am 

Why does everyone lie?
Why do loved ones die?
What is the purpose 
This seems so worthless
I think need some advice 
I should just close my eyes 
Think of some things that’s are nice
But I cant do that
So I get outta bed
And walk miles on ice 

It’s so dark in the evening 
But it’s only like 5
Oh these cold winter nights
Is when the ghoul kid thrives 
You won’t catch me sleeping 
I’m awake all the time 
Coz these cold winter nights
Are of the perfect design 

Please stop ringing my phone 
I get anxious on calls 
I get anxious on texts 
That’s why I never text 
I keep losing my friends 
So I’m sorry to them 
Nightmares that never end 
Keep me up till the am

winter nights (prod. Karattt)

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LYRICS 

Cozy in my room
Im a ghost
Late nights
Lights low
Sad vibes 
Like woah I
push emotions out
And make em into sounds
I don’t really like to talk about them though 

Sorry if I seem pessimistic 
I’m just wishing for the best 
While tryna stay realistic now 

I’m a ghost 
In my room
Lettin all the dark consume 
And tighten its grip around me 

Say that like I’m proud
Really though I want an out 
So that happiness is found
And I’ll be free 

Cozy in my room 
I’m a ghost all alone 
Fallin into comatose
Can you save me

ghost (prod. hateful)

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Lyrics 

And I just wanna fly in the night time
Shooting stars make a wish 
That I’ll be fine
And you don’t gotta cry it’s alright 
Tell a lie you can see it in my eyes 

Feelin nice 
Got Ciroc right by my side 
With a little bit of ice 
Correcting my state of mind 
I’m getting a little fried 
She’s saying I’ll be okay 
Follow me this way 
We’re going now on a trip 
And heading to outer space  

And I just wanna fly in the night time x4

Going north 
Heads racing
No NOS 
Haven’t slept in a while
I think my face is melting off 
She’s saying to calm down
Before I start to drown
In the panic I’m use to 
I might get lost in all the doubt 
Oh

But I just wanna fly in the night time
Shooting stars make a wish 
That I’ll be fine
And you don’t gotta cry it’s alright 
Tell a lie you can see it in my eyes

fly (prod. linden)

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LYRICS

I can’t help but feel like I wann be born again
No emotions on my face I keep losing friends
And my minds playing tricks it won’t come to sense
In the dead of the night is where I’m at again

You could tell me that you love me but that don’t mean shit
My blackened heart falls apart inside this suit of skin
I look around at who I am and I don’t like a thing
If I stated where I was you wont like where Ive been

I’m staying sheltered I keep disregarding help
I don’t want no fucking pity I can do this by myself
I let smoke inside my body spew out into my brain cells
Pour dior onto my clothing let it cover up the smell

Everything that you find normal somehow I find it complex
Overthinking peoples action coz I feel like it’s a test
All they do is judge your flaws until a noose around your neck
And they claim they always loved you when you wasn’t at your best

I can’t help but feel like I wann be born again
No emotions on my face I keep losing friends
And my minds playing tricks it won’t come to sense
In the dead of the night is where I’m at again

You could tell me that you love me but that don’t mean shit
My blackened heart falls apart inside this suit of skin
I look around at who I am and I don’t like a thing
If I stated where I was you wont like where Ive been

again (prod. skeleton)

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LYRICS

In the silence 
All my thoughts begin to roam 
If I called you would you answer 
I’m afraid of the dial tone 
So I stay here so complacent
Switch my phone to aeroplane mode 
In the silence 
I’m not frightened
Because it’s become my second home

And how the fuck am I working daily coz I ain’t even getting payed
24 hours and 7 days a week this shit is lame
Coz my mental disassembles replace the pieces like a puzzle game 
Fill the void that’s creeping in with toxic habits 
To keep me sane 

In the silence 
I can’t ever seem to sleep
I could try but there’s no point 
Coz everything feels like a dream
Hard to say just how it is but 
Nothings ever what it seems 
In the silence 
I kinda like it
Don’t have to satisfy peoples needs

silence (prod. Teay)

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LYRICS : 

Underneath the oak tree by the lake
Think about my present and my past mistakes
I’m a fucking loser for goodness sake 
I don’t think I have it in me to change 

