Produced by Crizzy White
Vocals by Crizzy White, HeyLee Manzeron
Mixing by Crizzy White, HeyLee Manzeron
Mastered by Crizzy White
HeyLee Manzeron - https://soundcloud.com/heylee-manzeron

Crizzy White:
Damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't 
If I ever let go, tell me that you know 
I still want you 
And I still love you 
But lately it's been different
I can't even make you smile when I wished it
Tryna change your mind and get forgiveness
Calling me a child when I missed it

In my adolescence
Man, I always craved acceptance
Who knew I'd let you break me down just so I feel respected 
Time don't feel like it's progressing and I'm always stressing 
And when it builds resentment blame myself and my own wishes 
I never wished it so blue 
So why you feeling hurt too 
You scream and cry and hit a wall
But girl I still defend you

Oh time has been tainted 
And I feel like it's fading 
Just say that you hate it 
When I speak my placement 

Damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't 
If I ever let go, tell me that you know 
I still want you 
And I still love you 
But lately it's been different
I can't even make you smile when I wished it
Tryna change your mind and get forgiveness
Calling me a child when I missed it

HeyLee Manzeron:
Damn me to hell and I’m drowning in the abyss
I need my medication because your love is an illness
The tone of your voice cuts me open like a wrist slit
I told you from the start you fell in love with a misfit

Digging myself a grave again
I don’t wanna see your face again
I can not breath in the air
‘Cause all you do is spit out the dangerous pathogens
Another conversation, motherfucker, put me on my back
Kicked me in the ass again
We’re damned if we do, we’re damned if we don’t
Refer to our love in the past tense

Crizzy White: 
And it's useless to control you 
You never wanna listen to my issues
Try to talk it out but it's foolish
Should've known that I only play a nuisance

Damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't 
If I ever let go, tell me that you know 
I still want you 
And I still love you 
But lately it's been different
I can't even make you smile when I wished it
Tryna change your mind and get forgiveness
Calling me a child when I missed it

Damned w/ HeyLee Manzeron

prod. heyzbee & neverforever

i’m in a bed of roses
your sign is what i’ve chosen
i’m really decomposing
because my heart is filled with passion
stay numb that’s what everybody saying
i’m here trying to break out of these cages
my mind become complacent
but i’m done now i know where i’m staying

slow down
baby, i’m out
yeah i’m hurt now
god it’s too loud

they say i’m passionate a lot
not sure what to do when i am caught
because the fact is, i am not
i just sit here with my thoughts
yeah, i’m so scared of what you really think
it could be over in single blink
as i look back and then i do sink
cuz the choices that i made they haunt me
every little thing turns to torture
please don’t try to push me any further
you can say i’m horrible i do concur
treat me how i’m supposed to be like the dirt
kicking my feet i have a lot to learn
fading in and out my heart it burns
caught up in the passion i think i earned
that i am the worst i deserve the birds

drugged up
i’m stuck
my love
enough

passion isn’t something that you just look in the face
i keep on staring at your lips and i just want a taste
i know there’s something wrong with me i know it’s in my brain
i really think i like you, but i’m not sure what to say

passion

prod. heyzbee & luffy

heyzbee:

look around everything’s not quite right
the sun is out but it doesn’t seem to be bright
the skin on people that i see looks too tight 
and then i look into their eyes and they’re all white 

scream into my face saying welcome to the valley 
people that are around you seem to be uncanny
you’re staying here forever i hope you miss your family
cuz you will never see them again there is no saving

devin’s world:

aint no savin 
so i gotta stay in 
hide from all the monsters all the demons plaguing 

how’d i end up in a world 
where i am paralyzed 
 torn flesh from their hands 
and glowing eggshell eyes 

woah woah im screaming 
hard to believe in 
it feels so real 
that it’s coursing through my being 

lost in a realm 
of sadness and fear 
safe to say don’t wanna be here 
safe to say i wanna leave here

maniac or panic attack i don’t know which is real 
holding onto my battle axe cus i know i can’t be healed 
yeah one touch of evil can break the seal and suddenly i’m dead
but maybe this ain’t real and it’s all up in my head 

