Blastoid (Loop) 140

GUILTY
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I usually write or comment something on my songs.

When I published this melody I did not. I sit and I felt like the title...guilty, and I didn't feel like doing it.

About two months ago I had an accident with my car. Yes, the one I use as a work tool and to make my music. The car is not important, it is people's lives.

I've been hundreds of thousands of kilometers and it had never happened to me. The sunlight dazzled me, or maybe my polarized glasses...I don't know...but I could only see the car at the last moment.

Fortunately there were no personal injuries, but I was the cause of the accident, albeit unintentionally. I thought about the people who were traveling in the other vehicle and the person who accompanied me. I still feel that although I no longer hear the noise of the blow that followed me for weeks and disturbed my scant sleep or see my airbag burns

I am not writing this for myself, I am doing it to ask you to be as careful as possible when driving a car. It doesn't matter to be late, it matters to arrive. Rest and stop if you need to. If you don't, you may regret it for the rest of your life.

13 tracks native Music Studio 2 instruments.

4 Xpad tracks.

5 tracks Arturia imini.

My best wishes to you.

Paco.

Guilty

So much of humanity is lost to drug addiction. Most who come in contact with it turn their faces away. It's ugly. Why don't these people quit? Don't they want to? But if it was that easy don't you think they would? Don't you think they know they are dying? Withdraw is harder than dying. Some drugs you can quit, but do you think the craving just goes away? Once an addict,  always an addict.  We have to try to find better things to get addicted to that are good for us. 

There is a new drug in town and it's horrible.  People are getting addicted not knowing it is being mixed into what they are already using.  It's called TRANQ. There is no such thing as heroin anymore. You can no longer buy it on the street. Heroin you can detox from and you have a chance of staying sober.  But the addiction is still there. Then Fentanyl was mixed in.  It was cheaper to make and there was more profit to be made for the dealers. It is 50-100x stronger than heroin but you went into withdraw faster and had to inject more often. The craving was more intense. Many tens of thousands of people OD'd. Do you think they deserved it? It was their own fault because they are the ones who tried drugs in the first place? Maybe you tried cigarettes or alcohol? Do you still drink or smoke - ever? Can't quit? People drink to get a buzz. It's the same,  looking for an altered state of reality. 

The lucky ones who OD'd when it was only opiates were saved with Narcan and it pulled them out. But many people can't make it through detox. There aren't enough resources or rehabs. Then Tranq was added - a horse tranquilizer. The addicts didn't know. It isn't an opiate.  Narcan won't help them. The addiction is brutal.

In areas of cities across America, blocks are covered with people who are lying on the sidewalks or standing bent over at the waist. They have decaying sores all over their bodies. They wake up in horrendous withdraw. OD's have been doubling every year from the previous year. This year will be much ppworse.  These people are still human beings with family who love them. Not enough is being done. There is no media attention, while Tranq is reaching across America looking for its next victim. 

I have not heard one word by ANY politician openly addressing what is happening. They would rather harp on illegal immigrants bringing drugs across the border,  but immigrants are not doing THIS. The problem is much bigger than the border.  Is there no help, or does everyone think these people deserve it? Did you know many are only in their teens and come from good families in average rural towns?

I wrote this music for them.  My heart hurts. No matter what part of society you live in,  rich,  poor, middle class, educated with degrees, business owners,  teachers or even someone given pain meds for surgery but the pain didn't go away. No one is safe.  Put the word "tranq" into YouTube and watch. . . then find a way to help. Please.

Shadows Of Humanity

Forest Road

When I sat at my piano today - or rather leaned on a stool because my piano is at standing level - to warm up my fingers because at 69 every part of you has to be warmed up if you want it to work, I hit the record button.  This music is what I played.  This entire piece of music including the other tracks was recorded in less than 20 minutes.  I laid the piano track, then the flute and strings.  Nothing was mixed or changed.  I uploaded it exactly as it was played.  

My husband, after all these years, rarely has anything to say about my music although he plays on the couch to take a nap and listens for hours. It
It is not unusual for me to play or work on a piece of music for 3-5 hours. Today he walked into the room and said he really liked what I just played and that it sounded like music at the end of a melancholic movie. 

Being able to improvisations music and tell a story about what you are feeling is such a wonderful thing.  I usually have a purpose for why I'm creating a piece, but today I had no reason.  No story to tell.  What came out has a reason of its own.  All I could was just listen.  There are a few mistakes, as usually, but that shows you it was spontaneous.  So I decided to upload it. 

This past month I've been working on piece of music that has taken longer - because I'm writing it and also hand drawing the score.  It is one thing to be able to play the piano, but that doesn't mean you know enough theory to draw the score and not use a computer to do it for you. 

So I hope you like my warm up today.  I can't plan when to be creative.  It doesn't work like that.  I can only take advantage of it when it happens. 

For No Reason At All

Night Nettle

The track on YouTube and more streaming platforms
https://youtu.be/i8FpShFHZNw

Warm North Wind

Made in #Ableton

Genres;
#Electronic
#Pop

These Hard Days

mgnp

I wrote this song about Marsha and it is about the daily care of my Mother, and the song represents the daily time she cared for her. After  I took my dying Mother home from the hospital, Marsha volunteered for weeks to help  her, go to God , Bathing changing and giving her her loving. Marsha, you gave her a part of your life to help make her transition, a six week path to God and on the last day she fell asleep in front of us, knowing we were there for her to the end. This song is for you.

Marsha

dedicated to my sister Cindy (more to com)

During Sophie's last piano lesson I asked her to improvise a track on this piece. ( the mid range strings)  Then she started to improvise more.  I picked a key and told her to keep playing.  She did. She played beautiful music and she realized that she no longer needed music to play.  The light bulb turned on and she smiled.  People who only memorize music will forget it if they don't keep playing it.  When you can improvise in any key, you never forget that. You will always be able to play any time you sit at a piano and have no fear that you won't remember what you knew. it's important to know how to read music and the theory that goes with it,  but if that is all you can do, find a teacher who can teach you improv.  I'm very proud of her.  She has talent. 

Learning Forgiveness - Collab with Sophie

My music pieces are all piano improvisations expressing emotions. It is music telling stories without the words. In my earIy years I sang and played piano in piano bars or fronted bands of different styles, from country to heavy metal and to 40. I've been composing, teaching and performing most of my life.  I'm getting old(er) now 😔 but the great thing about creating music is it gets better the longer you play, and you have more to write about! 

This is what I leave of me to my generations to come who wonder where their desire to make music comes from. My mother, grandmother and great grandmother were both accomplished pianists when they were young. My son is also exceptional.  My great grandmother and gr grandfather sang and danced in minstrel shows (vaudeville) in the early 1900's. Kids today have no idea what life was like before moving pictures.  I now have great-grandchildren. They will know who I am through my music. When I am gone my music will still be here. What a wonderful thought! 

Shadows Of Humanity

Sonni Quick