ty ne'erdowell goat for always helping me fix my dogshit mix

lyrics

-Wraith-
Girl don’t you know that
The words you have spoken
Throwing emotion
Are heavy and potent

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

I guess we don't get a happy ending
After all
All that happens always has to have the 
curtains fall
All the tragedy I kill away with alcohol
Try to numb the fucking feelings ‘fore I end it all

Dead on an impulse
Hate all my wishful
Thoughts cause I’m sinking
Right through the soil
Right through the armor
I thought I could guard her
Just another missed call
I can’t ever bother

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

-yungcray-
all the damage that you done
you pierced right through my chest plate
I could never let you go
but if I did I might fade
ur the last piece to the puzzle
ur the key to get out the maze
and in my dreams I see the fire
im trapped below the rubble

I cant seem to help myself
I get into this trouble
is it hard 2 love me now 
got bruises on my knuckles
this shit seems 2 really get the fucking best of me
I cant seem 2 help myself
I get into this trouble

a new high
I said imma reach a new high
a new lie
that you're telling under blue skies
its alright
I said imma do my best to try
a blue night
I said imma reach a new high

I really want whats best for us
but you just think about yourself
you don't care about it
but its all I think about

theres no escape from this place 
I think we'll die here
what is love
its just fake
you said you'd try here

recoil w/ yungcray (dash)

swamp:

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself 

But if I go I’m taking you with me to hell 
It was always from your hand, every card I was delt 
So it just seems fitting that your end is with my help 
“What a let down” like shit that’s exactly how I felt 

So pull the trigger if you want I think I’m ready now 
To try and start avoiding your whole arsenal of let downs 
You’re always more prepared than I am it’s so typical 
But it’s chess not checkers baby all my plays are critical 
Ok so 

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself 

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself

cxltmoon:

Soaked in these memories
But all this kerosene is a product thats been sold to keep you away from me 

Watch where your walking
The floor is rigged to fall in
I know cause im falling and falling and falling again

I'm exhausted and sleep is for the weak
I'm exhausted cull me out while I sleep
I'm exhausted i'm bleeding to my feet
And ill wipe it all down and clean myself without a peep

The wounds afflicted by you are kinda bittersweet
The hole inside my heart hurts
But I hold you dearly
Hey, dont shoot the messenger
I only asked you first
So drop the hate and just take what's worth

swamp & cxltmoon:

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide
(before we collide)
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
(While I brace for the impact)
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of my-
Self
Before we collide
Brace for impact


The Hideous Creature [prod. cxrter & irby]

i wish that i was better but i just dont know how
i wanna do right by my girl so i can finally say vows
i swear im doing all it takes so im not letting her down
but every time i try to climb my demons pulling me down

i keep a smile up on my face but im just dying inside
i make a toast to all my failures while my soul running dry
i swear i only feel myself when im just too fucking high
its even better when im crossed and i know you wonder why

i gotta problem with myself, and i never feel safe
im holding trauma in my bones, got me feel like a slave
i wish that i could be myself i dont know how to behave
and i could blame this borderline but im too gone to be saved

i wear a mask, but its cracking with age
and im not worth it, less than minimum wage
i think that im a monster, let me me out of my cage
but if you do ill disappear to keep you safe from the rage

what would J do, thats some words to live by
im not coping, im just to get by
say im fine but i know its just a big lie
if you werent around i know id be up in my pigsty

im on saint johns bay, smokin three point five
when im this detached, give a fuck bout life
when im down and out, im reaching for the knife
know they call it self harm, but i call it my life

i swear that im trying, im doing my best
but sometimes its just hard with this weight on my chest
like im just tryna live, like no more and no less
like its hard every day guess its time i confess

if i die, middle of my sleep
i pray the Lord, that my soul He keep
im so messed up, and my roots run deep
i pray for forgiveness, i hope He see me

st johns bay pt 2

purple bruises

Lyrics: life is great while they all fucking crying 
Shit, I hope you’re fucking dying 
bitch, why the fuck you crying? 
I don’t know where your mind be 

desperation is my kingdom 
people realize when I leave them 
No one treats them how I treat them 
lust, yeah, that’s what fucking killed them 

desperation is my kingdom 
people realize when I leave them 
No one treats them how I treat them 
lust, yeah, that’s what fucking killed them 

Why you acting new bitch? 
What happened to your old bitch? 
Let me guess, they didn’t give you what u fucking need bitch 
It’s easy 
Follow these steps 
I’ll explain, it’s easy 
Make sure you fucking listen to me 
First step, don’t be a mofucking hoe 
Second step, respect yourself and your bros 
Third step, research the things you don’t know 
The first step is hard, I’m sure you would know.

