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CALLmeKAT - Bug in A Web (CVPELLV Remix) {FREE DOWNLOAD}

my favorite song that I've made thus far. i really think it encapsulated my state of mind recently

lyrics:
I'm gonna hold my breath
I'm gonna take it slow
why does everyone seem to know
what to make of this
there's nothing to build
all the sunlight
melted all the snow

maybe one day soon, I'll see you again
when the times right and its under the moon
and I only need a moment because
it won't take long to say "I've missed you"

winter warmth

DarksoulsVoicemail

1999 ep

New Year's Day

Knumears - Wish I Was

Audience of One - Saosin

robot ep after dharmaboss u heard it here first 
yeahhhhhhhhh
im a robottttt
my gearsss

touch my wires
touch my heart
touch my gears
touch my heart

touch on my wires
my wires
my wires
my wires
my wires
my wires
MY CODE
MY CODE  
MY CODE
MY CODE

cutmeup ~ omfg touch on my wires just like that prod. me

Fog Lake - 12 - Spectrogram

Jeans Wilder - In My Dreams

lyrics: 
i have mood swings so bad i am scared of going out
go from happy to depressed in twenty minutes and i doubt that i can
focus even function if i try to go to school
when half my day is crying laying in a pool of my own drool
i hate these days where im frustrated and upset and overwhelmed
where i am happy then i hate myself and wish that i was dead
then im excited go out thrifting and then as im walking home
i feel so bad i feel like shit and i just wanna be alone
tired of trying  and slowly detaching
then randomly smiling and feeling fantastic
then laying in bed for an hour just staring
then reading and cleaning and laughing and caring

i have mood swings so bad  that i cant fathom i am real
i have one too many feelings for just one person to feel
im so tired i can barely keep my eyes open at best
yet for 4 hours i lay awake not sleeping in my bed
i spend my money oh so recklessly i dont have self control
and then i feel so bad about it i just wanna stay at home
my one big problem is that i have shit to do i cant just sleep
the other is i am so energetic i cannot sit still
frantically browsing the apps on my iphone
lights my face up like an sos signal. “come home”
i feel so alone but i just wanna fake it  we’ll
pretend i am happy till another moodswing  makes it real

and i eat until i almost puke, i smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, i pet my cat and i do laundry then my body is in pain, i wake up from my nap, another nightmare creeping to my brain, i get my stories straight, im ok if they ask, forget my meds and eating then i shower 3 times in a row cus its nice to feel the fake warmth to pretend im not alone. laying on my body like a caring sillhoute, instead of a chalked up silver showerhead
i am so lonely and so happy im alone
i am so tired of my phone
i am so worried bout my friends
but are they worried bout me too?
i am so scared that this is it
then i feel patient as can be
then i feel reckless and confused
then i dont know what to do
and the man strongly implied
that i was faking being sick
to somehow make music about something
where i dont know shit
and i was angry as i sat
in my pjs  on the counter
in the late afternoon
having skipped school  and a coward
told me to get therapy and get medicated well
both are things i eat for breakfast
both are things i need and hell
i am doing what i can and surviving so you know
i am singing bout my struggles
cus theyre mine to sing about

Moodswings To Do About Nothing

Fog Lake - 12 - Spectrogram

SirDork