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how i’m supposed to do for someone else 
when i can’t even do this for myself
i done built a wall around myself 
i done been to hell and back myself
and i done put my dreams on the shelf right
i learned with grief ain’t no shelf life 
they say adapt or you’ll perish 
it was your depth that i cherished 
overthink myself into oblivion
i got love for each and every palestinian 
catalog of pain got me feeling distant
same people from my past looking at me different
same people put me last in they future visions
empty stomach heavy heart god know i’m grieving 
a couple seasons passed the pain has only deepened
i try to give it time let it work itself out 
meditate on good things never dwell in self doubt but 
sometimes i need to shut down
crippled in this bed, head in the clouds
if i could pay the pain away i’d pay an ungodly amount but
i can’t keep counting
the pain keep mounting

plagued by thoughts, your body in a box 
wish i could turn back the hands on the clocks
watered our crops until we made it off the block
looking back laughing as if we broke the locks 
still healing from the things that i don’t talk about
i wonder what’s the last thing that you thought about
was it the loneliest place in the universe? 
were you ready for the next phase in your traverse?
since then i think of you in every single verse 
since then i day dream about when we’d converse 
you were evergreen i will forever grieve
ill try to relish in the moments that i find relief
crying in the car trying to calm my nerves 
bargaining with god tryna come to terms
i know it’s all above me i’ll just let it burn 
gotta meditate on learning less on my concerns 
yearning for the memories we never made 
got some secrets and i’m gonna take them to my grave 
it was an honor and a privilege that’ll never fade 
i know you send me glimmers i see them every day 
staring at the ceiling, stars overhead 
in my feelings you appearing anchored in my head
straight from the heart it’s what we always said 
i will find you again we share a common thread

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Jason's Album

Ironed weight

Falling in love reminiscing over us

Subway youth

Baby Keem - Bullies [Slowed + Reverb]

On the nature of salvation

urges (alternate)

Urges

Lyrics:

out here you gotta watch how you move
out here you know they plottin on you
out here nobody following a rule
out here everybody wanna act cool

out here
i learned snakes move at double time
head on a swivel from the start to the finish line
food on my plate niggas working hard to finish mine
if i sleep on em prolly put me in some linened pine
i want peace
none of us dying in the streets 
less beef wish that we’d speak stop picking up the heat

everyday above ground is profound to us
stop pointing it at my crown with intent to bust
i was looking out the window on that detroit bus
just wishing that i had the bread to uplift us
trust me when i say this i was gettin faded 
every single day on the block tryna escape it
people lookin down on me like i wasn’t the greatest 
please i’m too solid for these niggas that be aimless 
i got a fucking brain and i use it so i’m dangerous 
police be on the look out they just trying to detain us 
judge wanna arraign us
ICE asking for papers 
we all chasing a paycheck doin some kinda labor out here

out here you gotta watch how you move
out here you know they plottin on you
out here nobody following a rule
out here everybody wanna act cool

out here
every scar is a victory
outliving the misery inherited from history 
darkness crowding the daylight 
but you know that i stay bright 
writing for my life like a playwright 
waiting on y´all time to come, that’s a construct 
my standards higher got a different code of conduct
black ice on the mirror think the law coming
first instincts telling me to start running
i hope the lord coming to this run in i ain’t fronting
need a savior from the 1-2
trying to catch me with them counts like 1-2

and everybody's always talkin that shit 
leaving rude comments when i post up my shit 
and everybody's always on some bullshit 
but i'm hot like top ramen when i part my lips and i spit 
out here...

Santa Carla (Alternate)

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