It's too past my head to help you, I can't even help myself

Lyrics:

[NYX]
Nothing ever lasts forever
Why shouldnt I just let this go
Ill know that  ill never get better
Relearn just to reap more
Hypocrisy when I mourn 
Its always through the words of scorn
Its torn, its burned a hole inside
I dont know why I ever tried

When is it ill get this right
Taking tests when I text and type
I never know what to say 
it never comes out right
Rewind my mistakes
but theyre written in spite
And actions made in anger always bleed
Deeper the bite
Hands that feed 
Affection to me, 
I yearn to be kind
But i always expect the worst then return and cry
Im burning in the freezing cold
Left outside
Right when im wrong
Morality of a dog
 brain filled with fog
You should just hurt me
Prove it right
Theese assumptions keep me alive
And id be lying to say I dont wanna die
A dull adult and a dumb child
Peel the scab, set me on fire
Clocked in forever ill never retire
From the job of being the most mediocre waste of time
Scream how happy I am when we both know that im just lying

Nothing ever lasts forever
Why shouldnt I just let this go
Ill know that  ill never get better
Relearn just to reap more
Hypocrisy when I mourn 
Its always through the words of scorn
Its torn, its burned a hole inside
I dont know why I ever tried

[DALAI.ROTTEN]
Im neck deep in this torture and absurdity
Should I choose my self above these uncertainties?
Encompassing and encircling the possibility
I might have lost my mind and no longer see eye to eye
What lies on the otherside
Is it one big lie?
Ive always been turned, told , moulded to fit
And match, perfectly click 
with every single bit 
you steal from my soul to endlessly fill that hole
But I can never be what you need of me
Its all so clear, become plain to see
That I can be free from the insecurities
 that veer my words
Steal my nerves and swerve me down a deep dark enveloping
Dread up until im  past my head
Its past my head

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