[Verse 1]
Lights low, crowd loud
I’m chillin’ just blendin’ in the background
Then you walked through, whole place slowed down
Everything froze when you came ‘round

Tried to play it cool, tried to look away
But every part of me said stay
Something in the way you move
Girl, you don’t even have to say

[Pre-Chorus]
Every step, every dance  girl, you own it
Like the room knew you before the moment
Got me thinkin' this is more than chance
This is fate in a dress, in a dance

[Chorus]
Ooh girl, this feel like scene one (yeah)
First frame of the love I been missin’
One shot and you got my attention
One look got me lost, no direction
Feels like you just pressed play
And my world just changed
Oh, you the start of somethin’
Girl, you the start of somethin’

[Verse 2]
Heartbeat skippin' like a record scratch
Can’t fake what I feel when I see you pass
I ain’t in your world, not yet
But I’m tryna write the script to connect

You ain’t even speak, and you said enough
Every curve, every move just shut me up
Now I’m standin' here like “Please say somethin’”
But you already told me everything, no frontin’

[Pre-Chorus]
You got class, you got calm, you got chaos
All wrapped up like a perfect day does
Never thought I’d feel this way
But here you are, no delay

[Chorus]
Ooh girl, this feel like scene one
First frame of the love I been missin’
One shot and you got my attention
One look got me lost, no direction
Feels like you just pressed play
And my world just changed
Oh, you the start of somethin’
Girl, you the start of somethin’

[Bridge]
And I know this don’t happen every night
But you hit different, baby, no lie
You the part I never read in the lines
But now you here, and I see why


Scene one, take one
Girl, you shine like the sun
Ooh-oh, ooh-oh
You the spark, you the run
Of a story just begun

[Chorus – Outro]
Ooh girl, this feel like scene one
First frame of the love I been missin’
One shot and you got my attention
One look got me lost, no direction
Feels like you just pressed play
And my world just changed
Oh, you the start of somethin’
Girl, you the start of somethin’

Scene One

[Verse 1 ]
You used to be my peace at night
Now I wake up reachin’ for your side
You say we grew apart with time,
But you still log in just to watch my life
I ain’t cheated, I ain’t lied
I was solid I was ride or die
Now you out dressin’ pain in pride
But your eyes still beg me not to try
He hold you, but you pull away
You still think ‘bout me when y’all lay
You don’t want me, but won’t set me free
You want control  not love from me

 [Chorus]
I just don’t get it
why You let me go, but won’t let me forget it
Say it’s done, but you still in my space
Girl, if it’s over, why you won’t let me escape?

 [Verse 2]
How you hate me but still watch my stories?
Act like you healed, but you still record me
Every time I move, you pull me back
You hate the truth, but you love the past
I ain’t bitter, I’m confused as hell
You burned the bridge, then wished me well
Keep your new man out my name
You still hold guilt when y’all do your thing
You post that smile like nothin’ wrong
Then text “I miss you” right before dawn
I stayed down, you changed the rules
Now I feel like the fool who kept it true

 [Bridge]
Girl, if you don’t want me, then why you here?
If I ain’t the one, then why you near?
You let me drown, but won’t let me swim
You let me go, but don’t let me win

 [Final Chorus]
I just don’t get it (nah)
Why you let me go, but won’t let me forget it? (no)
Say you don’t want love, but you still in my business (still in it)
Call me when you lonely like I’m still your forgiveness (every time)
I just don’t get it
You let me go, but won’t let me forget it
Say it’s done, but you still in my space
Girl, if it’s over, why you won’t let me escape?

I Just Don’t Get It

Gave you time, gave you space
Held you down when you lost your way
Never judged, never changed
Played it cool when you act strange
Every fight, I take the fall
Even when I know it’s not my fault
You be out, I stay in
You get love, I don’t win

But I kept showin' up, even empty
Still gave you all when it drained me
You want me there when it’s good
But you gone when it’s heavy

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

You need space? I give that fast
I need time? You never ask
You make rules, I adapt
You break ‘em all and still get a pass
It’s always “you,” never “us”
Your mood swing and I adjust
I get quiet, you get loud
I hold peace, you hold crowd

I was down to ride, even solo
You just want the highs, not the low-low
I was yours, no Plan B
But you moved like you fancy

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

I loved you more than I loved me
And that’s where I lost peace
Now I’m done tryna compete
With your ego on repeat
Love don’t mean shit if it’s just mine
You only show up on your time
Don’t ask me why I’m gone cold
You made this bed  now it’s yours alone

