Mood.

b-ful

✌(ツ)🔥 but also 😢 --- 2018 July

☁️Cloud☁️

NEW SONG WITH CLOUD AND LIL CROW

Lil Peep X YungGoth - Cocaine Shawty

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

netherrealm w/ shy

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

i promise you, it’s just me. // this one is for peep. 
featuring the best @tlkltr + @egomtl
~recording, mixing, mastering by @egomtl

Falling

FALLING (feat. TLKLTR + egodeath) (prod. bleach)

waterfalls was here

Trippie Redd - Dark Knight Dummo (ft. Travis Scott)

Producer: Honorable C Note 

Mix: Mike Dean

Dark Knight Dummo (ft. Travis Scott)

features by:
@TLKLTR
@egomtl

mixed + directed by egodeath

TOKYO DAYDREAMING (prod. laptopboyboy)

TRYING TO FORGET ABOUT YOU (prod. domyno)

features by:
@TLKLTR
@egomtl

mixed + directed by egodeath

I ignored your texts so you dont know where to find me
I got no regrets im tryna leave the world behind me
baby one way or another youll remind me 
every other day i feel the hate you left inside me

I ignored your texts so you dont know where to find me
I got no regrets im tryna leave the world behind me
baby one way or another youll remind me 
every other day i feel you fade away inside me

Please don't try to be my saviour 
I already told you 
I thought I kind of knew you
Well I guess that was the old you 
Please don't be concerned with the way that I'm acting 
A whole year without you and I guess I switched classes 
I heard you learn a lot about yourself when  you get lonely 
Common misconceptions, bad decisions, listen closely
Don't think I'll ever get back all those sleepless nights you owe me 
My friends told me to quit but I ain't listen what they told me 
I feel like all this happens for a reason 
How do I feel as if you're here if we're not speaking 
I hope you find someone who treats you just like the old me 
Console me but I don’t think that we could ever be friends.
Page after page I don't get it I'm confused 
I'm a victim of my age, I don't wanna waste my youth 
You would never say that I mean something to you 
And if I don't see the day I'll just pray you tell truth

EVERY OTHER DAY (feat. egodeath) (prod. egodeath)

Lil Peep - Walk

GHOST

GHOST (feat. Christian Rich)

:(

Prod by boy floss wit co production from NICK PROSPER

SAD PARTY

WINDOWS DOWN FEAT. BIG BABY SCUMBAG

ON SPOTIFY & APPLE MUSIC NOW:
http://hyperurl.co/egotrain

mixed and mastered by @senseineo

EGOVERT - CRAZY TRAIN (Prod. Bobby Johnson)

foxwedding: https://soundcloud.com/fox-wedding
foxwedding: https://twitter.com/flexwedding
art by suicideoutside
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LYRICS <3
FREEZING
girl it’s freezing outside tonight so
stay with me until the sun come out
i don’t wanna leave ur side
i’d rather die than pass u by

girl it’s freezing outside tonight so
stay with me until the sun come out
i don’t wanna leave ur side
i’d rather die than pass u by

it must be something else that i’m wantin
stayin up all night and it haunts me
i hope it just leaves me be
i just wanna go to sleep

i suffer in the winter without u
the nights are cold when i sleep without u
girl i’m freezing alone tonight
and baby i need u by my side

so tell me if it’s real to u
and i’ll tell if u if it’s real to me
and baby would u tell me truth
if every detail wasn’t sweet
and baby would u lie to me
honestly i’d do it over again
would u care if i was to freeze
and never to be seen again
but baby u’d be lyin
if the answer wasn’t a yes
and i don’t really know when i’m dyin
so u might never see me again
and baby i’d be lyin
if i said i wanted this night to end
and baby it’s so cold out tonight
don’t leave me outside to die

girl it’s freezing outside tonight so
stay with me until the sun come out
i don’t wanna leave ur side
i’d rather die than pass u by

girl it’s freezing outside tonight so
stay with me until the sun come out
i don’t wanna leave ur side
i’d rather die than pass u by

it must be something else that i’m wantin
stayin up all night and it haunts me
i hope it just leaves me be
i just wanna go to sleep

i suffer in the winter without u
the nights are cold when i sleep without u
girl i’m freezing alone tonight
and baby i need u by my side
<3

Next Time (feat. egodeath & creaux)

SO LONG, GOODBYE.