ARCHIVED MIXES / SETS FROM @MURDERCLUBMUSIK ★★★
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BOOKING INQURIES ★★★
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When one person looks at themselves they’ll always either assume the best or assume the worst. It seems as if there’s never truly a middle ground when it comes to the perception of one’s self. Oh me? Well frankly, I’m simply the outlier. I’m on the border and cusp of neutrality when it comes to my own self perception and I refuse to answer your question. Well it’s fair cause I asked the question? I don’t know why you’re being so mean to me it does seem unfair to question me this much. Sure sure I’ve had doubts of who I am and what I do and when I do it but don’t we all? Aren’t we all questioning on some type of way?? I feel as if we’re all cogs in the great big machine of life and you’re in the same boat. Yes YOURE the one we need to focus on not me but YOU! It’s simply just unfair to put all the eyes on me I hate this so much. Okay fine, I might think of myself as a god of some sorts. Undying, unyielding, compassionate yet fair, and SUUUPER hot. Yeah I’m the complete package I do say so myself. Seriously though, I’m just the best and the greatest when it comes to anything at all even fishing ! Did you know I could fish so well that I can pull a great white myself? Yeah all but myself buddy watch who you’re talking to next time. I’m just better I don’t have to explain anything to you I’m the best and the better one in this little silly game of life you fucking beast. Actually, I retract that statement, IM the beast. I’m the monster that unleashes his terror and rampages on the helpless towns. I’m uncontrollable and my actions are my own. That’s right, I take FULL RESPONSIBILITY when it comes to my actions and my chaos that I’ve created myself. But would that still hold? Well frankly I myself am better and a god to you people but those actions and statements paint me more as a beast now. I also admitted to being a beast so I guess that’s my own fault but I have my tendencies!! I’m not perfect neither of you are! You’re all the same as me but not fully the same somewhat the same you know? I’m excused when it comes to carnage and being bad but for you? You’re not allowed to be bad or rage only I may. I can take this out on unsuspecting people and my subjects all I want and it’s cause I’m simply better. You really think I care? Well sure I do! I care enough to do it again so are we good? Are we in the clear ? Do you guys understand now? When it comes to this game I created I can do whatever the fuck I want you clown, you horrible fucking stupid bitch. Sorry, I don’t know what came over me. Well, maybe I do. It all started years ago in the summer of 2005. I was walking in my home and I fell and spilt my plate of pizza and celery. I never felt the same. That feeling of loss, self doubt, hatred, rage, sadness, all hit me at once. But never once did acceptance fall into place. I myself never, not ONCE accepted anything that’s happened to me. It’s never my fault and it’s never something I’ll ever accept. My reality is my own and my fate is my own, but why did that happen to me then? Why did things have to fall apart and continue to snowball. If I’m truly in control then why can’t I change the bad things that happen to me? Why can’t I ever change these things? Am I ever really in control? Am I ever able to fully grab the reins and do what I want? Or am I another cog in the machine? Holy shit. Holy shit wait I’m not the better one. I’m also like one of you guys. I’m not ok no no no this can’t be. You’re telling me this entire time I’ve been the delusion one and the wrong one? I’ve simply been masking and lying in order to feel like im in control. As a result, I’ve excused my actions and my transgressions by saying im for some reason absolved from sin and from fault when in reality it is my fault. Oh god. Merciful beautiful god forgive me. Father forgive me, Mother im sorry, Family, Friends, all, im so sorry. What have I done? Why am I like this? Why I’ve hurt all those around me just because I’ve been blind? Blind. It’s so dark so dark..

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