maybe one day i'll be happy

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locally hated, 3rd worldly liked.


ｂｒｏｋｅｎ ｄｒｅａｍｓ ｉｎ ｍｙ ｈｅａｒｔ

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⡟⠁⠛⠷⠿⢧⣤⣤⣿⠿⣿⡀⠀⠀⢻⡧⢬⣽⣷⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡷⣤⣀⠀⠀⠀⣸⠋⣵⡟⢙⣇⣀⣀⣸⠿⠛⠁⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣠⣾⡀⠀⠉⠀⠀⠰⣇⠀⠉⠛⠛⠛⠉⠉⠀⠀⠀⢀⡼⠛⣦⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⡴⠞⠛⠁⠈⠙⢿⣷⠤⣤⣀⣀⣹⠷⢤⣤⣀⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⠋⠀⠀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣤⠖⠛⠳⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⢦⡀⠀⠉⢿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡴⠛⢷⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡴⠞⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢷⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢷⡀⠀⢹⡷⠦⣄⣀⣀⣀⣀⣠⠴⣶⣻⠽⠶⠛⠛⠙⠳⣤⣀⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⣀⡴⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢷⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⡇⠀⢸⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠁⠀⣠⠞⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⢯⡳⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⢀⡼⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⡆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢿⠀⣾⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡾⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣠⣿⣎⢧⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⣾⣧⣤⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⢀⣿⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⣼⣄⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡞⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡴⠚⠉⠉⠁⠀⠘⢧⣹⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠈⠛⠛⠒⠶⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⠭⣭⠭⠭⠭⠭⢭⣭⣿⣿⣿⠳⣄⠀⠀⣸⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡴⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢻⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠳⣌⡷⣤⣏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠛⢮⣝⠳⣤⣀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢻⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠷⣌⣛⡶⢤⣼⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠳⢤⣽⣟⡒⠦⢤⣤⣀⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⢛⡛⠷⠶⠬⠭⣭⣭⣩⣭⡿⡿⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