Lyrics:
Sitting in my room, watching the time pass
Just let me go without you, so you can be happier
As you go without me, please don't look back
Cause it will hurt me, more than it will hurt you
And I just wanna say that, I don't regret anything that we had
But now, we should move on, start a new chapter
Not looking back

But that did something to me
And I can't find what is missing
And I cant seem to find what is lost
And there's something that is so off

Run it in the ground I can see your frown
You're looking right down, as if I were the ground
Was I that hideous to you?
Good thing I'll never come see you

As I sit here and I lay back, thinking of the time passed
Oh, I wonder, do you ever think about me?
But I guess that doesn't really matter now
Telling all your friends that I don't know how to treat u
Your not even right and girl but u know that
(need to stop lying)
I cry out for help but I guess no one hears me
Such a shame that it got to this
Leave it all behind, now I got to see through this
Could you even give me a care

Acting like you had to do this for a dare
Come I dare you, to look me in my eye
But was it really that hard?
When you got no respect then I guess it is
And I'm not here to teach you any of that shit

Run it in the ground I can see your frown
You're looking right down, as if I were the ground
Was I that hideous to you?
Good thing I'll never come see you

And we should let it end this way
Cause it will let us end this pain
So please don't get in my way


Oh and I
Oh I opened up my life, just so you could help me
Oh but you didn't, oh you just left me here
Drowning in my sorrow,
Oh I'd never borrow any of your heart, just for you to leave me
Oh, it's never your fault, yeah just put the blame on me
Oh "I'll never leave you" But that don't mean none to me
Way that you used me, I can't go much further
No more loving, not in my time now

ground

self prod
ft: @ZAdAzhad
Lyrics:
You always said "You love me too"
There was a time, I had the world
In the palm of my, Hands

Now thats all gone
Time to move on
Felt so close to my 
Heart
Though as the time passed
I can never go back
Tell me, did you mean all that?
Now I gotta go on, gotta move on

Even though you split my world in half
I took the worst of
You don't know cause
You live in your own world, no faults there
Go back to him, that's all you know now
Oh, but when he goes, don't u crawl back
Because i'm not here to pick up all your shit
Cause now i've got this profound bliss
All I ever want, gotta stay calm
No one really cares, hope you'll see that
You always thought that, you can come back
I'm tired of being easy, pain has changed that
Ripping out my heart, I feel like I'm see through
I need to calm down, all is fine now

Feel like you never cared
All your secrets are spewing out the vent
Oh this world, wasn't meant for all ur shit
And nothing changes my bloody fists
U better learn to keep ur mouth shut
I'm not afraid to throw these hands
I will spin ur jaw
Dickhead learn to seal ur lips


I used to say, i love you
All down the drain, cause there's no 'you'

Sent a text now but u were scorn
Feel your warmth hand even it's been long
All i ever want gotta stay calm
Even when it's gonna cause harm

Pain is so hard
without you
So i change my card 
From red to blue

I'm ready to fight
U have no clue
This is my life 
I don't need you

world

self prod
Lyrics:
you will say you're fine, 
but watch in 2 days
you'll come around and prowl
I'll watch as you do
as I lay back and I'm watching all this voodoo
and you'll always say that it's my fault
but as long as I go,
then I'll know
and I'm standing out in the cold,
waiting for you
looking all around, it's not safe here
lets get you inside, where its safe dear
all I see is fear in your eyes
come a little closer where I
I can keep you safe

(I just wanna keep you safe from all that's out there
turn the corner, watch him lunge, he don't know you're hurting)
In the end I know that I'm not what you want
So please don't act like you care
because you never even dared to look me in my 
Eyes
reduce me to the ground and I swear, I wont
Fold

(oh I want someone who I can)
oh I want someone who I can hold
(but that seems too much to ask)
(i might just go on my way and not)

Longing for someone to love, love
please just give me some time to adjust
hope you see the way that things are in my heart
If you give me your heart, I will keep it safe <3
Oh, but you'll never know
(oh I'll just keep on going)
I might be a little shy, but I'll try my best
I'm not really used to this, 
(so just give me time)
will it be repeated again?
Oh I hope not
will I be able to love, after all this?
Hoping that one day you'll come and show yourself to me
will it be true love?
Oh I hope so

voodoo

self prod
ft Salnik
Lyrics:
spiral in my life
no one even wants you here
oh you're such a disgrace
family just disowns you
can't believe i called you mine
now I'm living this life
just fuck off and leave me

leave me here all alone
taking all this medicine
stop me before i descend
looking round, Iridescence
I might drop off again
floor it down the highway
give me some lee-way
I just need some breathing space

find myself disappearing
time after time again
I just want to leave this
hoping no one notices me

might be time to run away

life took a turn for the worst?
or was it for the best?
cause right now, I swear I don't have anything
if I drown any deeper 
will I reach the bottom?


