YOU STAY STILL WHILE I STAY LIKE A TIDALWAVE

a bunch of small scattered hearts among the piles of ash (b-sides)

Gates and fences

Hansel (prod. sorrow bringer)

friends

lyrics:

Pcp and lsd we turning it up in here
Naked bitches swinging off the top the chandeliers
Project x its project sewer I walk the plank in here
I been with my scallywags im with my buccaneers
Fuck off with these shots cause I might down the whole handle
We was not invited but we show up and dismantle
White boy off those liquor shots they calling me jack Daniels
Faded I got a driver whipping for me out the phantom
I made 20 bands in a day and spent it like hot potatoe
Said I had got the sauce gatekeep the sauce I guard the mayo
 Half the bitches geeking off my music I spit yola 
His bitch gimme stick drift like a Playstation controller
Pour me up im turnt bitch im lit up like a candle
Quagen inside my cup I triple up Im going Rambo
Remember all these days I had spent up in the trap 
Cash inside my jeans talk to me said im never going back
Way too much inside me Imma stab off I  gotta yack
Boosting up my dose I am rapper so im smacked 
Even if I could I swear im never going back
I am inside the middle of my second relapse
 pour it outI will suck up all that venom
Winding down I was shaking I was shitting out blood
Puking when I wake up its the opposite of fun
Laughing in the face of death had left my soul numb
Fuck off with these shots cause I might down the whole handle
We was not invited but we show up and dismantle
White boy off those liquor shots they calling me jack Daniels
Faded I got a driver whipping for me out the phantom

blind/deaf/mute  (splashgvng)

i needa go to work my girl if u hear me now 
i’ll be back at 6
make u food if u want it 
woke up in a good mood 
but shortly after lost it 
this table and this screen 
keep me in like a coffin 
at my 9-5 way too high to be conscious 
broke another streak
i feel bad for my sponsors
need to put this bottle down
head spinnin like a comet
2 litre sprite
pinewood then cherry drop it 

like run your diagnostics 
on my friends 
anythin u want girl
i’ll buy it 
can’t afford a prada bag
so i rolled this 10 
will u hold me down when i get indicted
pass the gas to my homie only smoke fire
hold the knife in my hand and i get excited 
pass the gas to my baby yea she light it
she put flowers on the grave that i’m inside inside in

and it’s like lately
idk, i can’t explain 
i been - 
ugh

i mean, like lately,
i been low once again 
i feel like things are starting to fall into place
then they slip and i drop them 
they smash like a vase
always just a fuck up 
yea i cannot explain
why do i always think people want me this way
then they cut and they stitch n they try change my shape
i pop pills n im lazy 
the fuck can i say
either take me 
or leave me 
stop playing this game 
i’m a person i deserve to be loved and- 

tf am i sayin 
just pass me a 30 n get out my way 
i’ve gone cold through these years that you’ve shredded my brain 
what’s a life without fighting 
feel fuckin insane
did you see how he fell when i hit him again 
i got blood on my hands wash it off in the rain
i can’t make a fist or hold my phone a few days 
but i promise that pussy won’t try it again
all i need in this life is some weed and a pen

i’ll be back at six (nevrfall)

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

Lyrics:

[Yokai Dreams]

something's been eating me up as of lately
i'm never enough and i feel like they hate me
can't blame anyone but myself
i don't have no one else
i don't take no ones help
i won't take yours
after it all i am still just the same me

weak
maybe i'm an asshole
i'm scared but i won't let that show
no king
sick of this castle
i'd leave but it's too much hassle

got a tortured mind and a broken heart
i barely recognize me
u wouldn't understand a thing
mind over matter but both mine are weak

[hero]

if it's really what you wanted then there's nothing to forgive (AAAA)
trapped in cells of condemnation my mind is gonna give
depression comes in cycles
2nd guessing come in sweeps
what my friends are spouting
you'd have to torture outta me

everything
i think
i say
and all i said
i meant
i'm not jus gonna skim right past it
go get fuckin bent
"you wouldn't understand it"
bitch it's happening to me
"mind over matter"
but both of mine are weak

mind over matter w/ yokai dreams (prod. vowl x brothel)

Sourface

somthin

chase

Hotboxing This 07 Camry Like Its Our Fucking Job (sorrow bringer x pizzle)

mindless (prod. taylor morgan)

taylor morgan made the original beat and the synth is sampled at the end, all credit to him!!

eaturheartout (version 2)

Canción escrita por mí, Jordan Julian Chase (también Javier, criollíto) Tenía 11 años.

Estaba en Caracas. Mis tías me golpearon, no por algo que hice, sino simplemente por existir. No entendía por qué. Solo sabía que dolía. Ese día, en medio de la confusión, la rabia, y el deseo de desaparecer lento y para siempre, escribí esta canción. No era solo un poema. Era mi forma de gritar sin hacer ruido.

Cada palabra salió como un suspiro roto, como un intento de entender lo que nadie me explicaba. Era frustración infantil, sí, pero también una chispa de algo más profundo. No quería venganza. No quería atención. Solo quería que el mundo supiera que yo estaba ahí, que sentía, que sangraba por dentro.

Esta canción es mi testimonio. Mi resistencia. Mi forma de convertir el golpe en ritmo, el silencio en sonido, el dolor en arte. No la escribí para que me tengan lástima. La escribí porque era lo único que podía hacer para no desaparecer del todo.

Hoy, esa canción sigue viva... Y yo también.

Corre Javi, Corre!

production credits:

molly don, Xtravulous, Penacho, notmorgn

(volume 2)

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just happy to be here

friends

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