The Upload 06.10

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

Lyrics: 
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
filled with uncertainty
what path am I taking to currency?
treacherous roads lead to gold
anxiety taking the wheel with no courtesy
so I take the path filled with mold
these creatures they lurking behind me in bold
i'm fucked in the head and my body is cold
these questions unanswered echo in my dome
~
rewind freeze time
I'm copin with the music, hope it fix my mind
I might be fucking useless but I sure can rhyme
I'm grinding no excuses boy I love the climb
~
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
I can't get enough love
always wanting more
I'm craving every single touch
body hit the floor right after puffin on that dutch
eating beats for breakfast but ill save her for my lunch
~
nothing in the pockets of my ripped jeans 
reminisce upon the times that she said that she missed me
focused on my own dreams
bleeding out my own seems
I can't seem to find a scene where everybody feels me
out of place I can't erase my actions so I just freeze 
anxiety and the nose bleeds
sobriety is not for me
society got me feelings so fucked up, find happiness by my own means

Time moves on, so should you [prod. yunny goldz]

[+] sick of crying out for help
*produced by @thersx *

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TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

sick of crying out for help 
you don't seem to hear me baby I cant make a sound
lying on the floor tell me do you see me now
look at what you caused this aint what its bout
yeah its deeper than that there's no feeling
cut thru to the bone now im bleeding
I just try to think of you when im feening
cuz I don't wanna fuck this up
I just need some of your love
is it really that hard?
someone to hit up when im lying in the dark
all alone, baby would you even pick up if I called

crying out for help

crying out for help (feat. skele)

i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some say we make a good team
at the end of the day you could do what you want to
i'll never question a thing
and i get so nervous legs start shaking
but im pretty sure you know
we don't have much time 
so make up your mind
and tell me where you want to go
before i take you home

maybe i was too optimistic if you want i'll take the blame
i just can't help but reminisce it cause i how these things change
i miss the way that you talk
the hop in your walk 
your eyes and that stupid grin
the way you said its okay i trusted you dang, oh why did i let you in
i should've known better wrote letters made things feel complete
instead i just let her, just let her slip away from me

i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some say we make a good team
at the end of the day you could do what you want to
i'll never question a thing
and i get so nervous legs start shaking
but im pretty sure you know
we don't have much time 
so make up your mind
and tell me where you want to go
before i take you home

now it's just me 
reminiscing eighteen
memories can't save me
but i keep looking back
now it's just me 
thinking bout what could be
memories can't save me
but i keep looking back
i keep looking back

cause i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some said we made a good team
at the end of the day i just did what i wanted
you'd never question a thing
and i got so lazy things got crazy 
but you probably wouldn't know 
well we had our time
you made up your mind
so i guess it's time to let you go
ok, i'll let you go

let you go

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amv:
https://youtu.be/6PVfJgVxxXc

lyrics:
i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

trying my best
you'll be better off alone
cause im a mess and i just stare at my phone
you can find another one
he’ll treat you better than i ever could  ohh
kissing in the shower, i'm missing you after
you should see my head love
i'm such a disaster
ohhh you'll stay for awhile
it cuts me deep everytime that you smile

i've
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, you’ll have to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i’m so used to tryna finish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

i'll regret it when you're gone
getting tired of writing the same songs
i can't help but worry that you'd leave
there's no way that anybody could want me
almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i guess i'll see you for a night
i've been breaking baby
could you hold me tight
i'm so scared when you let go
i fall apart, i'm learning on how to pick up the pieces
i've been holding on to you for a reason
f*ck
i'm so used to being told im not enough
i'm so used to trying to vanish all the cuts
so it's up to me to seem somebody you want
it's all my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

almost breaking apart
too many nights in the dark
i love the way they hurt me
it's kinda turning me on
one day in the park
i want to kiss in the car
i want to hear that you love me before breaking my heart

i'll regret it, when you're gone

skele - it's my fault, i'll regret it when you're gone

Lyrics:
Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

Maybe hit the blunt, I could live, and be happy
Then it goes away, and it's done, now I'm mad G
Always wanna float, but I sink, in the vast sea
Baby kiss my neck, on my lap, call me daddy

Ain't nobody care if I'm dying on the low
Say that theyll be there if I ever wanna go
Tryna be okay and thats all I'm tryna show
Never feel okay but I guess that's how it go

I guess thats how it go
x4

Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

I dont know, I guess I'm giving up
hit the bowl, yeah my mind be kinda fucked
staying low, homie ima keep it a buck
hope that i choke, deep in my sleep, dont give a fuck

Funeral

Funeral (prod splashgvng)

sing me lullabies (feat. ghosthands)

