love you ryan<3 talk to you soon.
beat prod by: wisssery x nihil
written and performed by: popularreject

Ryan's song (p. wisssery x nihil)

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

Yeah I wanna go and travel
But every plan's just buried in the gravel
Wish I could tell everyone where I'm at tho
But if I did everyone would just go and tattle

And you know I'm not one to start drama
Don't want either memory to go and cause some trauma
Your girl feeling kinda freaky she gon pull up in pajamas
And every time I speak I freak out with too many commas

And I can't even reach a sentence
Cus nothing I can say to anyone is comprehensive
They just ghost me and act like that I never message
Been awake too long and you know I'm feeling restless

Everything I want to do is so verboten
And my head won't shut up it's causing all the commotion
And all the memories are pain maybe get some ibuprofen
Wish I could feel love again maybe boost some oxytocin

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Start great
Then it's heartbreak
Then I partake
In being prostrate
But I behave
And I know I'll be okay
I'm on an infinity train
But I'm waiting for fall break
So I can hear the wind and the rain
I can't sleep today

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Yeah It's all I know
Doing what I can only hope
Least my life has pericopes
Looking way too far with a periscope

And we barely spoke
Yet she wants to go call it an elope
Leave me alone (it's all I know)

verboten (tykun)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/poisonseed
I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust 
They try to get advice but i can't when i'm never in love
And i try to be what i can but be honest i dont wanna bluff

I just want someone that can't easily replace me
For someone else it's mental hell
But yet when i get what i want
It's too hard to tell what i fell into
I don't want no issues

I've been eating and sleeping lately too many times
Watching the clock tick away staying in my eyes
And I stay on the block cus it's crazy outside
But i just wish that someone would put me aside

I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust

distrust

distrust (trynacommunicate)

prod https://soundcloud.com/whymillyy & maestrowons

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage 

Pull up with a garage band performing on a macintosh
Been working on this shit for years you be staying slacking off
Tried to ship my energy to you but then the package lost
People around me wanna swish only if its basketball

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please


I need to live life with way less company
You ask to hang but they just wanna get buzzed with me
And i'm stuck living in a different fantasy 
Vacuum all these thoughts cus im my own manatee

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage

manatee (whymillyy + maestrowons)

News flash! you're all on the papers
Doesn't matter when all of em shredded by our own nature
And everyone's confused on what they should major in
Our brains have been shriveled and put into paper thin

Take your time and take your size! it's ticking
The longer we take the more that circle turns to inches
And then it goes to centimeters, millimeters, digits
Then we just confused on where to start from the beginning

Every time they boost our ego we're like damn I am winning
It's all fun and games until somebody catches you slipping
You think they real ones until our conscious starts to kick in
They only here once the home run on the team started to hit in

And within my own community I never feel I fit in
That's why switching genres often has always been my decision
It allows me to be creative, and stay with my own commitment
Don't let anybody tell you can't do it without equipment like

You can always do something long as you got a vision
It just takes a lot of trial error lot of repetition
And I used to be nothing now look at my position
My journey of my life, I can call it expedition

You can always do something long as you got a vision
It just takes a lot of trial error lot of repetition
And I used to be nothing now look at my position
This my journey of my life, I can call it expedition

Got a backpack and it's full of notes
Not from books, just from hooks for future recordings
USA yeah I'm always saying good morning
Risking everything like every sign has a warning
Question, Would you ever do the same if there's a reward?
Or would you give up on it quickly cause you're getting too bored?
I've been in both mindsets, yeah it feels like a hoard
But I'd rather move it forward, so I keep going toward this

Fantasy that I got inside my head
Reality just hanging on by a thread
And i wrote this song instead of going to bed
Man this rap shit kinda fun maybe i'll do it again

Start a tornado by myself like a Tasmanian devil
Yeah my roads never sturdy its always put in to pebbles
And I like it that way cus I don't want it to be straight
I want people seeing little things and learn how to behave

She pull me closer and told me not to believe it
I told her I heard the word but I needed my eyes to see it
I'm seeing things in my dreams that i never thought i'd be seeing
And seeing those things again start to wonder if it's repeated like

I think about her a lot but i'm insecure of her feelings
I wonder if she's okay like I wonder if i'm the villain
I told her that i'm the problem i'm guessing she don't believe it
I'm telling her i'm her medicine now she say she don't need it like

Maybe I need to sleep but i'm still stuck in my head
The way the pen can hit this pad but not get up from my bed
See all my work and dedication holding on from a thread
I'm holding on with all my might but i'll let go if you said

Not in my feelings i'm just different that's a whole different art
How could you judge me on my music if you not taking part?
How could you hurt me if you never seen me falling apart?
Y'all steady chasing y'all dreams but I like to follow the heart

I'm on a different type of ride, I watch the wave and watch the tide
With the picture on my mind i'm saying "Krillin get your vision straight!"
I see the difference in the time it's cus I couldn't press rewind
Without a vision in my life i'm saying work is better fit for you

Vision's Expedition w/ Krillinsane (Nuhu)

the next race (prod. by onidtnom x 1heyricks)

https://youtu.be/CsHkrGFgkSI?si=zbjE0t3whXV3635k
So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs 

We were on call that day didn't know what to say
And now i contemplate on what i could've then
Would it really be worth it to be more than friends?
Or would you be like the others and it's just start to end?

And love's too complicated and confusing for my heart to be
Gotta look at my life on my watch i'm my own yard duty
Answer my life's questions at my stake like it's jeopardy
It's hard to do when i don't know my own identity

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

These roads are too unstable cus they know i'm the pedestrian 
Said she from the country i'm like shawty you equestrian?
and I'm too inexperienced to call myself a gentleman 
But i guess it's just my life and what i gotta settle with

And when i'm gone
I'll control this music scene with a baton
They try to place me in a box when I'm not
Cus i'm making different moves
And creating different tunes 
What the fuck you got to do?

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs

the next race (prod. by onidtnom x 1heyricks)

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