Sidney gish✨

Ukelele.

Blah

Club Songs

BCOS U WILL NEVER B FREE
a bedroom album by Rex

all songs written by Alex O'Connor
(not including 'cape fear' written & performed by Cosmo Pyke)

recording and production by Gianluca Bottoni
mixed and mastered by Oscar Boyd-Palmer
cover image by Clint Frift


A Song About Being Sad

mitski did the hissing noise in last words of a shooting star so i'm allowed to do this
then again her hissing noise was white noise and this is an unfortunate tone coming out of the dorm air conditioner
fuk off audio engineers

september song that i never recorded ! ! !! ! 

just to start this off,
this isn’t the start of anything,
just a song that i can sing to you
we’re standing in a graveyard,
a presumably dead arm
popped through the grass,
and who doesn’t talk about that

honey, you are nothing to me
alcohol and dopamine
i’m dying on the sofa
and i barely know the time

like an old man, say i reckon,
i love you for a millisecond,
but i don’t wear a watch or rolex
and my brain’s a toddler rollerskating down a hill, 

i took a spill
and ran into a tree,
and suffered minor injuries

honey, you are nothing to me,
i don’t call people anything that’s thought to be so sweet

now i’m just being bitchy,
cause all the stupid boys skipped over me
on our twilight hour meet and greet,
a coffee table theater scene,
but disregard the soaring chick back there in corner three, id rather let the poor kid sleep

he’s tripping balls, he’s tripping testes,
LSD, post- wisdom teeth
he got lost in the shower and he barely knows the hour

I wanna know your passwords
Without changing them in preferences
and all the childhood streets and deceased pets that they're referencing

and in the box i’ll type,
i’ll know all the numbers to try,
i wanna know the lyrics that you think of when you’re high

cause i’m in love with strangers who I’ve never even seen
and weird cut bangs and sweaters swaying kind of awkwardly
i’m in love with fresh air friends from overheated houses
till I uber up a giant park and dump my body in my dorm bed

honey you are nothing to me i don’t call people anything that’s thought to be so sweet, the speech is coming back with a vengeance it seems.

all these pretend spouses are a happy storybook,
that’ll turn to stark nonfiction in the time it took
for me to notice that I’m old, which means I’ll be 30 and happy
likely married to personified business casual khakis

and i’ll forget about it when i wake up late and stupid
i tried to tell the uber driver till he tried to hit it
i tried to tell myself because i’ve come this far along
i’m carrying my zombie arm to the 14th grade prom

honey you are nothing to me i don’t call people anything thats thought to be so sweet the speech is coming back with a vengeance it seems 
the speech is coming back with a vengeance it seems

Presumably Dead Arm

Homecoming Serf

Buckets Of Fun

BEST FRIEND

BIG thank you to @elijahwho for letting me use his beats for this song!! (u better go and follow)

elijah's TWEETer: https://twitter.com/elijahwhomusic
here's the original: https://soundcloud.com/elijahwho/weusedtotalkeverynight

& here are the lyrics!:
i didn’t think that it would come to this
i don’t rap so don’t go making deep analysis
of the situation
i wasn’t wishin
that i would go back into you

so tell me boy
are you there
do you enjoy

making me feel like a fool

we were all good
then you stopped
and i stood

and i lost you forever

we used to talk every night
ooh oh oh
we used to talk every night

so now my mind is full
of thoughts of me and you
what could’ve been, a life that’s good, but wasn’t meant for the two

of us…

i can see you by my side
so let me just say that i like you 

but we don’t talk anymore no,
we don’t talk anymore

we don’t talk anymore no,
we don’t talk anymore

but tell me boy
if by chance
i annoy

cause i’m head over heels for you

it breaks my heart
that we are
far apart

but it couldn’t matter less to you

we used to talk every night
ooh oh oh
we used to talk every night.

we used to talk every night (prod. elijah who)

SUNFLOWER

HEY EVERYONE, This track has actually caused me a lot of issues and may be taken down. Please support my other music as well as Im afraid the shiloh train will not last ;(

shiloh: https://www.instagram.com/shilohdynasty/?hl=en

is it too much to ask for (ft. shiloh)

Spotify!

surprise! here's another song, sorry i've been absent for a while. school ends soon for me so i'll be able to start uploading things a little more regularly :-) for now, hopefully, this suffices. i'm not 100% sure how to feel about it, i had no idea it would be four minutes long but wowie it was haha 

anyways, enjoy (or just listen and then never listen again, either is fine)

buy/support me :-)

please don't

for bre – i miss u kiddo. always will. 

lyrics:
don’t you cry my sunflower
i know you feel alone inside 
but the world is waiting for you to shine
so, don’t you cry, my sunflower
 
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, la-da-da-dow-dow
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, la-da-dow-dow-dow
 
don’t you cry my sunflower
i won’t forget your starry eyes
i’ve got you with me for my whole life 
so, don’t you cry, my sunflower
 
