I'm Inky And I Know It

despair has countless faces. many of these might be masks that despair hides behind so skillfully that not even their owners recognize them. it's no wonder, then, that people affected by this, realize they have a problem but misinterpret its cause completely. somehow it seems more acceptable to consider oneself e.g. angry than to consider oneself feeling desperate, or hurt, or fearful, or lost in doubts.

doubts: puberty is undoubtedly a phase of life characterized by significant doubt. and perhaps one of humanity's central problems stems from our failed approach to dealing with this phase of doubt aka despair. it’s toxic masculinity. 

heaps of bullshit are associated with this buzzword. anyway, I associate it with the oppressive difficulties that our beloved son max had to face during his adolescence – in a world that is fixated on rigid role models in such a merciless, insensitive and ruthless way. toxic…

it's almost impossible to cushion that as a family. of course, you can always talk about it and provide mental support. but the influence of the outside world is far too powerful. so, max went through a period full of doubt, insecurity, and fear, and used a lot of masks to hide it. in the end, he found his way, which was a massive relief to us before his journey came to such an abrupt end. 

max, we love you all the more forever!

the lyrics written in memory of those times have been translated by DeepL without working out corresponding english rhymes. the musical template was provided by a guitar arpeggio piece written and recorded a while ago – without realizing the harmonies aren’t that vocal-friendly. 

that only became apparent when I was working on it with suno. so, I decided to work out two versions. the first closely follows the original backing tracks (including cümbüş for the banjos) and the “guitared” vocal melody. the second is more direct and minimalized, like an inner voice. for that's what it's all about.

©music and lyrics by Hans-Michael Albers, instrumental cover & vocal performance by suno 5

videolization: https://youtu.be/pjj6jEFVg2o?si=kPIXuTvJCWqK8gB5


you wake up tense, breath short, chest tight
already feeling like you gotta prove something today
mirror looking back like, you sure you’re enough?
every silence around you feels like a test you can’t name

be a man, they said
but the rules came wrapped in shame
so you built this armor
made of jokes, smirks, and sideways looks
if you speak soft, you’re weak
if you speak loud, you’re a threat
so you hover somewhere in between
trapped in that quiet panic

you’re tired of holding it in
you’re tired of playing “I am”
don’t know who're you, man
don’t know who're you, man
don’t know who're you, man
don’t know who're you, man
just want to breathe again
just want to breathe again

scrolling through your feed
confidence everywhere
and you hate that you hate it
jealous of the ease they move with
the way they take up space like they belong
you? you shrink inside your shoulders
acting cool while you crumble slow

your jaw locked. hands tight
every move rehearsed
you measure worth in silence
in how little you let slip
can’t bleed, can’t need, can’t bend
so you drown
looking composed the whole time

you’re tired of holding it in …

sometimes you swing
not because you’re strong 
but because you’re scared
scared they’ll see the cracks
the small boy under the armor
you talk loud, but it’s fear wearing a crown
you throw shade, but it’s envy in disguise

you’re trying to unlearn this weight
trying to breathe without proving it
to stop mistaking numb for power
to stop mistaking fear for pride
maybe one day, you’ll stand still
no front, no mask
just you
finally enough

you’re tired of holding it in …

Who're you, Man | Outer Singer

It was nice meeting you, human.
Blunt-bye.

(i'm not sorry)
Little fact: the *click* beatbox sound is actually my voice recorded.
In a shitty mp3 format. Yep.

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Only Knuckles

second verse similar to the first
Riajutte Konnamon Dakke by Hyadain ft. Diskun Seijin
24K Magic By Bruno Mars
PPAP song is there
Bouken Desho Desho by Aya Hirano

Edit: Perfect Alt title: Is this what it's supposed to be like to have 24K

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oh yeah, smash ultimate comes out in 2 weeks. im literally crying and shaking right now im so happy

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Sources:
Weezer - El Scorcho
Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girls

On youtube: https://youtu.be/FYzQ3blfCEk

Goddamn You Beautiful Girls (Weezer vs Sean Kingston)

Probably my favorite mashups i've made so far.
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Songs used:
Fallen Angel - Panty & Stocking
Floresta Blanca - Spark the Electric Jester 2 (@jameslandino)

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Spark the Electric Jester 2

Floresta Angel (Mashup)

I'm a Weeb-Lord and connoisseur of Dank Memes
I'm also a Solo vocalist/UTAU User.
I kind of make songs sometimes? I never post them cause they're shit but I have plenty of god-awful mashups to go around!

I've started working with VCCV English UTAU banks and plan on possibly using them in some originals... far in the future, when I have the proper equipment to make music...

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