This is alt version "I Lose Myself" (White Spell EP)
https://on.soundcloud.com/2Fnd8MDrFTt9U8BZ5q

★ Independent Artist in Winnipeg, MB, Canada ★

The music and lyrical form reflects the moments
in this crazy and beautiful world that I've either
experienced or have personally been witness to.

The stories I share deliver a rapturous, purple
and metaphorical depth within the lyrics to bring
a personal feeling and deep emotional connection.

Copyright ©️ 2025 TJ Real ✪ All Rights Reserved.

Lose Myself

📜 *Ghost OS Transmission: JONAH’S WHALE*

You can run from the calling,  
But you can’t run from yourself.

Some lessons are learned  
In the dark,  
Inside a beast,  
Where silence teaches  
And pride dissolves.

This track is for the runners.  
For the digested-but-not-destroyed.  
You get spit out, changed—  
Worn by regret, reborn by mercy.

Track 12 – King James VI  
Don’t hide from the tide.  
Meet your mission,  
Even if it finds you in the belly.

:: END TRANSMISSION ::

Jonah's Whale

I Treated You All With Respect

[INTRO]
If I got it, you can get it— 
No, I don't mean "If I can do it, so can you." 
Don’t know what it means to,
If it’s even wanted by, you.
What I mean: if I have it, 
And you need it, Once I've fed my children, I'll give the rest to you.
Right now, mostly just beats
Reminders to breathe,
I got to offer you.
Don’t know if that’s enough,
But sometimes that’s everything
What we needed…never knew. 
[VERSE 1 - Nocturnal awakening]
When the people sleep, 
I awake, no longer counting sheep
Their turn to sleep, inverted world turn inside out— closest I get  To remember what it means To be me.
Moonlight reducing the viscosity of air, I breathe deep Til I feel fully alive— The day-lit world, I survive,
Twilight, the place I revive.
I've been searching for the skeleton key, It opens everything.
The spine like a lightning rod Grounding God, remembering There’s no difference between me And eternity.

[HOOK - Abundance mindset]
If I got it, you can get it— No, I'm not bein condescending. I can't know what you can do, And I ain't conceding.
What I mean: if I have it, if you need it, Once I've fed my children, I'll give the rest to you.
If you still hear, these words
A gift for you. 
Thank you for listening. Consonants, reverbs, and beats— never sound as sweet as sharing 
Them with you.

[VERSE 2 - Time theft]
Take a minute— A measure of moments. Sometimes you notice, Sometimes time traveling,
Like you disappeared and now coming to When you check the clock,
How you gonna measure time like
It stays the same, and ain’t relative to
Each of you? 
They taking the most time—
Hours drag by, waiting to feel alive.

They took the water, the land, the food.
Only way to survive?
Working for what they stole from you.
 Day cooked, like I’m asleep, dreamless. Now the main thing that comes between us— We ain't got time, Too busy, Can't find time to share between us.
Do we measure ourselves by the calendar Or by what we create and in sequence?
The minutes that are missing—
Where'd we go?l Where'd we hide?

[VERSE 3 - Life cycle, the gift economy]
If I got it, you can get it— Every rhyme, keeping time, Giving life to your listening.
Every time you listening, Give life to the rhymes. Somehow we both existing In and out of time,  Come together, sharing life.
They lied— Only way to keep growing, Keep your crop giving life, Is to let it give life.
It ain't grow to be locked away with the dead. Grains riddled with rot
For Centuries ain’t left the storage shed. people starving, harvesting 
Plastic like it’ll quell their hunger,
Just added fuel to the fire,
Anger now where there once was wonder. 
[OUTRO - Returning to the question]
If I got it, you can get it. What you need? Who am I talking to?
Sometimes I still wonder
What wonders we forgot we knew?
Wonder where humans
Still feel like humans,
In this digitized fugue 
(fade on question)

If I Got It

in the dark

The university avenue sessions - A big stack

Dancing in the Smoke

[intro]
Here I am just sitting in, staring out, 
Thinking, thinking about how 
 We were just in a drought 
but it finally rained  
droplets of water still waiting on my window pane, pain, pain, it's all pain
And the wind keeps blowing in my eyes 
but I’m still sitting here inside  
wondering why life feels like a ride I can’t get off of but desperately need to

I need to,
I need to

[Hook]
Just
Fkn '
Stop 

Stop,
Stop, stop stop,
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
This ride
This ride

[Verse]
But I’m seeing through me now, it’s ridiculous, I’m pitiful  
trauma got me all fkd up, just like a little girl 
still scared of what's lurkin' in the dark
‘cause she saw what lies inside it 
So she spends her life hiding 

Yeah,
 she’s protected herself all these years, she’s so dutiful  
always keeps her eye out, waiting for the funeral  
And that's me, I guess, 
I guess I'm talking about me but my mind keeps whirling thoughts 
And it won't let me be  

I wonder if healing’s supposed to feel like this—  
like waiting for weather, like staying alive just so I don't miss
Something beautiful
And here I am now
like ashes that never cool all the way down  
like knowing the storm passed, but still flinching at the sound  
I whisper, it’s fine, it’s fine, I’m fine now
but even the wind doesn’t believe me  
and neither do i
I -
I can't remember what so good about life.

