Music 14

atmospheric/dreamy/transcendent/celestial alt rock

anxiety

anxiety (lileffort)

shittily mixed song that i made some time ago
https://open.spotify.com/track/0QQQrmRyDurcd57ZgCa4ks?si=72f352750c1f429e
You were everything I ever wanted 
Usually didn’t find that often
I call your name into the dark you’re gone
Now I’m gonna die of heartache
Meet me in hell meet me there

Hell

prod @winter

[mei]
i really dont want u to go...
id rather listen to your lies...

but does it matter
now u let me go
left memories up to shatter
u know that i struggle
my heart is fragile
because u hurt me
it turned me to shadow

i really dont want u to go!
(ill hold your heart 
while you hurt my soul) 
id rather listen to your lies!
(and stare at your eyes
while youre stabbing my back)

i really wanted to be yours
ive wanted to be close
even if youre the one 
that hurts the most
keep on trying my best
i only make it worse
nothing ever makes sense
i guess im gonna fall

ill be on my own
i gotta move on
i cant let it go

i carry burden 
deep inside my soul
i dont feel like
getting further
dont get me bothered
it doesnt matter
im so unhealthy
cant break the pattern

attached (winter)

Merry Christmas!☆ * ❄️💝
prod @y4ndere

and i swear my heart is getting colder
so im searching for the warm, dont get it frozen
but- why u were the one that made me hopeless
u were the closest one... im swear that im trying!!!
and- why i cannot be enough
always do my best i cannot make it right
i thought u were the one but u just broke the trust
deep inside my heart i think im too attached...

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

i really miss the older times 
when we were close to shining stars
and- it really piss me off i miss u uhh
so please dont gooo~
i really wish i knew whats next
we cry and lie its all a mess
where do i go? im losing sense
the wounds cant heal
will i ever understand this?

tears

tears (yandere)

prod @odel007
w/ @385u2

[mei]
you cant keep the promise
you said that u promise me
and i hope that ull keep our secrets
what are we hoping for?
for the better i guess
but its all a mess
so i could just run away
so you wont see me
i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!
u told me u would never change
turn that love to hate
and then i take the blame from u
and i couldve never love but u
it was the times that i never trust but u
and i did it all for u
but i knew i wasnt ever enough for u T-T

[utumiyqcom]
君と添い遂げることはなかった
これは終わり、エンドロール流れるの
君が呪いみたいな声で
耳元で囁く「弱いね」
この呪縛は覚めないままね
(so i could just run away
so you wont see me)
フラッシュバック記憶と戦うの
(i could fly to the outer space
to outer space!)
秘め事仕舞っておいていたのはあたしだけだったんだ
余命も短い関係も最初から無かったことにしよう
「例えば君が言う事
何もないって思うことにするよ」
「そうしたら未来も変れるかな」

promise

promise w/ utumiyqcom (odel)

satanic gospel (gl0)

its been a while... hope you all enjoy even though it's different from my usual style. i played the guitar parts myself so im extra proud of this one :)
guitar tuning is drop c

fabric

produced by me vocals by me
spotify  https://open.spotify.com/track/6XieGinq0XOXZYNUD0ZuKa?si=cfd8472c42e547b0

lyrics:
I know you so well
You’ve brought me to hell
So tell me how I’m too strung out on this love
Always running around
Why are we fighting it now, oh well
Do I just give in to you

Safe

prod @kggn

[mei]
i think i had enough i just been through much and now i realize
analyse clear my vision now i see ur stupid lies
in ur eyes i see it in ur eyes u cannot fool me twice
traumatized i think im traumatized u cannot heal me

blood & despair, lost in my head 
no im not the same, rot in my bed
do my best u dont seem to care
keep it all inside like every single day

it lost its taste just like a chewing gum
why i cant just spit it out?
ur words keep on hurting me like knife
going in and out
i trace my heart i keep it safe & sound

if im being honest its not what i wanted
spojrz na moje dlonie, cale sa czerwone
czemu nie gadamy o tym jak temu zapobiec?
moze chcemy pobiec, kazdy w swoja strone?

i can feel it through veins, paralyzed
cant scream through my pain
do or die noo this is not a game
ask me if im fine im not okay

i dont know what the cause is
"thats just how it is"
ill wait a 1000 days i promise
i want u to be honest with me
u dont want it, i see
i feel nauses, i bleed
down to my knees

vision (kuru)

yea i bought some clothes for you expensive fabric 
hide away from problems cannot kick the habit
pay me for my input i can make it happen
and i love smokin dope because it makes me happy 
i go skip today
i go skip today
i go skip today

if i made a promise then u know i kept it
im still on them pesticides im infected
give you what i have no time to perfect it
and i remember nothing guess im not collected
and im always off this gas because i stay protected
and they cant even speak to me like i dont get the message 
i was so low baby i was lesser
i dont like to brag but
i like to flexx

skip today (kir)

original : https://soundcloud.com/bladee1000/the-kingdom
weonlygotlikeonelifethenwedisappearyeah

bladee & thaiboy digital - emo jerk (melik flip)

youthful w/ chained2

you turn it into a solid object
and then right back into air
and say you swear it’s all i think about

is this
the only song you know by them
you made yourself out to be a fan

and tell me i’m not 
what i’m afraid of

<3 mixed by ezra kahn and me 
mastered by jack callahan

Keeping

Produced by me, vocals by me

Stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sorisu/relapse-2/ 


Lyrics:
I’m in a dreamworld where I was somewhere else
I woke up crying cause I thought I saw you die
I can’t be the one you want but I’ll try to be them in my second life
If you only knew what I would do if it meant I’d be with you
No, no self control, I’d sell my soul if it meant one day with you
If you only knew what I would do for you, you don’t have to ask
Addicted to you I overdosed, but there’s always one relapse

(Lately I’ve been…)
Thinking of us all day all the times we had
Overdose on thoughts of lying next to you
Why did we throw it away? Was it all just a waste
Left me with a question, does it really end this way?
Dreaming of us all day all the times we’ve had
Standing on the edge as our bridges collapse
But is it really too late? I know you feel the same
You’re the only answer, you’re the only one I trust
(Dreaming of you, thinking of us
Is it too soon, is it too late)

Relapse

Sorisu