you would know (prod. pyctur)

prod by stezzyxl
happy halloween lol 
enjoy

lyrics:
you liked control
i let you drive  
said “it’s fine”
just to stay alive  
you loved the sound of your own lies  
i kept quiet
i don’t know why  

i made a scene in every room  
love found new ways to kill the mood  
you’d twist the truth then act confused ?
like i was wrong for being used  

you post your pain for a couple of likes  
then act above it when someone bites  
you said “i’ve grown” but i see through that  
you changed your hair, not how you act  

you play the victim
rewrite the scene  
pretend it’s art
but you know what it means  
you 
chase validation
i chased my peace  
guess both of us just needed bleh iyddsghns

i still drive by where you stay  
don’t know why just old decay  
you talk about love like it’s new  
but no one buys that shit from you  
  
you waste my breath
you waste my sleep  
the things you take
you never keep  
i gave you time
you gave me pain  
you’d do it all if asked again

lyrics

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere

life, keeps fucking me over like left and right
man sometimes i just wanna fuckin die 
i waste my time inside
i barely show my face
i feel so out of place
like an alien up in space
man i just want a taste of a normal life

like how’s i supposed to know
u were gonna go
a target placed on me it’s like u were aiming for my throat
throat, mine closed up i couldn’t say no more
fuck i think i passed out and smacked my head upon the floor

what was i fuckin thinkin huh
love blinded me and it’s obvious 
holdin back tears and it’s bad for us
i’m done
if i can’t count on u
then, then what would u have me do?

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere (2x)

typical (sorrowbringer)

LOCKED OUT! (prod. partingsoon)

idk what to call this (ryan kelly x tiedforsilver)

It was everything I wanted
I had it; then I lost it
I thought you'd always stay
What happened to our promise

Girl I know that I'm far from the perfect guy
Look me in the eye
I will try for us
And when the walls are caving in
I will hold them up
I love you til we turn to dust
Please don't break my trust
Girl you're the first thing that I think of when I'm waking up
Just tell me what is on your mind, when we making love
I see through your bluff
But I'll still eat up any story that you making up

It was everything I wanted
I had it; then I lost it
I thought you'd always stay
What happened to our promise

You burnt it in a fire
Tripped another wire
My soul is getting tired my darling
I know I'm preaching to the choir
Clinging to a liar
Spin your web just like a spider I'm watching

But you can never lose your wings
In my eyes you're still a saint
In your eyes I'm just a waste
Haven't ate or slept for days
You can see it on my face
I'm just looking for escape

everything i wanted [prod. neverforever]

lyrics ⬇️

im not one to stop and look both ways
no chance ill be out there when the road way
blocked
stop and stare until urhead shakes 
wont wake up unless i turn all the lights off
what a way to live my life i wanna stand tall
i need the rays from the sunshine but the rain falls
i cant explain the way i change when both my fists are folded
all the anger up in me starts to hone in

know this every time you spot me ill be hoping
closest memories you hold to me are broken 
potent every single line and every notion

wake me up when its over
ill be there when ur sober
only
i dont like it when you slur your words
cheap liquor only makes it worse

i know you know it that i dont like these emotions much
when you throw it ima hold it til you make me budge
yea thats all that i know
everything goes wrong 
but anything that works

i knew it what was up before its over
i shoulda spoke up but i was scared id be a loner
i think its a bright idea if i dont poke the ogre 

something in my noggin said that it’d hurt like an ulcer
so i didnt choose it by myself
it was all up in my brain got no feeling that you felt
u been ignoring all my phone calls made my own lil personal hell

and you a poser you aint worried bout my health
youd rather watch me in my cell
i hate the steel bars that you put across my face but say oh well

not a thing id rather see more but i wish that you could tell
how i mean to sound i dont wanna scream i swear i hate to yell
but you give me no choice you folded over the second you felt ur frail

disassociating ever time im worried ima fall
its been tauntng me when someome walk by with a simialr smell
i think it’s obvious im worried til im sick and ima spill

you been rockin out at parties without me im feelin ill
if you saw me id say sorry seconds later i would dip
i been so sloppy i wish that you understood and it made sense
it been awful since you lead me on and made me feel like this
 like its coffee you were hot u til ur cold before I flinched 

i been lonely but in your eyes you think I deserve it
not a trophy but at one point you made me feel amazing
whh dint u show me what you really meam liek really say it
ill be here until it’s right and u aint rlly playin

you would know (prod. pyctur)

slashy

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