its loud in my head •_•

BAD NEWS

Wh1te W0lf x s0cliché - Jouhatsu (prod. justletmedie)

@rivilin

Lyrics

Were sick of being just used by the ones that we love
Wont you say a quick pray and give our souls to the wind
So light a match in the dark and reach a hand out to me
Losing grip over time this god gave up easily

A drug fucked mess at the alter, no your prays no they don't, don't deceive me
I'm feeling sick from all this pressure, from the ones who say they care
I watched my family be abandoned by the church who said they'd be their
Even my family that my mother used to love, abandoned her when she was in need

I'm sick of being betrayed by a lover, so disgusted am I
I've became resilient to the affection that they deny through their eyes
Where were you when my mother needed help and my brother was so suicidal back then
I was just a kid trying to keep this family together but it wasn't enough

Tainted my blood with some DNA chains
Addiction runs in me genetical fate

My blood is so tainted
I can't help to crave it
I'm drowning in vomit when I be awakened

Abusing myself and I keep coming back
Sophia I'm sorry I left in a flash
I promise I miss you but shit I got issues
I'm trapped in this cycle of booze with a screw loose

I feel like everyday's the same
I say it every song cuz I mean what I say, aye
Like I'm tryna the face pain
But when its coming in the same wave, everyday
I feel just crushed by weight
Its hard to fucking stand up let alone feel okay
I know I feel disdain
At my own life so I fight it every day

I miss your face
The excited gaze
These autumn leaves, ain't feel the same

I lost it all
I gave it up
For a dream, no regrets, but fuck it sucks

I make mistakes
I feel the pain
Associated with me to blame

My life is fucked
Deep rooted mud
God gave it up, and I had enough

Were sick of being just used by the ones that we love
Wont you say a quick pray and give our souls to the wind
So light a match in the dark and reach a hand out to me
Losing grip over time this god gave up easily

Sophia

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Social Suicide

Thank You For Everything

I'm breaking apart as we go
I've never seen down this road
As the cracks are seeping in
Please, help me within
Maybe it's all  over my head
Feeling like this is the darkest of dread
That I cannot escape
Trade my life if I could save you

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

cast your stones, they dont hurt
i’m here at the stake where i like to burn

and it seems like a problem
im drinking this solvent
to fight off my demons
though i want to call it
too much of an addict
a sick alcoholic
i live in disease
Because there’s no cure

wounded wasted
hating this basement
the change in your faces
dont tell me i’m pure
i fought angels
through pleasures and mangers
i wanted the dangers
and i was so sure

What have I done, who have I become
Staring right back at the edge of the gun
What if I stay, look the other way
Saving myself at the end of my days
But know, this ain't the end
Fill my heart with love and suspense
Where were you when I tried

Beautiful Disguise ft. s0cliché

**https://open.spotify.com/artist/6TCjV733jXn7lpc01TkIbV

**https://twitter.com/vyok_v

**https://www.instagram.com/vyok_/


Lyrics:


I, pick myself up

Lose myself cause

I live in irony

Talk too much but...

I feel anxiety

I feel fucked up


What is it you're telling me?

I am not a fan of it

Spoke to the devil and he told me he's not having it

Insanity.

Did it all again and I'm not getting it.



Solopsism slipping in my conscience

Can't feel the endorphins

Get sidetracked into the boredom



I was in the elevator

stare at my reflection

glass broke into shards

began to say my confessions

the lights went dim

I felt the evil in his presence

distorted frequencies

I see him peak in through the crevice.



He asked me for my name and I just stood still

elevator purgatory

I was never fulfilled

Touching my blade, thinking If I'm a person who could kill

It's an option on my list only used for good will


He told me we're not going anywhere without request

my eyes rolled back I had to puff my chest

I could hear them saying my name but I couldn't respond

this elevator trip was lasting way too long.


Now I'm talking to myself

when I'm fucking my health.

and I'm not getting the help

can I really call this wealth?




I say it's not affecting me,

when I got no one next to me

am I being honest

If the devils who's protecting me? 



Puts his hands on my shoulders,

As the elevator goes up,

Make no stops on any floors from 01

The door opens, I never saw the sight of no one.

How can I create and live a life with no love?

VyOk - Elevator (Prod.DISBL1ND x INFELIX)

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

LYRICS:
i tried so hard... i can't cry
I can't go on  
I'm so gone.. I'm so lost
Save me from my, save me from myself
I'm so gone.. I'm so lost
Save me from my, save me from myself

Taking me back again
Living inside the past again
Baby I been gone I don't know if I'll ever laugh again 
I've been on the way for seven days and Imma crash again
You were all I wanted but they took you now I'm asking if
I die right now, you'll bring the crowd
Tell all my friends, please hear me out
I can't go on, play all my songs
I promise I'll be home by dawn

Baby the past is active, I don't know what Imma do in the end
Takin a look at my problems only get taller imma get all of it
I'm goin all the way, baby I'm ballin like Hardaway 
Hittin the pack I got plenty of reasons I don't got nothin to say
They don't get nothin from me at all, 
You don't get nothin from me at all,
Yo don't get nothin from me cause I did it alone
They say "why don't you pick up my call?"
Everyone seeing the numbers and changing 
Now you a lame, and don't get involved
Only my baby real, Zeta real, 
They with me and movin along, yuh

Taking me back again
Living inside the past again
Baby I been gone I don't know if I'll ever laugh again 
I've been on the way for seven days and Imma crash again
You were all I wanted but they took you now I'm asking if
I die right now, you'll bring the crowd
Tell all my friends, please hear me out
I can't go on, play all my songs
I promise I'll be home by dawn

I'll be home by dawn, im so gone I'm so lost
I promise, I'll be home by dawn
I'm so gone, I'm so lost
save me from my save me from myself
I'm so gone, I'm so lost
save me from my save me from myself

home by dawn

home by dawn (prod. VE beats)

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Lyrics:

fighting with anxiety a pointless war inside of me
how come I hate the ones I love, taking pills it’s not enough
I’m so numb its a tragedy, hooked on a tendency 
can’t get rid of these dark thoughts in my head why do you snuff me out

mix the good times with the bad
tell me when did I become so sad
flicking channels on the tv 
just to see the static shining through

choking on depression it stabs so deep
straight through my ribs, it feels like I’m breaking
flashing blue and white in my eyes
I hear my fans begging for more

more of the sad times, 
I’ve never sunk this low
it feels like my hearts on the floor
chuck it out it’s going cold

see friends and the faces that I used to love
they pass by straight in a blink
I know they still want me to keep going 
I will carry on

staying afloat with best friends by my side
yeah  they know what it’s like when
I feel like I’m not coping 
I’m sinking down into your red eyes

yeah your fingers in my soul
yeah I’ve never felt this cold
so numb from the pain
shutting down, block it all away

closing the doors to my house
yeah I’m in too deep
watching the water rise 
above my neck, I can’t catch my breath

when will I get a break,
no, I don’t wanna take
medication to make me sane
yeah I wanna be free

Snuff Me Out

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