softheart but I go hard

this song has the heaviest backstory to it imaginable lmao

Lyrics:

late night drive
but i swear somethings off
i heard things
of people i never should 

i see you met the janitor
who never found his way
he's been fucking suicidal since 3 years ago today
and you might know him 
from the potions that he lives on and creates
take one look at him
oh god 
do u think he deserved his fate
and this place has got some issues he just half the time gets paid
and he solves the others problems with no 'please' or fucking 'thanks'
he'll be stuck here cleaning messes    
from july to next years may
but he don't mind his problems weighty enough for theirs to let him wade
 
-

these are not english words i 
can't think so 
a da da dee di
i'm stressed the fuck outta my mind
whole life broke down overnight
don't make the same mistake as me 
you must take sides they both fucking scream
i gave my answer through gritted teeth
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
 
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i know all that we could be oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i'd show all that we could be
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh

janitor

everything by me
been working on a lot
seriously way more to come
hope you enjoy. 
thank you so much for listening.
your support means beyond any means to me.

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; 
remind me
quiet lifestyle, but defiled by this thoughts of mine
memories are heaven
'till you are what you forgot in time
don't care..
you don't care
you don't care, anymore.

i can see appeal
conflicted with the feeling
a burden on myself
it feels like i just killed me
get over that hill
down another cup of coffee
relive how it felt
to think, see, hear, and feel nothing

over-sensitized and ill
aye, when's it my turn to heal?
insinuate that better place you've always dreamt of only kills
until we fall and call it quits
by stone or gun that don't exist
i was here for all of this
(i was here for all of this)

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; remind me

how i got here, and who i am to stand by
'cause with fragile ears and hearts,
we've always been paralyzed, paralyzed
no wonder, why.

(killing me off slowly)
(putting my dreams behind me)
(i find it so damn unlikely)
(remind me)

all of this

pillow pit

https://www.anxietyattacksmusic.com
prod/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!

LYRICS:
u don't even care
you said you had my back, but you're not there
i don't wanna talk in circles anymore
we can call it off, i'ma let it go

i don't wanna say
i knew everything would end this way
trying not to sound too jaded
leave it all behind and run away

there's nowhere to go
you know it's harder every day
nowhere to go, gets harder all the time
it's getting old, i think i've had enough

u don't even care
you said you had my back, but you're not there
i don't wanna talk in circles anymore
we can call it off, i'ma let it go
half my friends who say they're there for me
aren't there for me at all
i don't wanna talk about it anymore
we're done, you're not involved

i'll be fine all by myself like always
i feel so much better when i'm on my own
that's what i say, i just wanna sound like i'm okay
keep my circle tight, i'm alright, same as always
i can count my friends on one hand, i miss the old days
i stay outside, treat the streets just like hallways
nothing feels right, i've been losing fights all day

u don't even care
you said you had my back, but you're not there
i don't wanna talk in circles anymore
we can call it off, i'ma let it go

we can call it all off, i'ma let it go
we could stay & catch up, i don't want it though
 
half my friends who say they're there for me
aren't there for me at all
i don't wanna talk about it anymore
we're done, you're not involved

we can call it all off, i'ma let it go
we could stay & catch up, i don't want it though
we can call it all off, i'ma let it go
we could stay & catch up, i don't want it though

on streaming <3

u don't even care

Acoustic mashup of "not home. - srry" + "residential. - srry pt2"

[srry pt2]
She told me that I do the most
Faded with friends in the smoke
Rather not pick up the phone, prolly best I'm off on my own

[srry]
I'll do my best to keep it honest
I talk my shit, I talk my garbage
My family knows I'm fucking heartless
Smoke fills my lungs every night
It's the only thing that kills the time
Feel like life is looking better high
Something just ain't feeling right
Baby, tell me why I wanna die

[srry pt2]
She told me that I do the most
Faded with friends in the smoke
Rather not pick up the phone, prolly best I'm off on my own

residential. - srry/srry pt2 *acoustic*

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

[Intro]
Ough, ough, woah
(Morteh, hmm)

[Chorus]
Smokin' on a motor stripe (Phew, phew, phew), she gon' get the dick tonight (It's her)
Homie washing cup but still he sipping on a dirty sprite
All the gas I brought is mine, this high is a private flight
Half an ounce will do me right, if we talking just tonight

[Verse 1]
All annoying bitches in my dm's be like Navi (Hey, listen)
I ain't do a feature just to fucking make you happy
Said "I like your music" it does not mean you can dap me (Dap me up)
Might take it to Maury with the way she call me daddy

[Bridge]
Ayy
Smokin' on a motor stripe (Yeah), she gon' get the dick tonight (Woah)
Homie washing cup but still he sipping on a dirty sprite (Smokin' on a motor stripe)
All the gas I brought is mine

