The strawberry meadow where you promised we'd live
Is way past its season with nothing to give
I remember when we couldn't keep away
The night was a visit I couldn't overstay
Why's it strange when the curtains are drawn?
You don't want to touch me 'till it's morning and I'm gone
I leave the light on, but you never come home
So I sleep in the meadow alone

Goodnight, Dandelion
Can't wait to wish you away
I'm only doing what I'm supposed to do
But it's not enough to make you stay

You don't need to tell me, I already know
I fall in love quickly and fall out too slow
I caught all the sickness that you ever parted with
Leaving me to relive
All the days between the hours with love on your breath
And the reasons you gave me 'till you had none left
I leave the light on just to lie awake
And give all the love you won't take

Goodnight, Dandelion
Can't wait to wish you away
I'm only doing what I'm supposed to do
But it's not enough to make you stay

Credits:
Written, Produced, and Performed by Emma Newton
Engineered by Emma Newton and Patrick Dreier
Mixed and Mastered by Emma Newton

October 20, 2021 / All rights reserved

Goodnight Dandelion

Shouldn't I be a foxglove?
Shouldn't I be a daisy?
Shouldn't I thrive in the light of your love instead of being so lazy?
Wasn't I meant to bathe in the sunshine?
Photosynthesize pressed against your skin
Instead of being broken
Why did he break me?
Why can't you fix it?

Cause now I'm out of touch
My body never good enough
I can't feel anything when I'm with you
No matter how much I'm longing to
I'm still not blooming
I'm still not blooming
Just let me grieve for all the petals I am losing

But he told me I was made for this
High heels in the kitchen, and I wanted this
He was generous to me, paid me attention
While he grabbed me tight
So I guess I just let him

Now I'm out of touch
My body never good enough
I can't feel anything when I'm with you
No matter how much I'm longing to
I'm still not blooming
I'm still not blooming
Just let me grieve for all the petals I am losing

I can't feel anymore
But I can pretend until you're done with me
And you're the most beautiful soul in the world
What the hell is going on with me?

I'm out of touch
My body never good enough
I can't feel anything when I'm with you
No matter how much I'm longing to
I'm still not blooming
I'm still not blooming
Just let me grieve for all the petals I am losing


CREDITS
from The Mild West, released January 31, 2022
Written, produced, performed, engineered, mixed, and mastered by Emma Newton

I'm Still Not Blooming

You stay at home while I'm in the cosmos, looking down at the earth
That I thought I wouldn't miss, but the starlight doesn't kiss like you
Crossing wires and making explosions, my neurons howling at the notion
That way up here, I'm out of the crossfire of two planets colliding
Won't you say that you'll be with me always
Portal to space and lay down in the hallways

Looking down at the earth, and it's blurry
You're running faster than I can; don't you hurry
Cause I've been wasting my time looking for a love less true
Looking down at everyone, but I'm only seeing you

Now I'm watching you in slow motion, making rings around
As I go around the bend to make amends 'til I'm finally homebound
Couldn't be just anyone who shines a lovelight on me
You're oceans and green, and that's all that I need
Won't you say I can follow your orbit
Fall into place 'til the stars are all sorted

Looking down at the earth, and it's blurry
You're running faster than I can; don't you hurry
Cause I've been wasting my time looking for a love less true
Looking down at everyone, but I'm only seeing you


CREDITS
from The Mild West, released January 31, 2022
Written, produced, performed, engineered, mixed, and mastered by Emma Newton

Looking Down At The Earth

The strawberry meadow where you promised we'd live
Is way past its season with nothing to give
I remember when we couldn't keep away
The night was a visit I couldn't overstay
Why's it strange when the curtains are drawn?
You don't want to touch me 'til it's morning and I'm gone
I leave the light on, but you never come home
So I sleep in the meadow alone

Goodnight, Dandelion
Can't wait to wish you away
I'm only doing what I'm supposed to do
But it's not enough to make you stay

You don't need to tell me, I already know
I fall in love quickly and fall out too slow
I caught all the sickness that you ever parted with
Leaving me to relive
All the days between the hours with love on your breath
And the reasons you gave me 'til you had none left
I leave the light on just to lie awake
And give all the love you won't take

Goodnight, Dandelion
Can't wait to wish you away
I'm only doing what I'm supposed to do
But it's not enough to make you stay


CREDITS
from The Mild West, released January 31, 2022
Written, Produced, and Performed by Emma Newton
Engineered by Emma Newton and Encore Music Academy
Mixed and Mastered by Emma Newton

I found an olive tree, marled and growing in Boston
That I know you planted
Placed in my scope like a militant optimist
And I cannot stand it

I never wanted, never wanted
Your lips, bloodthirsty, I'd forgotten
Waste of the earth, your love is rotten
Didn't I throw you out?
I know you're not capable of leaving angry exes alone
Sour candy in my pocket, wrapper on the ground

You tore a branch from the olive tree and pointed at me
Thinking you're chivalrous
As if I were drowning and you were the lifeboat
That kept my heart in business

I always wanted, always wanted closure
You'd ask me out so I could f*ck you over
Mess you up 'til the moon comes up
You already thought I was crazy
Torch in my left and pitchfork in my right
I'll show you what a white flag is tonight
Until you're cursed and begging me for mercy
Think twice!