She fucked me up so bad 
I don’t like hearing her name 
Like how the fuck you do that 
Coz it drives me insane 
Nightmares on the daily 
I cannot rid this pain
You will always be engraved inside my brain 

Hidden in the shade I cover my face
I don’t really like to ever leave my place 
Feast upon my soul like how do I taste 
Made me feel so worthless for 2 years straight
I didint know no better dunno why I stayed
Memories resonate I can’t escape 
Every now and then I think I see your face 
Shivers to my core I close my eyes and pray

by the lake (prod. stranger)

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LYRICS

Where the fuck your head at
Where the fuck you been at 
I love this music shit I really mean that

Swear I’m going batshit 
I can’t really hack this
I have this passion I’m just never active 

And things don’t really work out
How the fuck I plan them 
Always let em down
I can’t stand it 

Dipped for a year now
Still I’m full of fear
Most days
I don’t even know what happened

Take me to a place 
Somewhere that I’ll be safe 
Over yonder past the way 
Where the clouds are never grey 
Where the warmth can heal my soul
And my skin can shed the mold
You could look me in my face
And know that I will be okay 


Where the fuck your head at
Where the fuck you been at 
I love this music shit I really mean that

Swear I’m going batshit 
I can’t really hack this
I have this passion I’m just never active 

And things don’t really work out
How the fuck I plan them 
Always let em down
I can’t stand it 

Dipped for a year now
Still I’m full of fear
Most days
I don’t even know what happened

I’ve been vacant
Going nowhere
Still I’m trying
I don’t know yet
What I’m doing 
I’m just clueless 
See the world
It’s all just hueless
Hear me now
Know I can do this 
Pack my shit
And keep it moving 
Pack my shit 
And keep it moving
Pack my shit
And keep it moving

wya (prod. fanki)

this was actually the first song i made since by the lake , enjoy :)

LYRICS

Deep inside the swamp
I done turn to rot
Really it’s my fault
I’m accepting what I got
Really I’m obsessed
With the things that I am not 
I could’ve flood the earth
If the tears never stopped 

My fingers getting burnt
I might turn to ash 
All I see around me is the 
Sight of what’s passed
There’s no signs of life
I think the reapers come at last 
Spare me just this once
Or take me just as fast 

I cannot change what’s been done 
Lead me to the place I’m from 
I will follow you right home 
I’ve been here for way too long 

Deep inside the swamp
I done turn to rot
Really it’s my fault
I’m accepting what I got
Really I’m obsessed
With the things that I am not 
I could’ve flood the earth
If the tears never stopped 

My fingers getting burnt
I might turn to ash 
All I see around me is the 
Sight of what’s passed
There’s no signs of life
I think the reapers come at last 
Spare me just this once
Or take me just as fast

swamp (prod. avxid)

1 of 4 songs from my upcoming EP project I am working on 
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LYRICS 


Black coat
Blacked out
Lookin like I’m from hell
Don’t you tell me
How the fuck I’m suppose to feel
I’m just being honest
I cant tell you what the fuck is real
I been rotting in this room so long
It’s like a prison cell 

But Im just way too scared to head back out
Into the world so I’ll stick to the background 
Could you maybe tell me what the fuck that’s bout 
Like can I even fix this someone teach me how 

Curse me out make me feel like less yuh
Dead already you can save you breathe yuh
Cant believe I thought it was a test yuh
But now I’m thinking this was for the best yuh 

FL till I feel both my lungs scar 
Addicted to this shit like black tar 
Had to do this though and rip the mask off
Coz I am way past the point of needing zoloft

Tears flow and yet I’ll tell you there’s no tears shed
Follow through a put a bullet up in my head
Another sad song who coulda guessed 
Leave me here all alone and let me rest 

