Thank you so much for releasing  this song here 💙

I have looked everywhere for this after you at home and so hapy for this

Lyrics:
so what am i left to do, when bridges fall apart
we did not need burn 'em, they were doomed right from the start
and it left a void of blackness deep within my heart
i hope that i see you again when i walk into the dark

and now i got questions, like "when can i end this?"
like "is it a sin to keep wanting to die and not mend it?"
like why im not stable, please if youre able
just give me a bottle sedate me, pay under the table

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

like im mortified
im so mortified

i see the shore, and the moon, they wont be the same
memories stay and rot deep within my brain
summer scents, a cup of rosé, and a side of pain
blackened ink, plus a needle, and your name

the tick of my watch is all that i hear while i waste away
its like purgatory, repetitive story at the end of day 
i cannot smoke and i cannot sleep all the pain away
i wanna lay flat, stay warm in my casket while i start to fade

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

but im so mortified
all thats in my mind
whats on the other side
of the fading light

Mortified

sometimes i just walk around the house to move a little

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There's A Monster Inside Of Me

Lyrics:
how many times can i write songs bout stayin up all night
cuz im workin on my shit im stayin on my grind
got some og you dont know me now im feelin fine
got me spinnin while im spillin all thats in my mind

avoided post-traumatic therapy, they know they aint a friend of me
they saw me like a loony so they put me on the centerpiece 
said "why you wanna hurt yourself", they put me back up on the shelf
said "youll be fine just get some help", i asked but then got no one else

down these pills then we'll call it done, got nuff meds in the pickup truck
been prescribed but it hurts inside cuz the pills too big and im out of luck
so instead ill stay inside my room, and ill stay silent like i always do
so dont bring it up cuz ill just push through and i wont reply when you ask whats new

fake a smile isolate on a good day
wont go out do not care what your friends say
now they walkin on eggshells its too late, cuz the damage done they tryna make up for the naysay
said you couldnt do it, but you out here finna prove it
you survived and thats a clue-in that you got something to do here

manic (prod Mage)

Heartbeat

just one of the infinite advantages of studying the art of the blade

Ain't It Funny How It Goes

Basement (Live from Home)

Disappearing Act

THROW ME AT THE WALL

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here

Basement (Live from Home)

Softheart

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