with help from, @attc + @achorda
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lyrics:

@qlein

I cried in my dreams, i found a comfort in the sadness
I couldn't tell you why, I felt like this at all
It's hard to tell my friends that I wanted to end my life at all
What would they think of me, is this my life am I just meant to fall

@attc

You're so self centered
When my bodies breaking up it don't matter
And I know that it matters
And my bodies so whole that it captures-
My memories fading
So my stars are rephrasing
My words are always straining
To my heart and soul

@qlein

Every fucking year i feel i'm losing you
I needa get a grip cause i'm losing too 
Self centered boy this not a health center
I dont wanna talk I just wanna fucking feel better
Every fucking year I feel i'm losing you
Every fucking year I feel i'm losing you
Every fucking year I feel i'm losing you
I don't get to fucking choose
What I wanna fucking do
I cried in my dreams, I found a comfort in the sadness
I couldn't tell you why, I felt like this at all
It's hard to tell my friends that I wanted to end my life at all
What would they think of me, is this my life am i just meant to fall

comfort ft. attic (achorda + qlein)

hitemback w/ 1keysora

@2rel

you just hurt me cause you like too
imma be real i never liked you
we just put it in th past like it was nothing
but youd push me back when i was on too something
looked at your eyes i could tell that your no good
all of your lies i wouldve stoped it if i could
but its too late i couldnt run away in time
shouldve never stayed i think id rather stay online

look what you did to me i could right it down
put youve said so much whenever your around
cause its not the same i think id rather die
and it seemed ok, seemed alright, until i 
looked at your eyes i could tell that your no good
all of your lies i wouldve stopped it if i could
but its too late i couldnt run away in time
shouldve never stayed i think id rather stay online
(x2)

nevrlikedu (*u_u) (rel)

Watch Another.

Lyrics:

I know you see these scars, girl, I did it all for her (Effystonem reference - https://soundcloud.com/glosuka/effystonem)
I’m looking at the stars as I question my self-worth
Like, am I really worth? Where did I take a turn?
I’m going for the worst; I just wish I could change it all

Cause if I could, I’d break the fall
So if we try, we try, we’ll make it out
I promise you cause all in all, 
I need you to know that you’re enough

Let’s just be honest, look at where we’re at now
Born to be free but forced to be locked down
Wanna make a change but you’re standing in the background
I can see it clear, your depression in a compound

I just wanna try it, try it, try it
You just can’t deny it, ’ny it, ’ny it
I know you won’t like it, like it, like it

Just tell me where you were when I needed you the most :( 

I did like everything I could just to pursue you
I guess it wasn’t enough; I couldn’t do two, ohh
I can’t pull it together like I used to
Maybe it’s a sign that I need you

Break The Fall (overr)

fuckkkkkk

prod lyn adrien

see my eyes I'm still crying I still love you I cant lie
I be trying way too much that I get tired all the time
I can't even trusted you cause it's all was just a lie
prescription drugs the only thing thats always keeping me alive
I got people telling me that words are sharper than a knife
maybe that's the fucking reason to why I'm bleeding all the time
I just need someone to help but I got no one on my side
I'm sorry that it's all my fault I still try to make it right

for you
am I being use?
girl I wish I knew 
break myself in two
I need to focus on myself
before I try to end it all
my heart so high up on the shelf
slowly ruining my own health

sharper than a knife

I'm back.

This is about my wife

prod me

Lyrics:

breakup its been a minute im not dead
i been steady working for my famliy getting bread
baby on the way im living life like no pretend
i wouldnt change a thing If i could do it all again

No matter what we do, you are my best friend
they aint got a clue they just condescend
Loving you forever is my only intent
We just doing us baby in the end

They all talk about, how we do it better
U plus I, is my favorite letters
Do or Die, under any pressure
Read my mind like a fortune teller

I dont know whats in store for me
putting on my fit w my jesus piece
sometimes i get nervous but i pray for peace
looking up to heaven knowing God got me