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, la-da-da-dow-dow
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, la-da-dow-dow-dow
 
ooh, it don’t get easier 
ooh, it runs right through my bones 
and time, is no friend of mine, come home, my sunflower
 
don’t you cry my sunflower
i know you feel alone inside 
but the world is waiting for you to shine
don’t you cry, my sunflower
 
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, la-da-da-dow-dow
la-da-da-dow-di-dow-dow, my little sunflower
*******************
learn more about the lyrics here: https://genius.com/Maya-lucia-sunflower-lullabies-lyrics

sunflower lullabies

sticking with the theme of happy sounding love songs, here's the latest addition... "cliché"! i hope you all enjoy it, i had a lot of fun writing it and i think it's rather fun to listen as well. :-) i've also noted that people really like having lyrics so here they are haha:

i walked into the room and i then i saw your face
you looked me in the eye
i wanted to erase myself, myself 

i didn’t wanna fall but then i stepped right in
i looked down at the ground 
and then i felt it right within, it was too late for me (late for her)

you took a step forward and tilted your head
with a curious glance you stared
and i felt dead, oh my god, i think i’m dying!

you said “hey”
and i said “hello”
what’s your name?
i’d really like to know 
about you, too bad i stopped at “hello.”

i just stared
and you grinned
and looked right back
it felt like just one big whirlwind one big whirlwind

over the next few days we got to talking
with every single word i started falling
farther and farther for you

you were witty and so charming
you swept me off my feet
you made me laugh you made me blush
oh no one could compete (no one could compete!)
it seemed to good to be true (it was too good to be true)
i wanted to be with you (and only with you)
we clicked like legos 
or the clacking of tap shoes 

you say “hey”
i said “hello,
how was your day?”
you said “better now” with a smile.
oh what a cliché.
but to be honest it made my day!

i didn’t wanna fall but then i stepped right in
i looked up at your face
and those eyes , they drew me in, it was too late for me

that’s what we were
a simple cliche
it wasn’t made to work 
but i wouldn’t have it any other way 

you were witty and so charming
you swept me off my feet
you made me laugh you made me blush
oh no one could compete (no one could compete!)
it seemed to good to be true (it was too good to be true)
i wanted to be with you (and only with you)
we clicked like legos 
or the clacking of tap shoes 

you say “hey”
i said “hello,
i gotta know, do you feel this way?”
you said “yeah i do, but i was scared of what you might say…”

that’s all we were,
a silly cliché
i still think you’re cute
but maybe it’s better this way

bah duh dum
bah duh dum
bah duh duh duh duh dum

bah duh dum
that’s okay
we’re just a little cliché
duh dah dum,
and that’s okay!

cliché

click here to buy :-)!

it's been a long time coming, but here it is, i hope you all like it

chords: Dmin G C C7

lyrics:
i’m happy for you
i’m smiling for you
i’d do anything 
for you for you

it’s always for you
and never or me
i need it to stop 
so let me tell you please

i’m always sad
and i’m always lonely 
but i can’t tell you 
that i’m breaking slowly

closed doors
locked in, no keys
keeping my feelings hidden 
there is no ease

i need it to stop
and i want to be able
to open up but, 
my feelings are fatal
(my feelings are fatal)

how many times
must i keep it inside
i need to let go 
and i swear that i’ve tried

but opening up 
means trusting others
and that’s just too much, 
i don’t want to bother

so i’ll keep it inside 
and bury it deep
i know it’s not healthy 
but you won’t hear a peep

though i’m always sad
and i’m always lonely
i could never tell you
that i’m breaking slowly

closed doors
locked in, no keys
keeping my feelings hidden 
there is no ease

i need it to stop
and i want to be able
to open up but, 
my feelings are fatal
(my feelings are fatal)

something

buy it here!

feelings are fatal

this is a REALLY old cover, like from last year lmao

i figured i might as well post it, there are some volume issues, but i still love the song a lot and had fun covering it lol.

skinny love

Impostor Syndrome

Sin Triangle

verse –
i feel like i'm fallin
for you, even though you are 
someone who never does me any good 
but I keep slippin to old habits

chorus –
you are my love addiction
and I just can’t get clean of you 
you are my love addiction
and I can’t seem to stop lovin you

verse –
some nights I wake up and 
you're not there, my soul just aches for you
to tell me everything's gonna be fine 
and I am really the only thing on your mind

chorus –
you are my love addiction
and i just can’t get clean of you 
you are my love addiction
and I can’t seem to stop lovin you
lovin you

chorus –
you are my love addiction
and I can’t get clean of you 
you are my love addiction
and I can’t seem to stop lovin you
lovin you 
i am fallin
***********
learn more about the lyrics here: https://genius.com/Maya-lucia-love-addiction-lyrics

love addiction (single)

love addiction

i dont know what this trend is called and i need a small podcast to explain this

Project from earlier summer and my first full studio recording. A good ol' light jazz clip enjoy

Brick Streets

Expectations (feat. Zaid Khan)

Featuring Christina Lacoste and produced by the Arcitype.

i dont know what this trend is called and i need a small podcast to explain this

Sidney Gish