ohhhh 

change my life around 
ain’t no safe and sound no more 
i’m too far gone it’s wild 
save me from my darkest my darkest shroud

heyzbee:

scream into my face saying welcome to the valley 
people that are around you seem to be uncanny
you’re staying here forever i hope you miss your family
cuz you will never see them again there is no saving

what a warm welcome 
pale white limbs turn into my outcome
things i’ve seen can never be forgot
my eyes have hollowed out i’ve turned to something i’m not, something im not

eden!sempty:

your memories sincere 
but i'm glad that you're not here 

misfit x2
i don't feel shit 
if you miss it fix it 
blood when i hit my limit 
you won't heal the pain up in my lungs (lungs,lungs)
lay the coin on my eyelids when i'm done
done (repeats)

i'm headed beyond the valley to the river of styxx
i don't want to do this 
it's not my instinct 
i can walk you thru this but never again
i don't wanna play pretend

valley of uncanny (feat. devin's world & eden!sempty)

prod. heyzbee & onidtnom

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest 

honestly, i’m struggling, but i don’t think that’s fair to say 
god i feel so selfish every time i write and the say way 
i’ve been feeling recently, i don’t wanna stay the same
this a cry for help but no one cares, i do this day by day
are you listening to me, every word can you repeat?
god it feels like you’re a liar when you say you’re caring please
it’s all upsetting to me, everything you say is cheap 
you just wanna make me feel better but that’s not what i need 

AVXiD:
i been getting worse
everyday i turn
bb can we take it back a little
back to what we were
let my body purge 
let my systems burn
enter in my heart and sew it up cuz it had start to hurt

split my brain into pieces
u know that i need 
im sick of being
who im not 
somehow seeing
somehow breathing
barely bleeding
let it rot

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down (feat. AVXiD)

Vails x Liru. X the sound clown

Lyrics:

I just dropped a pill in my
Cup
Now I’m faded
Staring at the walls
Bitch I wonder what it’s laced with 
Tell a couple bros I’m sorry
Don’t think we gone make it
tryna make it big
But ambitions always faded 

I’m just tryna  do better 
And I put that on my mum
She said son I’d rather u trying 
Than put in streets with loaded guns 
U might think im playing
Like this game is fuckin fun
But im out struggling with demons
S.O.S im crying out

I just put the pill in my cup and now im faded
fight against my demons I dont know if im gon make it
she said she dont love me I dont care im getting famous
dont fuck with my gang it can easily get dangerous

take it way back to the start 
I was done, had no hope, had to pray I make it out
spent 100 on my shoes now im dripping in designers
does she really want me or is she fucking for these diamonds

Im still independent I stay true with all my shit my homie gon make a million thats way more than you made last year
I did wrongs with my decisions had to grind to make a difference I understand im the greatest I just had to make it happen 

I just dropped a pill in my
Cup
Now I’m faded
Staring at the walls
Bitch I wonder what it’s laced with 
Tell a couple bros I’m sorry
Don’t think we gone make it
tryna make it big
But ambitions always faded 

I’m just tryna  do better 
And I put that on my mum
She said son I’d rather u trying 
Than put in streets with loaded guns 
U might think im playing
Like this game is fuckin fun
But im out struggling with demons
S.O.S im crying out

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Save our souls w/ Liru. (prod. the sound clown)

Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 

So persuade me till I’m nauseous 
You don’t wanna be the one to cause this and 
I can be your crash test dummy 
Send me head first I’ll land on my feet 
Evidently burning slowly 
Tired of the pavement show me concrete 
I won’t falter on my own conviction 
Vindicated I don’t feel the sickness 
Listen up when you’ve really gone the distance 
Go ahead you can write it down and list them 

Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Can I get one more minute before you go and mess it all up 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime 
Would you give one more vision seeing where did you fall from 
Would you do that for the meantime meantime

in the meantime (dead spyro)

turn to dust (prod. hopes)

Nightmares in spider silk
Always killing all my dreams
Can’t stand all of this ilk
That has made me feel so sick
Nightmares in spider silk
Always killing all my dreams
Can’t stand all of this ilk
That has made me feel so sick

In this room, nobody knew
Everybody is now here
In a room with many chairs
Friends and family all around
“I’m sorry for your loss”, he said
The pain inside of many eyes
Somebody pinch me, I must be dreaming
I’m begging you, this can’t be real!