Falling down in a damn spiral now
I don't wanna know you that's final now
I know I aint been the best
but I'm trying real hard and I'm feeling stressed
Now I'm really pissed off
Done a lot of dumb shit, tired with a big cough
Wanna go back to how it was before
Don't feel like I'm myself no more

I'm too tired, my brain don't work like it should
If I could do more I would
If you don't like me it's understood

space ft salnik

self prod
ft @ZadAzhad
Lyrics:
I got over it now, its just last night
A female ghost in my room asked me if I'm alright
Over and over
She tryna say she aint died
Tryna love me but I said, I said
I cannot move on
Cause I did love her, with all of my heart
All of the time she said goodbye
But I'm still writing my feelings with blood


Used to say that I know
And now its all gone, I don't know what to do
used to look up at you
And now its all gone, what did that mean, I swear its all in my head now
I, cannot move on, cause I did love her with all of my heart
All of the time she said goodbye, but I'm still writing my feelings in blood
I, I try to move on (but) every time I fail at doing that
More, time I go on, swear i feel myself fading away

I got over it now, its just last night
A female ghost in my room asked me if I'm alright
Over and over
She tryna say she aint died
Tryna love me but I said, I said
I cannot move on
Cause I did love her, with all of my heart
All of the time she said goodbye
But I'm still writing my feelings with blood

ghost in my room ft ZadAzhad

self prod
Lyrics:
I-I-I
wanna know if I'm on your mind
cause I'm going crazy wondering if you care
And I hope these feelings are forever shared
So lets go back into the place you know
where you took my heart, and held me so close
I got used to that, but now its gone so fast
now my hearts got a gap, hoping you'll fix that

(intro) 2:27am

Lyrics:
Stars might be tellin' me secrets
I hear you talk when I'm sleeping
Where did you go
I asked you
Down on my knees, I beg you

If I give you up, it is all I got
Nothing mutual, just an empty spot
When I was alive, you play with my mind
And now I'm up here, you are just not who you seem to be
Yeah, when I was alive, I was the one always bleeding
You cut me open in pieces
And it's getting me down
I don't know who to believe, yeah
They won't believe what I've seen, yeah
Watching TV, why am I making a scene?
Oh-oh
And now that you hate me, I'm going through Mainstreet
I'm running through places
I'm seeing these faces
Like ohh
Do give me more
'till I overdose
I'ma need more
But I don't want more

Stars might be tellin' me secrets
I hear you talk when I'm sleeping
Where did you go
I asked you
Down on my knees, I beg you

[Outro]
Late night (Late ni-)
Late night (Late ni-)
Late night (Late ni-)
Late night

secrets

prod @softgrudge
ft. @reliicsry
Lyrics:
(I'm losing my mind, I'm not doing great)

All my life,
I've been down bad
Killing a part of me, that I never knew
Was it the best of me?
Or was it the worst?
Losing myself, nearly everyday
Is there something wrong with me?
Or am I just fine?

There's a method to the madness.
But I'm not right :(
I'm done being subpar
So call it off
I'm going off grid
And I'm turning my phone off

So don't try and call me,
Cause you never cared
It's not like I'm that special anyways
I'm done searching all around

(okay here we go)

All my life,
I've been down bad
Killing a part of me, that I never knew
I don't really care if you don't like this
Losing myself, nearly everyday
Is there something wrong with me?
Or am I just fine?

There's a method to the madness.
But I'm not right :(
I'm done being subpar
So call it off
I'm going off grid
And I'm turning my phone off

So don't try and call me,
Cause you never cared
It's not like I'm that special anyways
I'm done searching all around
It's too far

subpar.

heylog - please break my heart (cover)

experiment 02

prod. georgie *glok1d*
Lyrics:
Thinking bout' what you told me
Ever since that night,
Can't enjoy my time on this planet,
Been lonely
Girl I hold your love to close to my heart,
And now its showing
Oblivious to all the lies
You know you'd never give your soul to me
The demons in my head, oh I wish they'd go away
And I already learnt my lesson with u
Not giving my soul away
Miss your love,
Your warmth, blew the cold away
Wish I knew, what it was that made u go away
Tell myself, that I gotta move on
And
I would try it, every time I would fail
Because your love, I'd buy it
Like every single time you'd give that shit up for sale
Really took me a minute, to realise that I was locked in one of your spells
Really took me a minute, to realise what u were putting me thru was hell

oh, u cant kiss me ever darling
and, forever black. will be my heart
never loved me from the start
and forever black will be my...

subpar.

softgrudge

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