скоро не sad type треки 

контролировать себя сложно как никогда сейчас
и ты упустишь этот шанс и я и ты наш общий шанс
судьба на судьбу меняй
судьба на судьбу решай
друг друга не знаем отстань
так просто отпускай
судьба на судьбу меняй
судьба на судьбу решай
и я и ты наш общий шанс
хочешь отпускай
дальше говорить
ты знай в пустоте, в твоей простоте
под гитару е
люблю тебя.. ты знай
люблю тебя.. ты знай
ты знай
вместе давай умирать, вместе давай умирать
вместе давай умирать
пришло и время нам сгорать
вместе давай умирать, вместе давай умирать
вместе давай умирать 
пришло и время нам сгорать
вместе давай умирать, вместе давай умирать
вместе давай умирать
пришло и время нам сгорать
вместе давай умирать, вместе давай умирать
вместе давай умирать 
пришло и время отвечать

вместе давай умирать (prod. m4yf)

prod bear

LYRICS
im losin all my friends yea
sometimes i jus pretend that
ur still right here with me
but it aint been the same since u hit that tree
now i numb myself with everything
i can get my hands on it aint helpin me
but at least im livin comfortably
while the hospital bed is where u sleep :( fuck
u cant get any rest there
come stay with me
i'd treat u o so nice dear
can u help me please
im high like every night but
at least im free
call me the i don't care bear
cus ima freak ! :p

where'd my friends go

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~ falling apart (feat. deadfish)

@gloom3
Twitter.com/ihategloome
@sadmccn
twitter.com/sadmccn
- prod. nxturnal

Lyrics 
stab me in the back this time 
said it's over and you cried 
swore i didn't lie though
my grip let go
sent drunk texts at 2am
put you in your place
said stay out of my face
don't
tell me one more time it's my fault
tell me one more time not to call
you know i meant it
said i'm demented
lights out
drug on me
iced out
so cold can't breath
suns out
no clouds
but never felt so gloomE

(gloomE)
This aint relapse
This a sickness
I don’t wanna fight back
Come back cause u miss this
I’ve been off the shit
Haven’t popped for a minute
Everything consumes me please just give me intermission
Yeah
Fucked up straight A’s
Never took a test sober
Now i lose cash getting home with a uber
Left me on read all i wanted was closure
Maybe someday we could talk when we’re older

Maybe we could talk it over when we're older 
numb, running til the holes burn through my lungs
cause' you might just believe
your crooked tongue

gloomE (Feat. gloomE)

Fortune & Fame (Prod. Elijah Heaps)

Loyalty (Prod. 4evrgone)

[+] wrist cut to the artery yea it hurts so bad when you lie to me
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
cut you off like an artery
got a bad lil hoe in my army
and i could really see what you are
look inside your eyes and your heart
i can really do that
im kind of crazy
i just wonder now how the fuck you goin save me
but you not this
and you not that
so lets not label shit
and i’ll put you on the map

im a fucking pyro
burnout on my chest ima pyscho
i could cut you off like coldest winter night yo
i’d just leave you there in the past
focused on my bag
and its goin up fast
remember when u told me that id never be shit
now you check my page all you gonna see is hits
i be with my gang and i know theyll never switch
its burnout xo and we blowin up this bitch

[hook: seejayxo]
i gotta cut you off like an artery
i got a bad lil hoe, she my barbie
i gotta tell you now, i'm fucked up
baby i don't feel nothing i been stuck

[verse 2: skele]
wrist cut to the artery 
yea hurts so bad when you lie to me
i'm not even close to who i wanna be
yea you could leave it's hard to see
i know, i'm not really okay
nails painted black its a pretty heartbreak
and you don't really miss me just another mistake
i'm so cold going down in the flames

(seejayxo + skele)
wrist cut to the artery 
yea hurts so bad when you lie to me
i'm not even close to who i wanna be
yea you could leave it's hard to see
i know, i'm not really okay
nails painted black its a pretty heartbreak
and you don't really miss me just another mistake
i'm so cold going down in the flames

artery (feat. lil skele)

follow skele

artery (feat. skele)

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

guitar: @jude18

lyrics:

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

i've been playin to much, 
one minute you hate me and the next you wan fuck
just look at my love, yeah look at it goes
every time i'm up it seems like you want me more

and that sucks my heart's inside my lungs
i hit my plug he fill me up
i don't want nothin but your love
you hit me up and said we done

oh no oh god what have i done
become all the things that i've been runnin from
i thought we were done talkin shit, were above that
but words turn to fists its becoming a  blood bath

but i'm drunk so i run back, if you call me an asshole
i don't have a comeback, i'm not just an asshole
i know that you know that, you're craving my soul but i already sold that

i'm bravin the cold, you already know that i hate this
fuck love i wanna be famous, at least i can't be shameless and
spend all my time gettin wasted, but that's you wanted right
i don't wanna hang on right, i'm on my own tonight
you make me wanna die, i'll let you kill me some other time

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

cryin too much w/ koi & lil xtra

'Sin-Shi'

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~ falling apart (feat. deadfish)

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