candles melting
i felt something
smoke consuming and goes through me
all that i see obscured opaquely
all my sobbing
turns into humming
 
reaching out my hand collapsing 
my reaction slows then fastens
i was happy  but kept on crying
dull my senses i gave up trying

vapor clouding up the mirror
waning figures growing clearer
lively feelings fade into sadness
my fingers filled with glass fragments

candles melting
i felt something
all consuming bells are ringing
all that i see obscured opaquely
all my sobbing turns to nothing

away (Eleanor Forte AI original song)

the sky turned red then turned black
and after that its bleeding spread
scratching scars ontop of scars
endearment died eruptions start

nothing i will ever want
repeating that in different fonts
pulling out the broken parts
patch them up and they'll go far

no i dont need it so leaving is painless
all the empty vessels pretend theyre blameless
why do you hate it, but refuse to quit?
im just an empty vessel that cant be fixed

oh

its just like a brand new world
nothing that can hurt you first
scratching scars ontop of scars
endearment died where eruptions start

all the things i could ever want
repeating that in my thoughts
cutting gashes razor sharp
tore me up inside my heart

i really need it so leaving is painful
all the empty vessels think it's so shameful
so full of hatred it makes me feel sick
youre just an evil person that cant be fixed

voice: eleanor forte AI from synth v.

year

rikka koharu synth v
harmonies: tsuina chan, eleanor forte, natalie

1 14 23 2

this is an old song

gumi english v3

ten years ago feels so soon
 i forgot the things i like too
looking at the sky, 
everythings fine, a pure blue color heals my eyes
just the same
does it ever seem to change?
can't replace, i can't replace
i was built to work this way
last month just feels so wrong
after all i can't play favorite songs
the sky looks away, everythings grey
i don't need you anyway
just the same, must it repeat in this pace?
win the race, ill win the race
i lost this life and this game

i do it wrong all the time
but no one saw so no one minds
dying leaves fall to the ground
when they all fall they make no more sound
its all wrong everytime
just what i saw, uh nevermind
sighing out when its all over
and suffering just to get closer

im thinking words that i cant say
outside my heart inside my brain
its all my fault i will admit
is there enough or too much of it
its wrong in its own way
just what i saw on yesterday
reminiscing on painful stings
i want to suffer for pleasant things

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!ALBUM ANNOUNCEMENT!
this song is a COLLAB between ME and my bf @slashpattern

it's apart of a collab/split album releases 12/20, on here, bandcamp, and streaming.
half of the songs are by me and half are by @slashpattern :3! please enjoy. i love you all.

(vocals: Mai, Hatsune Miku)

LYRICS:

Forever and a day that I've been away. I've heard it all before, there's nothing to say. But I don't really care, let's say it again, I always wanna say you're more than a friend. Now that you're really here in front of my eyes, they will not fly away, all these butterflies. But I don't really care, let's say it again, I always wanna hear you're more than a friend.

There's something you should know, my body's made of snow, and when I feel cold, I reach for the people in my phone. I'm freezing on the grass, so much talking through glass, I'm shivering through a lonely romance.

Even nights eating time spent alone, on those days I could see the future. You'd be standing next to me and we'd be looking down at the city. I painted that picture out of love and hung it inside my eyelids so when we're apart I can feel you even when it's been ...

Uncertain mind when I can't be you, I must stay in these cold dark cages, living off a metal water bottle in a room that has had no doorway, busy making pictures and songs, old taco nights when I'm losing my mind, making wings out of computers, love infused in dark memories.

Taking tests on empathy and none of them check how well you know me. You would stand beside me when the wind would force me to run away. I painted that picture out of love and I hung it inside my eyelids so when we're apart I can feel you even when it's been...

Moth Star (COLLAB)

https://slashpattern.bandcamp.com/album/vampire-patterns

Failing Upward

Swiss Roll

eleanor forte
i can't explain this feeling inside of me
nothing can fix it not even surgery!
life has become more sore and numb now
i just cant smile unless i have just frowned

everyday is filled with endless resentments
nothing can answer all my empty questions
life has become avoiding suggestions
i try to smile force down my confessions

sunlight hits and i want to crawl back
ecstasy cut with guilt i betrayed you
i can't take back everything i said
selfish i know it weighs down on my head

sheets of clouds protect me feeling useful
ecstasy cut with guilt i have failed you
i can't take back everything i love
selfish i know, escaping from my lungs

everyday i repeat my past mistakes
nothing can fix the broken way i was made
life became sore with many more colors
vividly mundane things i discovered

trapping me inside myself
constantly you hear yourself think
"take it out on someone else,
you will figure something else out"
can't remember what it was
why do you love what you love?
can't remember reasons why
no one else could get it right

sunlight hits and i want to crawl back
ecstacy cut with guilt i betrayed you
i can't take back everything i said
selfish i know it weighs down on my head
sheets of clouds protect me feeling useful
ecstasy cut with guilt i have failed you
i can't take back everything i love
selfish i know, escaping from my lungs

20 Mistakes

(vocals: Eleanor Forte AI, Solaria)

memories heavy in your mind
what could ever rid of them
all those weightless words wont die
time will turn them into lead

duality, unsystematically,
appeal to senses randomly
reminded me, invited me
to love or to hate, it hurts either way

trust the heaven in your mind,
knowing your sure sane affair
artificial by design
time will turn it into air
judgement feigned then is applied
hardened shifted focused stare
why wont they come back to me?
not my fault if it bleeds

exhale, seeing red
trigger finger hit the switch
inhale, it failed 
blessed to be cursed like this
accosting me, unsystematically
random idiosyncrasies
reminded me in equal parts
of love or hate
it hurts me to say this

ah

unable to discern the line between needs and wants 
lights flashing faces blur
advertisements sharpen first
useless, its useless
pointless information
uses elude you, its constant stimulation

Stimulation

COVER ART by the great https://twitter.com/valendar_

Originally written by Tim Nichols and Mark D. Sanders and performed by Jo Dee Messina

Heads Carolina, Tails California (Jo Dee Messina)

slashpattern

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