[Verse 2]
Propane hit me hard, tastes like fuel from cars
Exclusive Gmail beats, rip that bitch apart
Your smoke smell like farts, my smoke smell like sharts
Fucking up my heart, crush a blunt like it's a dart
Bitch, I come through, and I fuck it up
You could really do the damage if you suck it up (Suck it up)
Shooter on the roof, see your face and muck it up (Woah)
Hennessy and Gas Cross a fade like it's a double dutch

[Chorus]
Smokin' on a motor stripe (Phew, phew, phew), she gon' get the dick tonight (It's her)
Homie washing cup but still he sipping on a dirty sprite
All the gas I brought is mine, this high is a private flight
Half an ounce will do me right, if we talking just tonight

9TAILS - drop zone (prod. oaker & morteh)

Got to see what this prevails
Sure I'm gonna talk about it even if I fail
Pour my fucking heart in this shit
I don't follow trails
Never gonna walk without this crutch until I'm pale
Deep inside the forest, take a tour
I'll see you there
Empty bottle snoring, rain be pouring
You'll forget that
Only course of action is to step beyond the tree lines
These pines hold
The might to unmold

You're just a fraction of perception
Everything you know deception
Ego craving that intention
Overthinking that inflection
Loving every each obsession
But it's all in your mind
Nothing really fucking matters
I'm not lagging behind
Spending every waking second
Ask me how could I pass judgement on another
If I stare up in the mirror
Scared. Don't suffer
Crazy but it's all in your head
Project your fucking consciousness to where you will head

Stay afloat
Thoughts flow down stream quick
Choosing what you focus on
Let decay the other songs
Too much get you sea sick
Throwing up Hennessy; quick
Tomorrow got work at three; quit
Learning nothing with my time
I'm tired of trying to fit in line
Scared of not succeeding
Must learn to walk all on my own
Fear sets I faulter
Mask my tone
We all living on this planet till we're cold like stone
Better learn to love yourself
Conscious melts off the cone
Everything is fake, there's no meaning to it
You're your own god, best believe it
Cause we look back to the past

Try to grasp, running fast
You are leaving from the place you once knew
Now the sky isn't blue
And you cry every night wishing that you had knew
Things forever changing
Always temporary
Look past all the pain
It's only memory

The Forest (bonus track)

lyrics for the fan that messaged me sorry it took so long

much love keep your head up it get's better homie trust me <3


you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

im just writing songs istead of doing wrong
instead of you alone
im just hitting packs of the bong
it was peace, then
suddenly nobody get along
fuck a reason
i just want you inside of my arms
but you dont wanna
my love she dont want it
perfect she a goddess
goddesses are heartless

and i stay
filled in with blankness as bliss
i get lost in the pain of the shit
faded the canvis it's raw like i'm blazing 
the scent break the cloth when i'm painting the shit
need to stop overhearing ho
personal buissness is blended but different than all my lyrics
no way
teardrops hit any others might stain
still the same kid any others might change
forever i roll with the homies even if we smoking 50 miles away
and im still accidentally passing the j
someone's gon grab that shit one of these days

oh no no no no i never take it like i used to
all this hurt and high shit dont faze me like it used to
she gon do me wrong she gon break me like the usual 
all these ruts and drugs still dont change how i get used to
(x2)

you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

homesick (YourStandardSappyOverlyEmotionalHeartbreakSong) |prod. GHXST|

project soon

thanks to my dude @notmorgn
go check him out if you haven't

heartless w/ notmorgn

this song lowkey from like a year ago lol

F5F5F5F5 / Dumb (prod. ACR Radio)

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

young existential crisis V2 (prod. young taylor)

HUGE thank you to everyone that's supported me so far
this album is a favorite for sure, i hope you all feel the same <3


album credits:

huge thanks to noah walker, this album wouldn't be what it is without him 

instrumentation: noah walker, quinn, chris p, coleman, mohini 

production: something worth living for (prod. killedmyself)
all other production done by me

scary stories to tell in the dark

We could get along, but the world don't like it
Make too many songs but I can't stop writing, my-
Marijauna loud like my mind is
I guess I just can't stand the silence, i
Don't know how you get so fine
One look my way and my chest on fire, ay
Walking with my head so high
I just like the feeling when i think of you like


No, I don't
Know what happens in my head
Just know there's pure intent
I can't control the feelings that i get
Its kind of torturous
Girl I spent fucking years in my regret
Don't need no more of it, no
I still feel her judging me when i'm by myself
I can't even ignore the shit


Never been the one to pretend, i just go with who i am
Maybe we can be friends, now that you know where i stand
Every girl I've ever been with, think i'm singin' bout them
Really I'm just singing to the one i never met
It's so tragic, killing that magic
Used to have a heart now i'm just living with the absence
Only want it more if i know i can't have it
Don't know why i can't stop thinking about it

[2x Chorus]

In My Head

guitar by @noahwalker

lyrics:
genius.com/Oftheart-keep-your-head-up-lyrics

Keep Your Head Up

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scary stories to tell in the dark

Softheart

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