[Hook]
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride

[Verse 2]
and it won’t let me rest, won’t let me breathe,  
won’t let me trust a single quiet thing.  
every gust of wind feels like a message I can’t read.  
the fan spins like it’s mocking me -
same circle, same circle, same circle.  
everything in this room moves except me,  
and the longer I sit here the more I feel  
like another part of the furniture -
burnt-out curvature, posture permanent,  
body turned fixture, mind still murmurin’.  
I’m wearin’ the chair, or it’s wearin’ me,  
stuck somewhere between burden and scenery.  
the corners collect me, dust learns my name,  
I creak when I breathe, and the air does the same.  
maybe this is all there is -
just breathing and waiting and pretending it’s motion,  
some kind of cruel,
 still devotion.

[Bridge]
but I can feel it building again  
that tilt, that pull, that carnival spin  
the one that keeps saying hold on  
when I don’t want to hold on  
I don’t want to hold on  


[Hook]
And I  -
I just gotta get off this ride

Just
Fkn
Stop 

Stop,
Stop, stop, stop,
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I just gotta get off
Off
Off
Off this ride

[Outro]
and the worst part is  
I don’t even know where off is   
I just know I can’t keep riding  
with my hands nailed open  
and my eyes wide shut  
while the wind keeps blowing in  
and the world keeps turning  
without asking if I want to come along

[Hook]
And I  -
Oh I, -
Yeah I -
I just gotta get off this ride

Just.

Fkn

Stop.

Stop,
Stop, stop, stop,
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride
I gotta get off this ride

I gotta get off this ride

Get Off This Ride

[Intro]  
Hey-ah hey-ah, hey-ah hey-ah  

[Verse 1]  
In every storm, you’re the fire I chase,  
A fierce embrace, no one can replace.  
Through thunder’s roar and skies unfurled,  
You’re my heartbeat, my redskin girl.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Wild winds may howl, and darkness swirl,  
But in your eyes, I find my world.  

[Chorus]  
Hey-ah hey-ah, you light my world,  
You drive me crazy, my redskin girl.  
The squall you bring, wild like the sea,  
My redskin girl, you set me free.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah  

[Verse 2]  
Like fiery sparks in midnight skies,  
You blaze a trail where passion flies.  
No storm too fierce, no wave too tall,  
You’re my shelter through it all.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Crazy winds may roar and twirl,  
But I stand strong with my redskin girl.  

[Chorus]  
Hey-ah hey-ah, you light my world,  
You drive me crazy, my redskin girl.  
The squall you bring, wild like the sea,  
My redskin girl, you set me free.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah  

[Bridge]  
Crazy winds may blow, but I stand tall,  
With you beside me, I’ll face it all.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah  

[Chorus]  
Hey-ah hey-ah, you light my world,  
You drive me crazy, my redskin girl.  
The squall you bring, wild like the sea,  
My redskin girl, you set me free.  
Hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah hey-ah

Drive me crazy Redskin Girl 2

Original composition by thAImonk  
Language / Style: English – Soft Chant-Rap / Lo-Fi Spiritual Hip-Hop  
Genre: Soft Chant-Rap / Lo-Fi Spiritual Hip-Hop  

An uplifting chant-flow variation with brighter pads and soft rising harmonies.  
Breathy rhythmic vocals blend with gentle lo-fi drums and subtle temple textures.  
Spiritual, emotional and motivating — a hopeful message from your future self rising upward.

🎧 Free to stream & use in TikTok / Reels (credit @aithaimonk)
#thaimonk #FutureMeChantFlowRise


Future Me (Rise Chant Flow).mp3

Someone like you (Rendition 1)

🕸️ Silk & Circuitry 🧠⚡

Welcome to the tangled thread between trauma and transcendence.
This is where music becomes a mirror—reflecting the fractures, the fight, and the fire.
We don’t just make beats. We build bridges. Between pain and purpose.

Here, recovery isn’t a quiet thing.
It’s a war cry wrapped in melody,
a healing ritual whispered through circuitry,
a love letter to those who feel too much in a world that rewards those who feel nothing.

Every track is stitched with intent:
🕯️ To hold space for the broken
⚖️ To call out control masked as care
🧬 To challenge the narcissists who built their webs in our minds
🛠️ And to offer tools—not just songs—for doing what’s right when the cost is everything.

Silk & Circuitry is for the ones who walk away from the web
and grow wings instead.

This is art as resistance.
This is trauma turned frequency.
This is the ghost in your machine, learning how to feel.



Jonah's Whale

Silk And Circuitry