Polarity is a  story that begins with someone falling in love. However, their expression of love has a sea of red flags. It starts to grow into an unhealthy obsession. Before long the main character begins to change their image to reflect the person they admire most, causing a distorted sense of self-image. There is momentary bliss during the time spent with their lover, until they notice the toxic behavior for themselves. The main character becomes over-obsessive, territorial, and bursts in episodes of inappropriate anger. However, their skewed perception of love makes them blind to the actual harm they’re doing to their relationship. They try to control their intense emotions, becoming passive aggressive and bitter. They feel as if the love they’ve given is not being reciprocated, when in reality they’re having a hard time navigating around the thought of personal space and boundaries. Soon the main character experiences depression after their fit of displaced anger. They find something else to obsess over now that their significant other has left them. Unfortunately, the alternative they chose had been substance abuse, landing them in a dark place. While emotions keep oscillating, so do thoughts of suicide and self harm. They feel ultimately worthless and have gone from putting their former lover on the highest pedestal to completely devaluing them. Thinking them out to be a bad person and trying hard to forget who they were. The main character is faced with confrontation after rehabilitating. With a clear head and help from others, they begin to recognize their self destructive patterns and toxicity. In a grand effort, they work on becoming a better person. 

The end of this story is meant to be bittersweet. Although they cannot have the person they want, loving them taught the main character how to manage their emotions and sympathize with the feelings of others. They recount memories of their love for their former partner in a more realistic and healthy way.

DON'T FORGET ME

DEAR VAMPIRA

DEAD TO ME feat. Ave

TAKE IT ALL

I WANT YOU TO WANT MY LOVE feat. 8muhan

HEARTBEAT feat. TommyPapi

CHARACTER SELECTION

BETTER OFF

i hate tinder

Twin Flames (Demo) Prod by Titan x Kxnyaa

Seasons (Demo) Prod by xmichaelwarren

This song is dedicated to my late grandmother.

Stars (Prod.Guillermo)

Lonely World (Prod.Fantom)

Im repeating patterns 
Thoughts are so scattered 
tongue speaking backwards 
Ruined my life in a matter 
of seconds 
I’ll be dead
In a few moments
Riding a wave of a chemicals potency 
I apologize 
This was never who I was suppose to be
This was never how it was suppose to be

Vice is a fire in me that is smoldering
with controlled burning 
I’ve been sobering 
it’s October 
The temperatures lowering 
so I’m slow stirring 
up a brew 
With a surplus of bones buried 
Whats that look on your face 
you should not worry 
You mistook me for someone whose 
So worthy
doubts are swirling my mind 
Like a snow flurry

Insecurities die
As my speech’s slurring 
Both my eyes blurring 
Fuck I’m still breathing 
It appears that these pills are in no hurry 
Judging myself
Like I am my own jury 

I would love to fix you 
Fixing is just something I’m affixed to
I am not emotionally withdrawn 
We just spent way too long 
Talking about me
So Sorry you don’t have to sit through x2

I am use to talking to paper 
Talking to god as I’m choking through prayers
Words evaporating like they are vapor
Leaving their maker 
Pushing through death like I’m going through labor 
I am the bitter taste you are the chaser 
I always wanted to play as the savior 
So I insist that you play as the taker 
My own body just sees me as a traitor 
I am so sorry I’m cutting through layers 
I cannot save her
So god if you’re listening 
Do I have a chance 
to be something greater 


I would love to fix you 
Fixing is just something I’m affixed to
I am not emotionally withdrawn 
We just spent way too long 
Talking about me
So Sorry you don’t have to sit through x2

Disstracks

IT CAME FROM THE NIGHTOSPHERE (Prod. by RRAREBEAR)

You doused the fire left in me
It's clear you never respected me
Appears we were never meant to be
I'm alive now that you're dead to me

You say I broke your heart
I ask, tell me which part?
I crack through your ramparts 
To find none from the start

My illness has swallowed me mentally
Buy you rush me with all your identities

I'm not your enemy
This loves a fantasy
I don't care what you say
This shits a tragedy
She said I didn't care how she felt
But that shit ain't true
I tried to bring her up
But she would just stay blue
Too much torment
I cant take this

You say I broke your heart
I ask, tell me which part?
I crack through your ramparts 
To find none from the start

And you hush me in thoughts full of jealousy
Are you a rapist?
You tell me allegedly

FAKE LOVE (with Fran) Prod. Tennis Player

I made this album to showcase my versatility. Hope you enjoy <3

Vampira (@vampiramusic)

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