Black coat
Blacked out
Lookin like I’m from hell
Don’t you tell me
How the fuck I’m suppose to feel
I’m just being honest
I cant tell you what the fuck is real
I been rotting in this room so long
It’s like a prison cell

collateral (prod. Trill Skeleton)

chorus
its kinda funny how life is X4

Verse 1
Its kinda funny how life is
you got me sitting 
in my room feeling so lifeless
im so lost inside my mind
i need some guidance
feel like a nuisance plaguing
people with a virus
will the pain ever end
it seems so timeless
im just sick all of your bullshit
and the lying
seems like the people
in the world are all so spineless
the way you act around me seems so falsifying
yuh

chorus
its kinda funny how life is X4

Verse 2
Yeh im just tired
I havent slept in days
so im so fucking tired
when i fall asleep it feels like i am dying
and the dreams i have are all so terrifying
and thats not me acting all defiant
im just fucked up
i hope you know im trying
but as long as im alive ima stay fighting
yeh as long as im alive ima stay fighting
yuh

still here (prod. Jody)

cold eyes (prod. Jody)

time waster (prod. killedmyself)

breakdown (prod. killedmyself)

Woah woah 
Don’t you know? 
I’m feeling great
I’m feeling dope 

Feelin fuckin better 
Feelin hope 

Happy that you’re gone
Good riddance though  
I see through the lies
You once told 
Happy by myself
Happy alone 

Just another name in your phone 
Just another voice note at the tone 

That’s the way it was
The way it been 

I’m just starin at computer screens 
Never sleeping like I’m a machine 
Wires in my mind are incomplete 
Barely functioning since fifteen
Broken habits I just need to wean 
Broken habits I cannot defeat 
Broken habits that I still repeat

i feel fine (prod. nadiak)

Verse 1

I’m from the city of the smoke 
The city is so pretty in the night time
Yet I hope we make it outta here
I just wanna stay afloat 

Sick of anxiety gripping at my throat
Stay inside my room I have nowhere else to go
Doesn’t really matter coz I keep it on the low
Hairs overgrown and my soul is going mold
Fluffy winter coat just to shield me from the cold 

Chorus

The city of the smoke
The fog is so dense 
I can barely see my phone x2



Verse 2 

I’m from the city of the smoke 
Where kids and problems 
Mix together like some rum and coke 
Where we all dreaming of
Travelling the globe 
Or Anything to keep our minds of
Broken loves and homes 
Tragedies and nightmares 
haunt us when we sleep 
Climbing to the pinnacle
And I am at my peak
It’s getting hard to breathe 
As the steps seem oh so steep
Sammy said it best
I need some sleep

smoke city (prod. Ejaay)

I can’t even think straight
But that don’t matter
Keep getting sadder
My bodies shattered

If you know me
I’d say that I’d get better
That’s not true though is it
All I wanna do is make cheddar
But i don’t wanna leave my room
This place is like a fucking tomb
Might start getting consumed
By the shadows that lurk and loom
They’ll all be here soon
I’ve Been awake since noon
3 days ago I’m doomed
I should eat some food

As the walls start to move
And I start seeing twos
I float from my body
And have no clue what to do
Coz I’m mentally fucked up
But I don’t wanna be drugged up
So It all gets sucked up
And I write it off as tough love

If I cease to exist
I wonder what I’ll wish for
Coz everything’s abysmal
I miss when things were simple
Those times I can’t rekindle
And words are less meaningful
And they’re actions are lethal
I think I’m just scared of people

I can’t reach out to anyone
And say I need help because
My problems arent their fault
I don’t wanna burden anyone
With all my issues
When they already have all their own

So ima just chill in the catacomb
And let life pass me by
I won’t participate anyway
So why should I even try

catacomb (prod. AIRAVATA)

Blacked out 
Looking like a death god
Pale white skin
Like sephiroth 
Yeh I’m fucked up
You’re probably better off 
Never enough
If I do the same shit 
Till all my flesh rots

Check my wrist watch 
Late into the night
What does this bitch want 
Text me that you love me
But you’re so wrong

I’m to far gone
Yeh I think I’m done 
How could you 
expect me to just move on

I don’t know where I’m going 
Head to my toes I’m so frozen
Losing hope 
This is my final moment


Woah I’m Lookin like a mess 
Bruised eyes
Long hair
But you’re girly 
Still hit me on the text 
Pessimistic bout my future 
I don’t got that long left 
When I’m living like this
When I’m living like a pest

I stay up on my grind
With some redbulls on my desk
Fuelling me up like a jet
Until I crash into my bed 
And hibernate so
Every body thinks that I’m dead 
I’m sorry I can’t get back to you
I needed some rest 

I don’t know where I’m going
Head to my toes I’m so frozen
Losing hope
This is my final moment
You’re better off though
Im an omen x2

sickboy

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