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

One Way

[Verse 1]
You don’t speak loud  you move in waves
And I drown in you more every day
It ain’t love, it ain’t peace, it ain’t sane
But you wrap 'round my chest like Novocaine
I know this ain't pure, but it feels right
You poison my calm but you taste like light
You're the still in my storm, the sin in my sleep
And every high I chase, you cut me deep

And I don’t wanna need you
But I do
You don’t play fair
You just do what you do
Now I can't breathe right
Without your pull
Girl, I’m hooked on the quiet
That wrecks me full

[Chorus]
I’m addicted, yeah, deep in your hold
You soothe, but you burn right through my soul
You don’t beg, you don’t break, you just show
And I come runnin’ back like I don’t know
Yeah, I’m addicted  stuck in your smoke
I try to let go, but you already wrote
The part of me that craves your cold
You soothe, you kill  you own my soul

[Verse 2]
You wear calm like it’s stitched in skin
But underneath it, I see the spin
I told myself I’d just take one hit
But now I’m cracked wide, and I can't quit
You got timing like you studied my mind
Say just enough and then blur the line
You don’t touch me  you just let me fall
And somehow, girl, that’s worst of all

I told my pride I’d leave tonight
But here I am caught in your light
You don’t chase, but I still bend
Like your silence know where I end

[Chorus]
I’m addicted, yeah, deep in your hold
You soothe, but you burn right through my soul
You don’t beg, you don’t break, you just show
And I come runnin’ back like I don’t know
Yeah, I’m addicted  stuck in your smoke
I try to let go, but you already wrote
The part of me that craves your cold
You soothe, you kill  you own my soul

You're the calm that ruins me slow
You're the truth I never told
You're the hit that I replay
Even when it pulls me the wrong way

[Final Chorus]
I’m addicted, yeah, deep in your hold
Like a ghost that I begged to take control
No chains, no locks, no roles
But I still call you mine… though I know
Yeah, I’m addicted  and it shows
You cut deep, but damn, I glow
From all the scars you let unfold
You soothe, you kill  you stole my soul

Addicted

[Verse 1]
You asked me if I miss you  why now?
Like you ain’t been ghost for a whole damn mile.
You pop up with “Do you still think of me?”
Girl, I think of peace, and that ain’t your speed.
You send “Just checking in” like you check your wrongs,
Said I changed  yeah, healing does that when it’s been this long.
Now you in your feelings ‘cause I ain’t stuck,
Didn’t ask them things when we was us.

Now you dig like you wanna find gold in the ash,
Saying that fire wasn’t made to last.
You say “You look good, who you seeing these days?”
Why you care? You the one who walked away.

[Hook]
What’s with these questions you never asked then?
Now I’m movin’ on, you tryna tap in.
Actin’ like we just paused for a second,
Love don’t rewind when the trust been deadin’.
What’s with these late-night voice notes confessin’?
Sayin’ “I wish” like that change the setting.
You wanna know who I’ve been undressin’ 
Guess you forgot who taught me steppin’.

[Verse 2]
“Do you still got that pic from New Orleans?”
Yeah  it’s with the sorries and quiet warnings.
You left like a breeze through a half-closed door,
Now you knockin’ like your name still on the floor.
You ask “Was it real or were we just high?”
Well, we crashed, maybe both  I won’t lie.
I got questions too, they been laid to rest,
Like how love end up feelin’ like a test.

No bitterness here, I just realigned,
Took your silence as an answer over time.
Now you pressin’ like we in the same lane,
I found peace, and you bring rain.

[Hook]
What’s with these questions you never asked then?
Now I’m movin’ on, you tryna tap in.
Actin’ like we just paused for a second,
Love don’t rewind when the trust been deadin’.
What’s with these late-night voice notes confessin’?
Sayin’ “I wish” like that change the setting.
You wanna know who I’ve been undressin’ 
Guess you forgot who taught me steppin’.

You had all that time  never used it.
Now your voice in my phone feels like music I muted.
You got questions?
I had answers.
Now I’m gone 
and you still lookin’ for chances.

[Hook]
What’s with these questions you never asked then?
Now I’m movin’ on, you tryna tap in.
Actin’ like we just paused for a second,
Love don’t rewind when the trust been deadin’.
What’s with these late-night voice notes confessin’?
Sayin’ “I wish” like that change the setting.
You wanna know who I’ve been undressin’ 
Guess you forgot who taught me steppin’.

