I dont want to be desensitized to simple pleasures or… my senses. When swimming I remembered how I used to perceive myself as a water dragon. I used to think and feel as I live. The water in my scales.. That is to live. 
In 2019 music meant a lot to me, each song I didnt consume so rapidly as to fill a quota. Step one to thawing my epic brainfreeze is to celebrate myself and chicarrones and rainbows. To fear is to be human . But also loving. I will open my heart and finally tell people the truth… I am actually an epic water dragon… SOry I lied for this long….

This actually meant nothing to me when I wrote it and still means nothing to me and I'm mad I didn't journal anything more meaningful than an empty limerick about dragons & how I miss my youth. I actually should just be more mindful about living every day to the fullest and even though that's such an obvious and ironically meaningless platitude it just needs to be at the forefront of my mind at all times because everyone around me is precious and I must not take selfishness or shame or anxiety inhibit that periot. Shrug

Aug 23

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drums + bass done by @romedigi :) show him love


2001
theres nowhere 2 run
u finally won
yea u finally won



im just the second option
ill always be ill always be
wish i didnt have a face
so i couldnt breathe, so i couldnt see 


woke up in a pool of blood this morning
bouta fuckin leave  without warning
something about you my head keeps turning

2001

with https://soundcloud.com/808sndmindbreak

cover art by UFOSHOCK (https://twitter.com/ufoshock), unfinished art for my upcoming album 'hikikomori days' out at some point soon with kitty on fire records

thank you all so much for supporting me

Shoebill & dev - cute and wonderful

pendleton ward owes me big time

PRESAVE ON SPOTIFY https://www.gate.fm/ZmjGax
@0arid
the one they won't forget
inspired by dltzk

[hokoi]
it's been quite a while since i made a decision,
but i think theres reason for that.
all of the shit it just feels like a mission,
but its based on fiction not fact

i've said it before,
no i wont say it again,
dont wanna hear ur voice,
dont wanna be ur friend.

you aint got any more chances,
i cant even pretend,
you've done fucked it all up
this is the way that it ends

[arid]
im too afraid to reach out
but i know i can
i find it hard to leave now
its all out of hand
and i try it all again
and ill die when fall at the end
and the message im struggling to send
yeah im doing what i can

[hokoi]
its like they only exist on the screen,
i just dont understand why,
i can not find,
my mind and,
understand that they are there.

its because

they said that it would be fine
they said that it would be fine
they said that it would be fine
they said that it would be fine

it's been quite a while since i made a decision,
it's been quite a while since i made a decision,
i wasnt aware of what i have been missing,
i dont want no internet friends.

internet friends 💻 + arid (hokoi)

tender loli

too embarrass to title things anymore so i just do this > hfgjhsdfgh

like a kiss (demo)

Ayumix 2002 - cdr

reprod by me
flp: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1i40NP6f1SaUQJgnihJ2BywRRV6u5Fdar/view?usp=sharing
original music coming soon sometime i think

seventeen cover (+flp)

Se Bueno

Starfields

beings around manifest monstrous misanthropic forms

Chalmera [Zoom Wakuwaku Mix]

banging breaks since 2014+ 
061701
24
breaks from rural america

beings around manifest monstrous misanthropic forms

shimoda