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produced by @rooseveltnoise
featuring @iii_scar

[lyrics]
you tell me stay but I’m knowing that I really gotta go
to a place I can hideaway and finally be alone 
Some would say I’m a loner I’m a spirit im a ghost 
but nothing matters in the end I gotta do this on my own 
What do I know 
At the end of the day 
When everything is collapsing 
Where’d the time go 
I don’t know say and now I’m overreacting 

Does it pay to play pretend 
Cause I won’t 
No I got more common sense 
When I wake it’ll be the end 
So hold on 
I cant make any promises 

All these words left
Unspoken 
I wonder if you notice 
How i lose all
My focus 
get caught up in the moment 
(X2)


Does it pay to play pretend 
Cause I won’t 
No I got more common sense 
When I wake it’ll be the end 
So hold on 
I cant make any promises 

Look me in my eyes baby can you see the pain
Cover it with lies don’t want you to feel the same
Try to stay alive but really i don’t feel a thing
Tell me if i die would you come visit my grave

Cuz  I don’t wanna live girl
Carving in my wrists 
Why the fuck do i exist
Is there meaning to all this
Yeah  i tried suicide
Couple times yet I’m breathing
I guess that i’m a fighter
My body ain’t receding 

My brain always deceive me
And Nobody believes me
All love that I’m receiving
I still don’t wanna be here
I can’t explain the feeling
I just want you to be here
But once that i achieve this
I’m waiting till you leaving

Maybe i was meant to be alone
Maybe i was meant to die slow
Maybe i ain’t meant to grow old
Maybe i should put away my phone

All these words left
Unspoken 
I wonder if you notice 
How i lose all
My focus 
get caught up in the moment 
(X2)

I don’t wanna give you false hope
No no

stream

promises (ft. iii scar)

I love electronic music, it keeps the highest place in my heart for a LONG time, that includes trance, hardstyle, drum and bass, jungle, chillout, chillstep, house, techno, dubstep, trap, hardcore, breaks etc. I was there when the hardstyle music was born, it was fascinating.
As for hip-hop, long time ago I was a huge fan of US gangsta rap, but I kinda grow out of it. Now, I still enjoy a LARGE number of hip-hop tracks, but in a different style (non mainstream) - emo rap etc., mainly due to the soundcloud.
In 2011/2012 I discovered post-rock music and it intrigued me, I just love non-vocal rock/metal tracks. 
Many years ago, I tried to make music. I was working with FastTracker 2, ReBirth and Fruity Loops. Those were amazing days! I never again felt anything like that.

✨  ;   ✨


 ✨🖤✨ “Home is Where The Hurt is” ✨🥀✨

For now I am mostly experimenting and finding out what sounds, Themes, Characters fit and make sense for my music and my Tormented Hatefucked brain... My- (Soul).................. Unless it's a shit post like JetBlue Disturbance lol. 


("Anyway, be good people. ".... Or not, as usual.)

UPDATE: Right now, most of my songs are privated because I figured I should copyright them just in case... because people like Katy Perry exist lol. Thanks to all of you who have enjoyed my tracks.... yes, including those of you who enjoy that one track, I decided to it leave public. Love yall <3.

promises (ft. iii scar)

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