I keep hoping for more… w/ getbetter

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

@lottaheart:
don't ask me
how i feel when i can't keep fighting
in my backseat,
a quick thrill to keep things exciting
i don't wanna act like i'm
doing okay cause i'm pissed
kinda sick of feeling like i'm
losing interest to exist

@xobroken:
i don't even wanna ask where ya been
cause i haven't seen you since
you told me you love me but now you hate me once again
i swear the cycle never ends

now i'm stuck up in my head
i should really take my meds
kinda wish we never met
you make me feel like i'm dead

don't ask me how i been
bitch don't ask me what i been through
like a demon, soul is what you're into
tore me apart and i been drinking to forget you
there's nothing left now
i'm just stuck in hell now

@lottaheart:
don't ask me
how i feel when i can't keep fighting
in my backseat,
a quick thrill to keep things exciting
i don't wanna act like i'm
doing okay cause i'm pissed
kinda sick of feeling like i'm
losing interest to exist
[x2]

unsaid w/xobroken

I genuinely love this one so much

lyrics
-=-=-
Wraith
-=-=-
Locked out of my house
And its 20 below
I could go back to you
But I’d rather the snow
Winter winds, hitting skin
And I’m cold to the bones
Now it’s all sinking in
I was always alone

Look what did to me
Grabbing the mic and I’m spitting epitomes
Thought you were digging me
Making a mess and and then blaming me
You fucking kidding me?
Talking to you like are you even listening?
Gucci on me diamonds wet like a christening
Feel like I’m solving a mystery
Every time you even speak to me
Tell me what's happening

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web
-=-=-
i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home
its cold but i dont got a coat
i feel the blood sinking down in my throat
i feel the ache in my ears and my nose
when the winter time comes make december my home
i see your name when it comes on my phone but i dont wanna talk so i leave it alone
i guess im staying locked out
im trenching on through the snow
like baby i know that its cold
im out here in 20 below
and im trynna find my way home

december w/ web (wraithontheporch)

lyrics ⬇️

when you call me
i wont pick it up
you should know this
yea you shoukd know this
and im not sorry
you shoulda noticed
i was there for you yea i swear i was closest

look how the flow switch
i know that they gon love it
thought everything was picture perfect until
you had broke it
you broke it
now i can’t even focus
not inside of my room or when im at work but im hoping

wonder when ill get outta my head out my headspace
im locked inside my skin when i scream they dont hear me
so whats the reason i should be here clearly
i shouldn’t
i know its not alright but ima keep it keep it pushing
and i dont wanna lie but i been doing what I shouldn’t 

they dont wanna see me happy but im chillin here im grinnin
i dont wanna see you they think that im crappy im a villain
maybe that is true
but i refuse to see that vision 
i dont wanna lose my hope if i dont have to

i got bad news
you wont see me no more ima be way past you

should i (hostile)

riot ft camertin (hollowprpl)

Prod. Johnnyfriend
go support my homie breck!
https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

Lyrics -

(Swamp)

Yeah it’s painfully obvious that I’m not in control 
Feel like a vessel for the negatives that I find in my lows
It’s eerie you see me then say it’s like you’re seeing a ghost 
But how long has it been since I’ve been this cold 

(Brecken)

this shi getting old
feels like you stompin on my face
i lose all control
one lil push gon make me fold fold fold
i dont wanna do this no more
its the soul soul purpose why i hit the floor

and what i thought was all wrong
ate dirt when i thought that id been strong all along
lost worth when you saw me layed out heart stopped on the lawn
i put you first even though i shoulda put my health on top
and it still hurts when i think of you grippin on your purse

(Swamp)

Yeah but you know me best, there’s no need to hide
You’ve seen through the cracks of my faulty disguise 
What do you see when you look in my eyes do you look past the dead inside 
I’m 20 something that’s barley alive 
But I’m wastein away for the rest of my life 
Haven’t gained only lost time 
Just a ghost in a shell that is not mine 
Like what do I do when I run out of vices 
Walk in that room finding me laying lifeless 
wake up and don’t do this to me 
But I’m caught in the cycle and can’t hear a thing 
I’ll Shake it off, this must be a dream 
The sensation of me finally free 
I’ll sober up and be back in a week 
But just as bad or prolly worse than you think 

(Brecken)


swear i had the worst week
ill fix it up with sum tape
it aint as good as it seems
nothing im needing is outta the cage
thought you were on my team
everything seem to fade
cold cries telling everybody how i feel
whole time i aint even realize this was real

sideways car im whippin a beetle
think u a star u is not one them people
export the product get it for retail
im makin bank it make feel well

(Swamp)

Yeah it’s painfully obvious that I’m not in control 
Feel like a vessel for the negatives that I find in my lows
It’s eerie you see me then say it’s like you’re seeing a ghost 
But how long has it been since I’ve been this cold 

(Brecken)

this shi getting old
feels like you stompin on my face
i lose all control
one lil push gon make me fold fold fold
i dont wanna do this no more
its the soul soul purpose why i hit the floor

and what i thought was all wrong
ate dirt when i thought that id been strong all along
lost worth when you saw me layed out heart stopped on the lawn
i put you first even though i shoulda put my health on top
and it still hurts when i think of you grippin on your purse

Painfully Obvious

I woke up in static, eyes like glass on fire,  
No halo, no mercy — just a code rewired.  
They talk like prophets, but they sound like spam,  
Selling virtue for dopamine — goddamn.  

Out My Way

Fiat Lux is one of our experimental Black Metal albums that never actually got released.
Back in the pandemic days, we had way too much time on our hands — so we made music, wrote lyrics, and recorded a bunch of stuff we’re now slowly bringing to life.

This one’s really close to our hearts. A good friend of ours, Nero, got stuck in Switzerland during lockdown and couldn’t make it back to Italy — so he ended up jumping in, co-writing a few tracks, and doing all the Italian vocals.

Massive thanks to you, Nero. This album wouldn’t exist without you.

Oh — and Fiat Lux is now exclusively available on SoundCloud!
We’re dropping it as a little gift to our community, followers, and all the new listeners discovering NeON dEVIL for the first time.

Chants of the Hollow Sun

delate in the wasted pits of sorrow

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

https://on.soundcloud.com/qUpx1yH6fYpXyzuuwE


Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

its fun to forget
✷ 
NOTHING MUCH FOREVER 
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delate in the wasted pits of sorrow

someplace