prod. @pekarot_161

[casperrr]
nobody will love you as i do did
seeing u with some1 else makes me sick 
i wish u the best, but i feel like shit
hope u succeed in life while i can't even live 

(chorus) [casperrr]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

[casperrr & autumn]
ooh~

[autumn]
and they say i'll never change
just put that on my grave
not tryna resist this, but it's on my name
just calm down
you're aware of the wrongs that you did
so just let them run out
just not right now
just twist what you want, up until you fall down
i'm losing my hair
trying not to be scared
it took so much time to get where i am here
my knees to the ground
as well as my pride
the ones that i've hurt aren't good at goodbyes

so i stay inside
cause this home knows i
accepted what i've done
just not to that extent
oh how i was stunned from 
all of it

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

Sourface

produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (cxrter x retz)

produced by cxrter and fonkyfake
additional production by lxst boy

Collide

hypnotize (ft. vails)

mixed/mastered by me
produced by flower and luffysome

lyrics:
i guess it was all for nothing
what a sad story
i can tell that you been bluffing
you'd be better off if you ignore me

it's been so cold out
idk how i'mma ever be the same again
the door we had together's closed now
i've been zoned out
tryna hide from all my pain again

it's never ending
it doesn't matter what you say to me
bad guy, i bet that's how you been painting me
to all your friends, all your friends and your family
with all the lies that you tell it's more like fantasy

we know you ain't innocent
rather be alone than ever let you in again
call it what you want but i know that's imminent
since the time i had to ask you "where you been" again
i knew i couldn't trust you

want me to drown in all of my tears
and it's fucked up
you just wanna see my heart stop
and i can't stop
thinkin bout how all that i've got
is just bad luck when it comes to love

i guess it was all for nothing
what a sad story
i can tell that you been bluffing
you'd be better off if you ignore me

it's been so cold out
idk how i'mma ever be the same again
the door we had together's closed now
i've been zoned out
tryna hide from all my pain again

all for nothing [flower]

prod: rick hardy

Hi:

I can’t believe 
What you think of me
Losing sleep on what I should’ve said
I couldn’t see
Who I could be
Until your words rang inside of my head

Now that I’m here
My thoughts are clear
I see what I want from my life
My only dear
The time is near 
I cannot wait to spend those nights

With you
It’s all with you
And you said that it’s all or nothing
So what should we do
Bae, it’s up to you 
Ahhhhh

Now that I’m here
My thoughts are clear
I see what I want from my life
My only dear
The time is near 
I cannot wait to spend those nights


Love u

those nights

I woke up in static, eyes like glass on fire,  
No halo, no mercy — just a code rewired.  
They talk like prophets, but they sound like spam,  
Selling virtue for dopamine — goddamn.  

Out My Way

Fiat Lux is one of our experimental Black Metal albums that never actually got released.
Back in the pandemic days, we had way too much time on our hands — so we made music, wrote lyrics, and recorded a bunch of stuff we’re now slowly bringing to life.

This one’s really close to our hearts. A good friend of ours, Nero, got stuck in Switzerland during lockdown and couldn’t make it back to Italy — so he ended up jumping in, co-writing a few tracks, and doing all the Italian vocals.

Massive thanks to you, Nero. This album wouldn’t exist without you.

Oh — and Fiat Lux is now exclusively available on SoundCloud!
We’re dropping it as a little gift to our community, followers, and all the new listeners discovering NeON dEVIL for the first time.

Chants of the Hollow Sun

grown

delate in the wasted pits of sorrow

its fun to forget
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