CREDITS
from The Mild West, released January 31, 2022
Written, produced, performed, engineered, mixed, and mastered by Emma Newton

Olivetree

I guess I got no foresight
The roselight only extends as far as the weekends
Only lasts 'til midnight
Not long enough for me to come see you
You're drifting, and I can't help but to let you

Are you even out there?
Are you even out there anymore?
I'm calling out in the silence
I don't know what for
Does it even matter 
If I never say another word
If you're not out there?
Do I wanna be heard?

Angel, has it come full circle?
Has it run its course?
You never seem to want to call me
But I'm longing to hear your voice
Maybe I let it go too long
Should've fought for your affection
But I doubt you were calling anyway
You didn't promise to think about me every day
Every day

Are you even out there?
Are you even out there anymore?
I'm calling out in the silence
I don't know what for
Does it even matter 
If I never say another word
If you're not out there?
Do I wanna be heard?

There's half a world between us
I can't come any closer
You know I've tried
Tried to pull you closer and hold my tears back
Please tell me it's worth your time

Are you even out there?
Are you even out there anymore?
I'm calling out in the silence
I don't know what for
Does it even matter 
If I never say another word
If you're not out there?
If you're not out there...

out there

~ YOUR LATEST GENDER DYSPHORIA ANTHEM ~
lyrics
I wake up like a siren, scaly from the sea
By the time it’s noon, I’m at the haberdashery
Late at night sometimes I feel my femininity
But I just wanna love myself the hours in between 
I’m in costume
As I walk through life
Wanting to shapeshift
Envying butterflies
The grass is all dried up on either side
And I’m a stranger in the mirror in my mind

I thought I wanted something, but it came in the wrong shape
My body’s like a mountain range I want to excavate
But if I raze the girl you know, you won’t love me the same
Cause you’ve got heart eyes for the things about me that I hate

I’m in costume
When we’re alone at night
I wanna please you
But there’s no compromise
There’s always something wrong on either side
A dissonance that plays back all the time

I wanna cut my hair, skip dinner till I’m skin and bones
Dress up like my punk rock boyfriend, sell my fancy clothes
But when I see a pretty girl I take it all right back
I wanna be somebody else, I can’t stand what I have!

I’m in costume
As I walk through life,
Wanting to shapeshift
And every day I try
The grass is all dried up on either side
I’m a stranger in the mirror in my mind
credits
released July 7, 2024
Written, produced, engineered, and mixed by Emma Newton at Big Nice Studio
Harp, keys, bass, vocals by Emma Newton
Drums by Jae Carrascal
Guitar and mastering by Bradford Krieger

haberdashery

I’m friends with the things I’m collecting on my shelves
I hang out with the moss or in my room all by myself
Why did I hit the town for a twenty dollar joke?
They were out of Angostura so they gave me rum and coke!!

I’m wasting my social batteries on people who don’t know a thing about me
Charismatic sexist men and a girl who wants ears but not a friend 
I prefer my 16 kilohertz, my headphones and my keys
I wanna go home and get introvert drunk on herbal tea 

It’s not any better at the crowded house parties 
Hearing Johnny making dirty jokes while I eat charcuterie  
I don’t wanna flirt, no I don’t wanna be your third
I am tipsy with the butter knife, don’t say another word

I’m wasting my social batteries on people who don’t know a thing about me
Superficial compliments, they’re making me the audience
I wanted some connection but you’re suffocating me 
I guess that I’ll go home and get introvert drunk on herbal tea 

Sorry to cut you off
Just look at the clock
I’m already gone
Sorry to cut you off
Just look at the clock
I’m already gone

CREDITS
🖤 Written, produced, engineered, mixed by Emma Newton
🧡 Recorded at Big Nice Studio, Lincoln, RI
💛 Harp, vocals, and programming by Emma Newton
💚 Hand percussion by Jae Carrascal
💙 Mastered by Bradford Krieger
💜 Art by Tori Gibbs (photo) and The Halliday Twins (text)

introvert bossa

I am the nutritious kabocha squash that grew out of your compost heap
May my herbal harp infusions put you right the hell to sleep

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