HAITIAN SILK

LUCKY

if thats what i owe interlude p. me

track 1 of 9

produced, mixed and mastered by me

(chorus)
i don't wanna give up on you especially not right now
wanna reach out to you but you won't make a sound
i don't wanna move on cause it was always you
it was always you, it was always you

(verse 1)
i don't wanna fade away, neither do you
the smile on your face stuck with me like a tattoo
cause it was always you
i'll walk it til it's true, i know i'll make it through
don't really care about what they say, i don't fuck with that lame shit
not tryna make new friends, i'm with my day-ones til we ancient
i know you think i ain't shit, but i ain't wanna face it
please, just let me explain this

(bridge)
love always makes me anxious
i'm done with all the fake shit
don't look back if it's wasted
I've gone through many phases
and way too many stages...
i'm flippin through the pages

(verse 2)
right now i just need bliss, and innocence
okay, i'll wash away my sins, like this
don't reminisce, that's a risk
it's just a memory, don't you see

(chorus)
i don't wanna give up on you especially not right now
wanna reach out to you but you won't make a sound
i don't wanna move on cause it was always you
it was always you, it was always you

forever is a long time

always you

Im chillin bitch u doin way too much 
yo nigga is confused (on) why there's an engine in my trunkk yea
x2
I'm walking thru ur city say whats up bro
im really getting money 
sorry nigga ur a dumbfuck 


im really getting money u should go up 
all new hundreds, all blu, Saratoga
baby if i were to fall is it over?
all black fit in the middle of October 

x2

bitch im rockin hoodies wit tha faux fur
she tryna tell me that she love me idk her 
and her friends lookin at me like you go girl
baby i dont even know her...
...

i dont even know her

switch'll wake a nigga up like its folgers
my wallet lookin like a folder
im walkin thru the city and my 
im walking thru the city and my s-s

im walkin thru the city and my ssoul hurts
i heard  he said wassup 
i said like yo gurt
my shit beatin out my chest i said my heart hurts
i feel like imma win the race 
i didn't start first
and bitch im all about my green like im a gardener 
should i go harder?

im really getting money u should go up 
all new hundreds, all blu, Saratoga
baby if i were to fall is it over?
all black fit in the middle of October 

x2

saratoga p.me

@fern_shy
@desm9s
i don’t know how i could fuck up so bad this time
language art prepackaged in a rhyme
i don’t talk to myself so everything is a lie
don’t pay attention to the clock too much, you’re running out of time
i swear im not a stalker im not tryna be a spy
cut the pi up into fractions for my guys, like everytime

i fucked up because im stupid and insecure i’ll admit it
i was treating it like a race but i tapped out before it’s finished
tryna live like charlie there’s no way you’re fucking winning
i can’t fw kids but someone pls think of the children

let’s take it back to the beginning
it’s a cybernetic relationship, the out affects the in
the ego affects the id
don’t let the air out, somebody please close the lid
im tryna feel you skin to skin
you make me melt like paraffin

desmos just hit a phage dance in the biome
i hope that ET’s at home, imma phone him
if numerology can turn some dirt to a golem
then irrational talisman please give me an omen

i don’t know how i could fuck up so bad this time
language art prepackaged in a rhyme
i don’t talk to myself so everything is a lie
don’t pay attention to the clock too much, you’re running out of time
i swear im not a stalker im not tryna be a spy
cut the pi up into fractions for my guys, like everytime
everytime, inside of here we’ll be alright
it’s fine, there’s organisms out there from which we hide

talismān, a collaborative effort between fern, desmos, and theta

if i say let’s go 
let’s go 

bands on me 
candy coat 

i live life on my own 
cuz i dont think that i belong, 

can you 

please tell me what u on 
please tell me what u want 

i look into the moon 
it tells me everything is wrong 

but i’m fine 
im me all the time 
my doors suicide 
my blood red seats they recline 

shoutout to my mama 
she gave me wings so i’ll fly 

shoutout to my papa 
he said it all comes wit time

i dont think that i belong prod me lyrics in description

I cant go home and tell my mom it isnt working prod me

let my fucking self down 
like where’s the door? i let myself out 
oh u think i’m selfish but u sold out 
wait till my shit sold out 
showing out showing out 
everybody wanna talk to me right now i put my phone down 
slow down 
i’m walking right down the road now 
head in the clouds 
can’t remember shit i even wrote it down…
left a couple notes 
right under my nose 
put some color on the page i got a bloody nose
i’m the fucking germs right under your water hose
wait till everything fall down like some dominoes 
this shit going down that’s all you gotta know 
when i jump right in i say geronimo 
my lil bro get the dough fucking papa joe
no one followed the rainbow i found a pot of gold 
it’s like a found a key 
everyday i feel like it’s me vs me
when i wake up it’s red that i see 
probably cus i had a bunch of fucking bad dreams 
it’s like halloween without the candy 
i got tricked when you treat me like this 
got my candles lit just so i could make one wish 
that’s it 
grow a couple feet so i could reach it 
just out of my reach yea 
i’m not here to teach ya
but if you really listen probably could learn something from me 
i learn some from you that’s just what we do
there’s not fucking rules inside my classroom 
there’s no fucking rules you can’t read the room 
moving way too fast like i’m playing doom
feel like indiana jones cus i came out the tomb
no you can’t the read the room you can’t read the room 
tell me what to say when it’s hard to see 
i been out lost i’ve been out at sea
and i’m fucking name it start with a C 
but it’s notforever i’m gonna be better 
imma say whatever fuck the stormy
weather 
when we all together it’s b&u
i just like being me with you 
let my fucking self down 
like where’s the door? i let myself out 
oh u think i’m selfish but u sold out 
wait till my shit sold out 
showing out showing out 
everybody wanna talk to me right now i put my phone down 
slow down 
i’m walking right down the road now 
head in the clouds 
can’t remember shit i even wrote it down…

out of reach (casperrusa)

splinter

satellite

vesper (2024) 

a five song EP accompanied by a photobook.

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this project grew while listening and falling into loops i produced on my computer. with the drafts in my headphones, i wandered with my camera,  photographing pathways that morphed into portals in the darkroom.

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EP:
prod. by me and @casperrusa on guitar, bass and engineering

photobook:
originally shot on 35mm illford HP5 plus



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