im missing you n i hate it

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

produced by hiraeth


and its too late to give up now
im not trying baby even if i let you down
and its too late to be up now
im not tired tho my eyes are tryna sleep now
im not lying but my thoughts are deep now
and id try it but my wrists are getting weak now
i would have met you bro but i can barely speak now
im sick of trying no im sick of being let down

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

do you feel how i feel now ?
i feel weak and my body is let down
from me
if nobody can save you 
then why leave ?
you want somebody to love you but not me

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

abyss

the air (prod. saint mike)

Main Artists: lil XipZ x Teddyboi x Shxdy808
Production: Shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x Teddyboi
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LYRICS:

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse: TeddyBoi]
i miss you but i wont change shit
gotta leave you in the past, this gun on my hip
and this perc on my lip
I know i said that again
but i cant cope without you 

i said i loved you and i meant it, meant it
told me that you loved me
you aint mean it mean it
how you use the fucking word
and see the fucking meaning
yea you dont love me
you dont love me 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Bridge: lil XipZ]
girl i love you
i know youre done but i had to tell you 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
and it hurts seeing you with someone else
i know its not my fault but still it feels like hell
breaking down as i always do 
i know its not my fault but girl im missing you 

[Verse 2: Teddyboi]
yea i feel like its my fault, my fault
baby i just need to call one more time
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
and no matter what i did, i did it wrong
yea like this song, think i made it about you but i made it about someone else
truth is, i dont moved on, working on myself and my health and im working on my wealth, yea

XipZ x teddyboi x Shxdy808 - Someone Else

@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

spotify!

care [JPJP x OC]

yup this is one of those songs you sit back and play right before you

HARD DRIVE [p. methboiswag]

sorrowintheway(myss)

I can feel the weight on your shoulders
I know it’s only worst now we’re older
This world is so messed up
Everything is falling apart 
Would you let me in your heart
Let me help you in the dark

Stay, can you please just stay?
Can you please just wait?
I can keep you safe
Just stay (Just stay)
Just wait (Just wait)
I can keep you safe (I can keep you safe)
Stay can you please just stay
(Wait can you please just wait)
Stay I can keep you safe
(Just please don't runaway)
I know you love me
I know you're sorry
You can’t see past the wall
I’m trying to climb it
But you wanna fight it
I can’t survive the fall
I’ve said the wrongs things
Too many times before
I’ve made it easy for you
To just walk out the door
But would you

Just stay (Just stay)
Just wait (Just wait)
I can keep you safe (I can keep you safe)
Stay can you please just stay
(Wait can you please just wait)
Stay i can keep you safe
(Just please don't runaway)

RUNAWAY (feat. Yung Van) [Album Version]

Cresci ouvindo que eu não ia chegar,
Que meus sonhos eram grandes demais pra alcançar.
Carreguei pedra no peito, chorei sem ninguém notar,
Aprendi com a queda que só cai quem tenta andar.
Os becos da vida me mostraram escolha,
Ou eu virava cinza, ou virava chama que acolha.
E na solidão encontrei minha própria voz,
Descobri que a esperança ainda mora em nós.

E se o mundo fecha portas, eu crio a minha entrada,
Se a vida me derruba, eu volto mais preparado.
Não sou refém da dor, nem prisioneiro do passado,
Meu futuro é poesia no papel rabiscado.

Já passei noites frias sem saber o amanhã,
Me alimentei de fé, de coragem e de afã.
Vi amigos se perderem, desistirem no caminho,
Mas aprendi que até no escuro eu nunca tô sozinho.
Cada lágrima que cai hoje vira canção,
Cada erro me constrói, lapida o coração.
O trap não é só música, é grito da minha alma,
É a ferida que sangrou transformada em calma.

E se o mundo fecha portas, eu crio a minha entrada,
Se a vida me derruba, eu volto mais preparado.
Não sou refém da dor, nem prisioneiro do passado,
Meu futuro é poesia no papel rabiscado.