Steppin'

[Hook]
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me, ay 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight, the harder it feeds

[Verse 1]
Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning 
mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back
yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like 
and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls 
I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough but the minutes don’t stop they just double the cost 
and I’m lost in a loop with the guilt on repeat 
like no matter what I’ve done I got nothing to keep 
and I’m tired of the silence that they sell as peace 
it’s a leash in my throat and it won’t release me

[Bass drop]
(...)

[Hook]
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds

This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

[Verse 2]
Every breath like a debt every step like a bruise 
every scar in my chest like a bill I can’t choose 
and the truth is I’m breaking but they call it “you’re strong” 
like a badge for the suffering I been wearing too long 
and I’m sick of the script that they hand to the sick 
take the pill, take the blame, take the weight, make it quick 
but my bones don’t forget and my nerves don’t forgive 
and the curse in my blood says this how we live

[Bridge – spiral build]
Not dead but I’m not alive either (either either)
ghost in the mirror 
can’t fight what I inherit 
so I carry it nearer 
to the marrow to the name to the wound I repeat 
every step in her shadow like it’s glued to my feet 
(My feet, my feet, my feet)

[Bass drop]
(...)

[Final Hook – layered/screamed]  
Yeah,
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

Oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh
Oh oh oh oh

[Verse 3]  
Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning  
mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back
yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like  
and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls  
I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough...

[Hook]  
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight....

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds

The harder it feeds

Survival on Repeat

Mmmmm mmm
I am


I am the light (mmmm)
I am the love (mmmm)
I am the truth (mmmm)
I am (I am)

I am
(I am)

I am
(I am)

I am, i am the light, the light (I am)
I am, i am the love, the love (I am)
I am, i am the truth, the truth (I am)
I am, I am, I am 

(...)

I am, i am the light, the light (I am)
I am, i am the love, the love (I am)
I am, i am the truth, the truth (I am)
I am, I am, I am 

(...)

I am the light (I am)
I am the love (I am)
I am the truth (I am)
I am

I am

I am


I am the light
(I am)
I am the love
(I am)
I am the truth
(I am)
I am
(I am, I am, i am)

I am 

I am

I am.

I Am

[Intro – hushed, theatrical]
shhh… they said don’t let him near
they gave me porridge, laced with fear

[Hook]
i was the wolf they raised in chains
fed me scraps and whispered names
called me danger, locked the door
now i’m the hunger they prayed for

[Verse 1]
three little bears took me in, oh my
sat me down with bowls, said “try”
but every spoon shook in their hand
i learned to eat suspicion bland
they never sang me lullabies
only warnings in their eyes
i licked the bowl, they clenched their teeth
so i grew fangs beneath the grief

[Hook]
i was the wolf they raised in chains
fed me scraps and whispered names
called me danger, locked the door
now i’m the hunger they prayed for

[Verse 2]
i stitched a shawl, a bonnet too
grandmother’s dress would have to do
if they won’t love a beast like me
i’ll wear a mask of what they need
a trembling girl walks through the wood
her basket heavy, her heart still good
she meets my smile, a crooked grin
the story starts, the end begins

(...pause, cabaret piano flourish...)

[Bridge – spoken/snarled]
“what big eyes…”—i heard it first
from those who feared me at my birth
“what big teeth…”—you gave me these
when you denied me love and peace

[Final Hook]
i was the wolf you wrote in rhyme
a bedtime terror dressed in crime
but if you’d held me, warm and sure
i’d never howl outside your door 

The Wolf

I'm Not Done

(it’s fine, I’ll text them tomorrow…)  

I fade before I’m noticed  
then act surprised when no one calls  
keep my phone face-down on the carpet  
like it’s my fault  

they post about their weekends  
I scroll and say I’m proud  
then stare into the quiet  
I built too loud  

I’m bad at friendship, I know  
I leave before I let it show  
then wonder why they never call  
guess I taught them not to at all  

I save all our screenshots  
like proof that I was real  
type a message, never send it  
too small to heal  

I love them in my head  
where no one has to stay  
they can’t be disappointed  
if I slip away  

I promise, it’s not hate  
just habit made from ache  
I miss them, but I wait  
’til missing turns to late  

I’m bad at friendship, I know  
I freeze before I let it show  
then tell myself I’m better off  
when really I just can’t be close  

it’s been months since they’ve checked in  
can’t blame them for the trend  
I disappear a little  
and call it “me again”

Bad At Friendship

I'm an artist creating all kinds of music. it comes from my soul, my wrecked brain, my soft heart. Thank you for meeting me here. 🖤🌑 I hope you relate to something. if you wanna reach out: SpaceGhostBones@Gmail.com

Survival on Repeat

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