i should've told u~


--------------------------

and so, its a tragic, fuckin mess
i been so lost, i cant seem to depend
on ur  attitude, its all i ever meant
all i ever said

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

~autumn~

i let my roots dry
that shit has taken it's toll
so i sit instead consuming these souls
(oh) it's getting old
why'm i even scared of being alone?

i hear tapping on the glass
shadows engulfing my past
my thoughts growing rash
I watch the waves while they crash
let me assess where i'm at
because this shit's getting bad

oh if i tried a little harder, 
then i'll be what i want one day
but every chance that i get, 
all of the memories fade
it's like my lips are sewn shut
i'm playing endless charades
or i'm just stuck in a dream
i must be stuck in a dream
~
i was always on you, in yo messages
i wrote a song to fill the void, yet i created it
and yet we know, we said our sorrys, bitch i meant that shit
I WANNA PACK UP ALL MY SHIT AND TAKE A TRIP

BUT IMA TAKE A SHIT
think about my past life, and everything i did
i fucked up my system, with alcohol and wished
i never fuckin did that, i wish i only said
I LOVE YOU MORE, TO THE ONES WHO GAVE A SHIT!
i broke so many hearts, man i wish i never did
magnified distress.


*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch.

/end

break a branch w/ autumndropsdead (prod. dercept)

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace (hero)

7/3/24 disclaimer: fuck splashgvng

double xl bape tee
it feel better when it drape me
i know i’m never on time
sorry if i kept u waiting
double c on my cologne 
it’s always blue just like my mood
she not used to hearing no
and so she loves it when im rude

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

She keeps on
Coming back to me
Ignore th signs and jus say yes to all this tragedy
It says a lot ab u if im honest
U see its chronic
But somehow wants to stick around coz of these melodys

She saw 16 bottles
Still I couldnt open up
Goin full throttle
In th backroom & im thrown up
Toxic waste it surrounds us 
How it was growin up
Safest place, it grounds us
But we’re stuck inside th substance 
Its so fucked

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

too close2 th sun w/ maesk (secre x splashgvng)

[+ sogimura]
@noxious-nights ♤
@safeatlast
@northshoremusic 🂡
@strivemusicau ♤
@navyxower 🂡

Hatred/Brain-Dead w/ noxiousnights, The North Shore, strivesad. & NAVYXOWER (ft. safeatlast)

Lyrics:

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

nauseous (apc)

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

you don't wanna fuck with me ill put you in the limelight
try and make a scene, but your bitch says that its alright
bring her to crib, on a cold rainy night
then i looked her in the eyes, i can tell that she's all mine

pour up
another cup
baby this is my night
don't start fight
with me cause your time spent
in my life
is gonna be the best years
of your life

remember when we kids
couldn't see you at your crib
cause your parents didn't let you hang with boys it made me so pissed
pretty every night
7 passed and dimmed the lights
22 im trading every friend i have to make you all mine

all alone
going through this life
with a wife and some kids 
i dunno if its right

flip the 9
ima put it on its head
ima throw you into bed
never worry bout the things we did

i feel the agony flowing through my blood
i feel the heat coming through my lungs 
i feel the burn from the drugs in my gut
this shit was never really fun
i am on my way

sat out in the rain on the bench in the night
lost my job cause we got into a fight
then it rains and it pours on my soul every time
love is agony i really didn't think about it twice

you don't wanna fuck with me ill put you in the limelight
try and make a scene, but your bitch says that its alright
bring her to crib, on a cold rainy night
then i looked her in the eyes, i can tell that she's all mine

pour up
another cup
baby this is my night
don't start fight
with me cause your time spent
in my life
is gonna be the best years
of your life

agony (prod. santana)

its embarrassing, the way i still write about you
i really gotta stop, i think this is my cue
the way it burns inside, too much now to go through
making myself hurt is routine but whats new

i should say goodbye, i really should
i thought that i did, but even time withstood
i would cut out all the memories if i could
take a scalpel to my brain and get it all removed

not because i hate them, i just love them too much
now its too dark to remember, and that shit hurt too much
i hope that you dont hear, i know im doing too much
i wish i was in heaven but its too far to touch

why do i still think youd ever listen to my shit
i know you never would, and never did, since you split
they ask if i still think of you, i say not a bit
but if im being honest theres a lot that i miss

its time that i wake up, i should just stop being a bitch
gotta get my shit together, all these feelings getting ditched
so i venture to the cold, i know now that's just what it is
my bodys always suffering the way i fucking live now

not because i hate them, i just love them too much
now its too dark to remember, and that shit hurt too much
i hope that you dont hear, i know im doing too much
i wish i was in heaven but its too far to touch

(dialogue)
... reserved and sad, and, in effect, you draw yourself away from other people, and that makes the problem worse. So, you perpetuate this lifestyle of, "I don't trust people, and people don't like me, and people are probably never going to like me, so I will never like people. And, I'm okay by myself." But the fact is, that you're so unhappy, because you're alone."


this is my last one i swear

i hate living this way.
lyrics
hate to choose between my sanity, or always being lonely
but both still make me crazy and theyll both just kill me slowly
so what am i to do, just live my life all by myself
or should i end it quick, but i dont want to go to hell

so maybe ill just hide away and stay inside my box
wont let anyone inside and i wont hear it if you knock
if you somehow make it in, ill just guide you back outside
then ill thank you for the visit, i dont need you, said im fine (then i cry)

i know thats no excuse, im just so tired at this point
cause nothing ever helps, like i wont even hit a joint
my younger self would hate me, i dont mean to disappoint
but nothing really changed, its been the same since i was a boy

i hate the way i work,, it always feels like somethings broken
"i wish that i was normal", swear that shit could be my slogan
i wish they understood i try my best, i just feel frozen
i swear it just gets hard now when so much of me has been stolen

i think i told my ex that i was fixed. "it went away"
but the truth is that i feel it still, the emptiness and pain
swear its probably been a year now, said it on this very day
i just hope i make it out alive. but i can only pray

its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
its probably gonna kill me

BPD pt 2 (prod kyotospeak)

"This Past Year I Been..."
Music and Lyrics composed by Skyler Gluck

This Past Year I Been... - Single

This Past Year I Been...

https://skylergluck.com

https://open.spotify.com/artist/0m6bsKv3fOp7df0Zbow1QE?si=oT7ZcIyrSCep6S81mEHazg

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