Não é sorte, é persistência,
É manter de pé minha essência.
É olhar no espelho e acreditar,
Que todo sonho tem o direito de voar.
"...Meu futuro é poesia

Andei por ruas que ninguém quer lembrar,
Vi sorrisos falsos tentando me enganar.
Mas cada lição virou tinta no meu papel,
Escrevendo a história que só eu posso dizer.

Aprendi que esperar também é resistência,
Que cada queda ensina sobre paciência.
E se a noite insiste em trazer solidão,
Eu encontro força na própria mão.

Meu coração é livro aberto, tinta que não secar,
Cada rima que faço é alma que se manifesta.
Se o mundo me empurra, eu resisto e escrevo,
Porque viver é rimar com tudo que eu acredito e recebo.

O tempo passa, mas minha história permanece,
Entre linhas e versos, minha voz não enfraquece.
Cada cicatriz é poesia que o tempo guardou,
E cada passo em frente mostra quem eu sou.

Poesia Rabiscada

every minute seemed like an eternity

♡

take me far away from here

lyrics:

bite your tongue
say nothing
i dont wanna hear a thing

looking at myself like why the fuck i got this rage within
ask myself this question every night
only time i get relief is when i stare into the light 

and i got the same stack of supplies
i cant change the meds and hope that everything will be just fine, no
i just got to find the inner light
looking deep i gotta switch on everything that i might like, no


i just hit a 14
i can not afford it
i been on the same ride
looking for a new sign
who u calling basic
bitch u lookin wasted
you know im inclusive
u wish that u could use me

i just hit a 14
i can not afford it
i been on the same ride
looking for a new sign
who u calling basic
bitch u lookin wasted
you know im inclusive
u wish that u could use me


i dont wanna pray my sins away
and i dont wanna feel like a mistake
i cannot erase what i did in the past
but i know how to grow and i feel like ive done so
but no one believes me
and i find it hard accept that im this easy to forget
i just wanna get some rest

i dont wanna pray my sins away
and i dont wanna feel like a mistake
i cannot erase what i did in the past
but i know how to grow and i feel like ive done so
but no one believes me
and i find it hard to accept that im this easy to forget
i just wanna get some rest


i just hit a 14
i can not afford it
i been on the same ride
looking for a new sign
who u calling basic
bitch u lookin wasted
you know im inclusive
u wish that u could use me

i just hit a 14
i can not afford it
i been on the same ride
looking for a new sign
who u calling basic
bitch u lookin wasted
you know im inclusive
u wish that u could use me

shut up!!

another throwaway track, might put on spotify soon tho x

lyrics ~

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

and baby do you bleed like the others do?
and tell me does your heart scream like others too?
i don't really like the honest truth
so i'll just let you lie and just pull me through

do i really know you?
do i really know you?

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

but you won't let me go yeah
i don't really mind that
i'll just say a couple words and pray you bring me back yeah
i don't really see what the point is in all of this
but i don't really see what i'm missing here

do i really know you?
do i really know you?

do you love someone else?
i don't really get it but i'll take it well
and will you stay the night? Don't kiss and tell
cos you know that i love like nobody else

LYRIC VIDEO

~ nobody else (do you bleed like the others do?)

finger on the trigger of a loaded gun

Intro

Support Venus: https://www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

_____________________________________________________
Lyrics:
watch the time moving past but this love everlasting
you're the hot to my cold, you're the waves to my crashing
and I can't find no one who loves me like you do (know it's true)
when I hold you near its clear we will get through (turn from blue)
those green eyes the keep finding the way to my heart
right from the start, cannot tare us apart
found the other part of me in you
~
girl I love you
soon 
we'll get out of this zoo
start up a new
life for each other
and we can pursue
everything that we wanted to do
late nights spent cuddled tight
I take in the view
mattress left vacant
my sheets smell like you
I cannot take this
I'm feeling so blue
cause I really miss my boo

Everlasting [prod. venus]

till its over (ft hix)(prod.P4RA)

music artist from Michigan
hmu on ig @fuckyougoyardsadboi or hit up my manager @crizzywhitemanagement
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ghxst collective member till I die

'Sin-Shi'

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~ nobody else (do you bleed like the others do?)

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