solaria, eleanor forte

default states and  stars burn out
grease as blood all drying now
whirring joints that leak and rust
comsically return to dust

wires through which that i'm breathing
i can feel your heartbeat beating
i want to feel your flesh on mine
i want to feel you though your spine

loosened keys now picked apart
failure stated before start
mechanically betray us
denying it won't matter much

wires through which that i'm breathing
i can feel your heartbeat beating
i want for us to be aligned
i want to make you only mine
circuits sparking and ignite
all my limbs are wrapped in bytes
now i don't feel like i'm still real
unplug the plug that makes me feel

pictures fade  in then fade out
gears as lips all smiling now
creaking joints still leak and rust
cosmically return to dust
sickness cured from inside out
poison words inside your mouth
blades are sharpened to a point
rusted over rotten joints

fires enflame all i'm seeing
time to now complete this meeting
i want to reach you with my teeth
i want to rip you from your seams
iron coatings, reinforcements
tangled up with false endorsements
i want to hear you when you scream
i want to bring you misery

Wireburn

collapsing everyday, moving inches when you breathe
like you won't notice nor will you notice me
all the money in the world, meaningless to you or me
am i really, really happy or should i pretend to be
do you really care, really think it's fine?
the sun and the moon to me are just a sign
nothing really ends nothing really starts
am i really happy or have i just played a part
do you really care, really think it's fair?
oh, the sun and the moon, i cant help but stare

collapse

i do it wrong all the time
but no one saw so no one minds
dying leaves fall to the ground
when they all fall they make no more sound
its all wrong everytime
just what i saw, uh nevermind
sighing out when its all over
and suffering just to get closer

im thinking words that i cant say
outside my heart inside my brain
its all my fault i will admit
is there enough or too much of it
its wrong in its own way
just what i saw on yesterday
reminiscing on painful stings
i want to suffer for pleasant things

sitting idly waiting for ur return something tells me it must be earnedall my skin and teeth and hair abnd blood i will give to u with all my Love

Ribbon

im missing words i just wanna rewrite them distantly erupting in the horizon
utterance other words failing to describe them 
rusty stains on the inside of your shirt hem
mouthing words to stop yourself from wanting it
clearer sounds spelling out that it's poison
everything and anything that proves your existence
beating heart quickens noticing your resistance

sirens sounding, increased movement, i wish life was way more boring
go ahead please ignore me practicing being adoring

https://slashpattern.bandcamp.com/album/vampire-patterns

Failing Upward

Swiss Roll

eleanor forte
i can't explain this feeling inside of me
nothing can fix it not even surgery!
life has become more sore and numb now
i just cant smile unless i have just frowned

everyday is filled with endless resentments
nothing can answer all my empty questions
life has become avoiding suggestions
i try to smile force down my confessions

sunlight hits and i want to crawl back
ecstasy cut with guilt i betrayed you
i can't take back everything i said
selfish i know it weighs down on my head

sheets of clouds protect me feeling useful
ecstasy cut with guilt i have failed you
i can't take back everything i love
selfish i know, escaping from my lungs

everyday i repeat my past mistakes
nothing can fix the broken way i was made
life became sore with many more colors
vividly mundane things i discovered

trapping me inside myself
constantly you hear yourself think
"take it out on someone else,
you will figure something else out"
can't remember what it was
why do you love what you love?
can't remember reasons why
no one else could get it right

sunlight hits and i want to crawl back
ecstacy cut with guilt i betrayed you
i can't take back everything i said
selfish i know it weighs down on my head
sheets of clouds protect me feeling useful
ecstasy cut with guilt i have failed you
i can't take back everything i love
selfish i know, escaping from my lungs

20 Mistakes

hatred fills you whole
pollutes your corrupt soul
push me down, i stand
then i crack
right in half
torment ends at last

regret, reset
i know it's not your best
regret, reset
leave me like you did the rest
regret, reset
how the clouds spell your name
regret, reset
it began to rain

you aren't
what you think you are
regret it all so hard
it's gone on far too long
it makes it hard to stop

hatred fills you whole
pollutes your corrupt soul
push me down, i stand
then i crack
right in half
torment ends at last

regret, reset
i know it's not your best
regret, reset
leave me like you did the rest
regret, reset
how the clouds spell your name
regret, reset
it began to rain

regret, reset
i know it's not your best
regret, reset
leave me like you did the rest
regret, reset
how the clouds spell your name
regret, reset
it began to rain




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2tIxkJyOMQc

ARTWORK BY ME

Reset_Regret

COVER ART by the great https://twitter.com/valendar_
Samples:
"Jenova" and "Victory Fanfare" from Final Fantasy 7 soundtrack
Also sound effect 68 (?) also from FF7

Nibelheim

music, art: valendar
guitar: KAZUMIGUCHI
kazumiguchi yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCs2j...
song yt link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yv32LXnvEh8

Nibelheim

slashpattern

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