softheart but I go hard

this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts  .o*

my head has clouds in it

Mockingbird (prod. PRINCESS)

Guap Gettin (ft.Jxne)

lyrics for the fan that messaged me sorry it took so long

much love keep your head up it get's better homie trust me <3


you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

im just writing songs istead of doing wrong
instead of you alone
im just hitting packs of the bong
it was peace, then
suddenly nobody get along
fuck a reason
i just want you inside of my arms
but you dont wanna
my love she dont want it
perfect she a goddess
goddesses are heartless

and i stay
filled in with blankness as bliss
i get lost in the pain of the shit
faded the canvis it's raw like i'm blazing 
the scent break the cloth when i'm painting the shit
need to stop overhearing ho
personal buissness is blended but different than all my lyrics
no way
teardrops hit any others might stain
still the same kid any others might change
forever i roll with the homies even if we smoking 50 miles away
and im still accidentally passing the j
someone's gon grab that shit one of these days

oh no no no no i never take it like i used to
all this hurt and high shit dont faze me like it used to
she gon do me wrong she gon break me like the usual 
all these ruts and drugs still dont change how i get used to
(x2)

you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

homesick (YourStandardSappyOverlyEmotionalHeartbreakSong) |prod. GHXST|

project soon

thanks to my dude @notmorgn
go check him out if you haven't

heartless w/ notmorgn

this song lowkey from like a year ago lol

F5F5F5F5 / Dumb (prod. ACR Radio)

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

young existential crisis V2 (prod. young taylor)

Timeout

Heartbeat

Disappearing Act

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young existential crisis V2 (prod. young taylor)

Softheart

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