煌めき(demo)

"Oh the things we do for love." - Courage the Cowardly Dog

probably just actually losing my fuckin mind this time. dw about that tho, happens more often than you'd think lmao

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Lyrics:
To Algernon, my dearest friend - I offer you a flower.

Raised within a den of scum, my only kin, black nameless rats
A perfect villain by fate's design - I'd always resigned myself to chance
Apathetic to all evil, I never cared for any good
But in a world of monochromes, the only color I'd ever known
Was you.

I must admit I never saw all your colors, and I never understood
Because those lies that I had heard, were all I ever knew
And I didn't care for right or wrong, when nothing ever really mattered
But that lopsided grin, that you knew was a mask
Was something I made for you.

In yet another painful twist of fate
These fucking cards we chose to play
The game begins
And I despised your twisted words
Designed by you, to make me hurt
I hated you.
But unbeknownst to you, my friend
I've always had the upper hand
Because you seem to forget
That I'm a low-life, through and through -
Of course I'd know the fucking rules.

Oh what a twisted tale to leave behind
Grotesque like a rat king - our fates entwined
In the end of our stories, one's always died
But I refuse to make that our legacy
In the colors of pain, that only you can see
There's a truth in the actions, only I can hear
I don't care about what's right, or who's in the wrong
I refuse to let you die
Not this time

Forget-me-not, you almost saw who I was, back then
But when you made me play the Devil, know you misunderstood
I only deal in time and loss, every unspoken truth
In darkness I would only smile, as every quiet Death should

Oh lonely wild Rose, you're such a beautiful imperfection
And in your golden insanity, I gleamed some purpose in Creation
True anomaly, 'cause only numbers don't lie
I called you as I saw you - a miracle, in time

But roses thrive on secrets, and I was staked on golden thorns
Twisted actions, hurtful lies, distorted in light's shadow
Unable to see your eyes, those blinding colors of your pain
I let my flowers wilt away - became a weed to choke you

Oh what a twisted tale to leave behind
Grotesque like a rat king - our fates entwined
In the end of our stories, one's always died
But I refuse to make that our legacy
In the colors of pain, that only you can see
There's a truth in the actions, only I can hear
I don't care about what's right, or who's in the wrong
I refuse to let you die
Not this time

Do you finally understand
The fear that I had felt
As endless hands never left
And do you finally hear
The truth in actions I take
These words I've always said
Because I finally see
The pain behind those words
The colors of that dream
Dead.

I am not so sure
If we could have that happy ending
In these cycles repeating
And I wouldn't be surprised
If every life we did this same fucking dance
Like we were cursed.

But still the truth remains
That all this "purpose" and "morals"
Were born from feelings that you gave
And whether you like it or not
My choice remained the same
Throughout this stupid "destiny"

So I will keep my promise
And take to arms once again
Like I told you back then
To fight and die for that future
A world where we can finally -

Oh what a twisted tale to leave behind
Grotesque like a rat king - our fates entwined
In the end of our stories, one's always died
But I refuse to make that our legacy
In the colors of pain, that only you can see
There's a truth in the actions, only I can hear
I don't care about what's right, or who's in the wrong
I refuse to let you die

Not this time

To Algernon, my dear friend - I offer you a flower.
Please allow me to fight, by your side as a friend
And I won't fight your battles, because I trust in your strength

But I don't want to let this story
Have another bad end.

【Original Song】 To The Grotesque Legacy Of A Rat King

composition practice piece, not mixed at all. i am fucking DYING atm

THE FACADE

太陽光線から逃げる
前世は絶対ヴァンパイア
強い風と溶けるお菓子と映画館に入ろう

なんだか最近面白い
物語が始まらない
動物園のライオンなんて日陰で寝てるし

落ちばを突っつく鳩に
教えてあげる

しゃがみこんで砂をいじったり
うるさい波が息を止めるように
そこには多分何もないよ
睡眠不足が気になったり
大きな山を通り越すように
そこには多分何もないよ

食べたことないかき氷
挑戦してみる暇だから
溶ける速さ間に合わなくて損した気分

アサガオ観察始めたよ
暑いだけが夏だから
関係ないことだけを書いて空欄を埋める

木の実取り合う鴨に
教えてあげる

約束以外を全部破いたり
嘘と本当に釘を刺す様に
そこには多分何もないよ
しゃがみこんで砂をいじったり
うるさい波が息を止めるように
そこには多分　何もないよ

夏ってやつ！

Only I would make a comeback with such a mediocre song. Never want to listen to this again lol. No complaints though, at least I'm still going despite everything!

Stream my music: hyperfollow.com/n0n53n53

Lyrics:
Your overflowing joy
Condensed into my prayer
Just deception
Void betrayal
If your heart was next to mine
My neighbours they would not complain
If we just had more time

If your heart was next to mine
My neighbours they wouldn't complain
If we just had more time
Then the warmth would never drain
Alas, you will despise me
Our gazes will grow cold
The creed that we were born in
Cements this loss foretold

Instrumental and SVP:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1oytxCOxFZe3JNoIx--v0laT3Ud8i3l9u?usp=sharing

(Mai) Star-crossed [Synthesizer V Original]

Dug this up from my 2019 backup folders. I don't remember exactly why I didn't finish this - but it probably has to do with me quitting Vocaloid, sometime during production.