Thinking of my life with no cause at all
Searching for the answers in a crystal ball
I cant take the credit no I’m not the cause
growing up from kids now were grown adults

talk big just a voice up on the internet
if you make a bet then back it up or ima double that
if you make a sound put the body up in bubble wrap
i cant hear your voice unless youre talking where the numbers at

this a real hard hitter
i cant stop it now if i plan on being a winner
pushing through the pain with promises i must deliver
pick my baby up we going out so ima spin her
spending time and drinking liquer

what we cooking up for dinner
Baby just a day with you is all i can remember
This is just the start of this im still just a beginner
through the thick and though the thin but the thick is getting thinner

No matter what we do, you are my best friend
they aint got a clue they just condescend
Loving you forever is my only intent
We just doing us baby in the end

They all talk about, how we do it better
U plus I, is my favorite letters
Do or Die, under any pressure
Read my mind like a fortune teller

I dont know whats in store for me
putting on my fit w my jesus piece
sometimes i get nervous but i pray for peace
looking up to heaven knowing God got me

Thinking of my life with no cause at all
Searching for the answers in a crystal ball
I cant take the credit no I’m not the cause
growing up from kids now we’re grown adults

u + i

p. @1akura @tores @dontlikerevi

@hartfxlt
before I leave this world can I hold you one more time 
before I leave you girl can we spend like one more night?
its so fucking futile y do I even try 
you say you love me but you couldn't say goodbye 
cutting ties it aches, should've never caught your name
so, crop me out of frame ooh go our seperate ways
hate how it all turned out, gotta grin while it all burns down
don't wanna be alone by myself, but there's no point calling your cell

@1akura
i miss your love miss your touch yea
i cannot do this all alone no
i wish that we can be together
goodbye 4everr

i dont know how we fell so far apart
remember we were close now you're too far:(
looking at the sky yea i see the stars
in another live w could restart!!

just talk to me this time
i cant leave with no sign
i need you the most
i i i got too close

(before i leave again can i hold u 1more time)
(can i hold u 1more time)
(before u leave again can we spend like one more night, ohhh)

the silence is drowning me inside

@hartfxlt
in the quiet, pretend your right here when i close my eyes

before I leave this world can I hold you one more time 
before I leave you girl can we spend like one more night?
its so fucking futile y do I even try 
you say you love me but you couldn't say goodbye 
cutting ties it aches, should've never caught your name
so, crop me out of frame ooh go our seperate ways
hate how it all turned out, gotta grin while it all burns down
don't wanna be alone by myself, but there's no point calling your cell

hartfxlt + akura - foreternity (akura, tores, revi)

prod r4ichu @1r4ichu

finally released .. 

verses in order:
r4ichu @1r4ichu
distance @distrancee
sene @1sene
larry01 @1larry01
maey @donttrustmaey
dojin @dojinletters
vyexx @vyexx
oxyg3n @o3v

infection cypher (r4ichu)

vertigo cover
original:
https://soundcloud.com/shoiyi/coldspades-ft-may-vertigo-meta-shoiyi#

if i called your phone, would you pick it up?
every night i’m scared that i’ll mess it up
i’m so high off you, you’re my only drug
don’t know how to say you’re the one
and i can’t let you go
so can you hold me close?
this love i wanna show
my head spin, vertigo
don’t wanna be alone
i want you, say ditto

tell what you want girl you know u deserve it
i can be the one i won’t do a disservice
don’t throw me away like i know u would
think i feel for u
soon as u set foot
every touch is a high
it’s js you and i
baby we can take flight
if i could
take you to the stars

coldspades ft. may - vertigo (wenszy cover)

produced by me and @cr1siss + @rxtrx
much love to them 
inspo from @trustt
https://open.spotify.com/track/4xPVcsNXNRyC6pN3xoCtty?si=cf5c44bf62fb4c88

trynna call my phone i wont pick up
all those words you said still get mixed up
im still lookin for my fix yuh
they were never real
like damn that shit sucks

i, dont wanna cry if you'll see it 
say, that you miss me you dont mean it
fall, is my favorite time of season
now, now i hate it and ur the reason

-

and the days been gettin colder
i said im tired and i told her
i need some help i need some closure
it'll never be the same since october
october october
since october
getting colder
i said im tired and i told her

-

i dont know what i want
but im missing something
what did i do wrong?
but cant i feel nothing
(x2)

sharper than a knife

somerest