Nightmares in spider silk
Always killing all my dreams
Can’t stand all of this ilk
That has made me feel so sick
Nightmares in spider silk
Always killing all my dreams
Can’t stand all of this ilk
That has made me feel so sick

nightmares in spider silk [+ dercept]

lyrics:

vails:
i feel stupid baby that i lost you
on my own now, nobody to talk to
but do you care at all? i havent even had a call
its a shame because i think there was something hidden in the walls
a message with you on the other side
but i bury my face against my pillow every night
so was it a dream? or can i intervene? 
cause theres nothing more i need 
than you in front of me

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

he4vy:
oh oh, do you care at all?
i dont think you do
i only hope im wrong

get me out i just cant compress all my thoughts
of giving every chance ? recreate what was lost
im cutting all of my friends and family off
the simple structure of a broken man inside of my coffin

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

rip. 3.7:
ive been in my head for a minute now
ive been lost i cant find a way out
life aint fair, at all, at all

yeah i wonder if you ever, ever fucking cared
baby ive been in my head, im scared
i was standing here, but im really not there
yeah, i wasnt prepared at all

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

do you care at all? (feat. Vails x Rip.3.7 x He4vy)

Just let my me life on my own
Ciroc n drugs is what I fucking chose 
drink it up
Drink it up
look at my face bitch
Do u I think I give a fuck
No I won’t smoke a blunt
I’m just railing out the coke  so much I coughing up my fuckin lungs 
Thought I couldn’t cope
But this lifestyle fuckin dope
So let me drown myself in mud
Till I don’t wake up
Till I don’t wake up 
Till I don’t wake up

dont wake me up

(song written by Devin's world and performed by Scorpio)

Lyrics:
Verse:
Walked out the door this morning 
Don’t know where you’re going 
I wish I could come with you 
But you don’t know it 

It’s hard when I just sit here 
Alone in your bed 
Just get up try to follow 
That’s what my mind said 

I just want to come along with you 
I just want to adventure 
I just want to support you 
And to be in the picture

Prechorus:
You got me baby 
Way more than you know 
Just get home safely no I can’t let you go 
Please don’t walk out on me 
Don’t walk out on me please 
Can you just stay with me

Hook:
You’ve gone MIA where have you been all day
You’ve gone MIA I just want you to stay 
I don’t know where you’re going 
I don’t know where you’ve been 
All I know is, all I know is please stop going MIA 

Verse:

Oh baby my mind is going crazy you got it running round 
Oh baby my mind is going nuts you got it upside down 
My parents visit us and you are nowhere to be found 
Don’t know what to say to them so I sit them on the couch 
Say hey mama where you think that she is she says son I don’t know 
you keep fuckin with my head and I am losing hope

Pre chorus:
You got me baby 
Way more than you know 
Just get home safely no I can’t let you go 
Please don’t walk out on me 
Don’t walk out on me please 
Can you just stay with me

Hook:
You’ve gone MIA where have you been all day
You’ve gone MIA I just want you to stay 
I don’t know where you’re going 
I don’t know where you’ve been 
All I know is, all I know is please stop going MIA 

@timeless-archive veteran
founder of @ghxstcollective (oh hiatus)

Soulfade welcomes you through a music journey never witnessed before. Formerly known as Kid Skully from 2018 to 2020, he has the styles that are inspired by Emo & rock artists as well as some Emo rappers that inspired him more in a musical level. There are hinges of rock, hyperpop, jersey club, dance, indie, & shoegaze sounds are developed here in one sitting.

nightmares in spider silk [+ dercept]

Soulfade (@soulfadexo)

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