Same instrumental as "Melancholic but not Sad", so this probably counts as the first draft of that song.

anw icon is Oliver bc apparently he's the ONLY mf I drew for fun, especially at the time

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Lyrics:

All I needed then was a chance to fight
All I'm needing now is the will to try
All I needed was to surpass my high

High, high, high

And it was the stars above the sky that gave me life
And it was above the clouds I saw them burning bright
I will never give up, even though hell awaits me now
'Cause I'm dreaming again, despite the nightmare of this -

And it was the stars above the sky that gave me life
And it was above the clouds I saw them burning bright
I will never give up, even though hell awaits me now
'Cause I'm dreaming again, despite the nightmare of this town

All I needed then was a chance to fight
All I'm needing now is the will to try
All I needed was to surpass my high

All I needed then was a chance to fight
All I'm needing now is the will to try
All I needed was to surpass my high

High, high, high

【Vocaloid Original】Surpass My High【Shius ft. Fukase】

Daydream Backing Track

BIBIDIBA(ビビデバ) cover feat.宮舞モカ/弦巻マキ

まばたき禁止のお菓子
ぐるぐる巻き込んで紫ザラメね
失敗も味方にヤケクソに
巻き込んでよ紫夢の中

眠れない夜があったとき聞かせて
幽霊になっちゃった話
夢のお話

居眠り禁止の綿
ぐるぐる巻き込んで紫ザラメね
輝く星なんて
ここからじゃ見えやしない
いらないザラメね

眠れない夜があったとき聞かせて
幽霊になっちゃった話
夢のお話

紫ザラメ feat. 夏色花梨

So Matt wrote + recorded the chorus, and I didn't even REMEMBER this song existed until I dug it outta my hard drive, like late December last year. I think I said it was made in like 2019 - but I am LIKELY lying through my damn teeth, cause this comp style sounds like it was made during the "Music To Survive To" era.

But anyways. Autism.
Enjoy LMAO

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Lyrics:

Wake up you zombie, it is pattern-o-clock
Your routine won't let you sleep until you follow it off
This stupid cliff, take me down and all the things that I love
Or Imma throw these fucking words in your face, until I've had enough
Bro I'm autistic as shit - I'm stuffing fun facts down your gut
Eat that bullet with me, 'cause we don't "show enough"

Hey don't drop your mask king, we masking
High functioning bastards, we're masters of disguise
We don't belong here, but guess what?
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing else to do
Now dance with me, if you're sick too
Now sing the song, we all iller than we seem
Sick enough to die young, but not yet
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing left to do

(You don't- you don't get it. Okay. Lemme try again)

They say that they don't understand, but I be real specific
When I am using these terms defining mental hieroglyphics
'Cause the social cues will kill me, but I still gotta try
And I'm tryna be human 'til the day I fucking die

(And yeah miscommunications might EVENTUALLY tie my noose, but also I like yapping about shit that doesn't matter. Matt, take over for me)

Hey don't drop your mask king, we masking
High functioning bastards, we're masters of disguise
We don't belong here, but guess what?
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing else to do
Now dance with me, if you're sick too
Now sing the song, we all iller than we seem
Sick enough to die young, but not yet
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing left to do

It's time to go fuckin stupid bro, lets fuckin gooo
'Cause I'm so sleep deprived and overworked, but I can't even show it
Yeah the resting bitch face stays on, with every high and low
And everything that I'm thinking of - you'll never truly know

I refuse to take a risk before considering every outcome
I will not take the fall, before I see a way out
The mask is on to help both you and me, 'cause I don't understand
How you think I can trust you, and your outstretched hand
When you get bullied so many times, you learn to adapt
When the world won't understand, you teach yourself to not snap
Bind your fangs behind masked words, and keep playing stupid
Cause you're a high-functioning bastard - you're an asshole, for a purpose

(And yes, I may have gone a bit too hard for the sake of getting my point across
But I am VERY tired, and I don't exactly care if I come across "mean", as long as I'm understood.
Do you get me? I hope you get me. Really.)

Hey don't drop your mask king, we masking
High functioning bastards, we're masters of disguise
We don't belong here, but guess what?
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing else to do
Now dance with me, if you're sick too
Now sing the song, we all iller than we seem
Sick enough to die young, but not yet
We goin' nowhere, there's nothing left to do

(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah!
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeahhhhh)

【Original Song】 High Functioning Bastards

This is a place to store my favorite things I've made. I'm a beginner at composing music, and I'll be posting songs I've made with the Logic Pro.
(DTM初心者がLogic Proで作成した曲を載せていきます)

煌めき(demo)

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