Gnawing at the bars of my enclosure over these

Ta-da!
Today
The headache finally goes away
The headache finally goes
Ta-da!
Today
I feel the harmony between
My heart and body and my brain
Everything will be okay

And if you ask what bird I want to be
I'll say a blue jay
If you ask what time I want to leave
I'll change the conversation
If you lean in close and kiss me
I won't mind
I’ll probably respond in kind

Ta-da!
Today
I find the energy to play
I find the energy
Ta-da!
Today
I hear a friendly melody
In every enemy refrain
Everything will be okay
Everything will be okay

Ta-da!
Today
I see the light across the bay
Ta-da!
Today
A sudden symphony
is somewhere out there trumpeting my name
Everything will be okay

And if you ask what bird I want to be
I'll say a blue jay
If you ask what time I want to leave
I'll change the conversation
If you lean in close and kiss me
I won't mind
I’ll probably respond in kind
I’ll probably respond in kind
I’ll probably respond in kind
I’ll probably respond in kind.


credits

released January 7, 2022
Music & lyrics by Stephan Nance
Arrangement by Stephan Nance

Piano/vocals - Stephan Nance
Percussion - Mathias Kunzli
Electric bass - Jeni Magana
Trumpet - Jackie Coleman

Mixing & mastering by Thaddeus Moore, Liquid Mixing & Mastering

Recorded in Portland, Los Angeles, and New York

Artwork by Rebecca DeMoss
Graphic design by Chad Lowe

Blue Jay

Waterfall

Rule #21 - Momento Mori

The Much Much How How and I

Wriggle

A fox’s scream can eerily sound like a woman’s scream… why are there some who enjoy hunting them, then?
“Foxcry” explores the scary but real scenario that many feminine presenting folks face: others taking advantage of them, and finding pleasure in their pain. This song acts as a visceral callout to the “hunters” that revel in feminine suffering in a masturbatory way.

LYRICS:
He was a hunter boy-boy
Born with hunter arm-arms
Wringing geese necks
On his Papa’s farm-farm
He was a Mama’s boy-boy
He meant the woman no harm
Slinging pelts over his shoulder
But then he couldn’t shoot straight-straight
Something went wrong
He’d kill critters left and right but never pick ‘em up-up 
Hunter boy-boy to a hungry man-man 
Leaving Momma’s love leftover

You just love to see a woman suffer
When she cries you cup her face and say it’s to comfort
Come
As you slip your hands under your beltline
And use her tears to lubricate a good time
I can feel those eyes sinking into me
You hate it when I sing but you love it when I scream
I know why you shoot with your right hand free
Shoo, hunter boy, go skip your stones in a tree

And we foxes have a common phrase
If he can aim, he will shoot so scurry far away
But what about hunter boys, 
boys who play our game
Makin’ tiny cuts at fur until we’re not the same?

Well
We fair foxes learned to grit our teeth
If it’s screaming but not bleeding, then go back to sleep
In these woods, food is scarce, take what you keep
Be wary but don’t heed a hand that’s willing to feed 

You just love to see a woman suffer
When she cries you cup her face and say it’s to comfort
Come
As you slip your hands under your beltline
And use her tears to lubricate a good time
I can feel those eyes sinking into me
You hate it when I sing but you love it when I scream
I know why you shoot with your right hand free
Shoo, hunter boy, go skip your stones in a tree

There once was a hunter boy-boy
Taking part in hunter thing-things
Getting off to killing foxes ‘cause he liked their femme screams
And he’d say: it wasn’t my fault, fault, fault, was an archer’s paradox
Please still love me momma, momma, please still love me, momma
I didn’t mean to kill that fox

FOXCRY

FOXCRY (Dorm Demo)

jar of sand captures a moment in a bottle, traveling across the waves, all the way to you... reminiscent and rare, this dreamy pop gem pulls you out of the suburbs, into the town square, and leaves you with a summer romance for the ages.

jar of sand

I Am Not a Stranger Here

Varied Thrush

We Own You

A Thousand Songs About It All: Act 1 is out now!
Download/Stream: https://madilynmei.lnk.to/AThousandSongsAboutItAll
Album Merch + Vinyl & CD: https://shop.madilynmei.com/ 
 
Written and Performed by Madilyn Mei 
Produced and Mixed by Scrawny 
Mastered by Joe Hutchinson 
Video Animation by Scrawny 
Intro/Outro Animation by Madilyn Mei & Scrawny 
 
Lyrics:
I am an alien
My rocket ship is human bone and skin
I’m something smaller staring out the skull
With a panel of wire and
Buttons I don't understand
Spamming every one of them
So, does being human mean pretending to know
What’s going on?!
(Hello?)
What's going on?!
(Hellooo? Fine!)

Take me to your leader
I would like to have a couple words
Get your shit together
How do humans keep on getting worse?
I’d go back to space but they've invaded out there too

We’re doomed
(Will anyone tell me what's going on? No? I'm gonna scream!)
(AHHHHHH! Tell me!)

You mock the way I talk
And I might be a little bit behind
Trends and slang and other ways to fit the box
To not be not liked

Once it gets underneath my skin
It's hard to let anyone in
Again my walls go up
I’m on defense, my solitude is
Safer than having friends
Why do I feel alien?!

I am an alien
My rocket ship is human bone and skin
I’m something smaller staring out the skull
Through two big eye sockets
And I just don't understand
How to become one of them
Does being human mean
Pretending to be something you're not?
What's going on?!

Take me to your leader 
I would like to have a couple words
Get your shit together
How do humans keep on getting worse?
I’d go back to space but they've invaded out there too

We’re doomed!

I don't wanna be here
Don't want a body or brain or thoughts of my own
I don't know who’s there in the mirror
Wanna go home
Where is home though?

I don't wanna be her
Dissociate through another day
I don't know who that is standing in the mirror
Everywhere I look I’m alone

I am an alien
My rocket ship is human skin and bone
I’m over trying to fit in
Guess I’ll always be alone
Cause I just don't understand
How to become one of them

How do I be one of
How do I be one of you?

(Is anyone out there? Over.)
(Anyone!? Over.)
(I’m talking to myself, aren't I? AHAHAH. Over!)

How do I be one of
How do I be one of you?

5. Quarters

(1, 2, 3, 4)
Wish I could stick my memories
Under my pillow for a quarter each
Losin’ em like baby teeth anyway
So give me a quarter please

I just want a gumball at the mall

Here I am in a place I’ve never been
All alone, two decades old
My best friend is a cat who is buried in the yard
Across the country safe at home
Wouldn’t you believe the things we do to breathe?
The things we gotta just let go?
Endin’ up again in a place I’ve never been
All alone, two decades old

And I’m excited for Colorado
But not for the altitude
Got real sick last time I went
So I’m giving Mother Earth some attitude
All alone, watchin’ a movie
In some motel in New Jersey
Nobody here can hurt me
They don't know me well enough to

Here I am in a place I’ve never been
All alone, two decades old
Learnin’ different words for the clouds up over head
But the stars are still the same as home
Wouldn't you believe the things we do to breathe?
The things we gotta just let go?
Endin’ up again in a place I’ve never been
All alone, two decades old

I wanna move and never settle down
But I also want a chicken coop and a thousand hounds
Mind if I keep you in my collection?
I gotta build new friendships, new connections

Here I am in some place I’ve never been
All alone, it don't get old
Learnin’ how to cope with the fact it has to end
When I’m out of quarters in my coat
Didn't wanna leave Willy on the scene
Fig will have to learn to float
Startin’ over again in some place I’ve never been
All alone, two decades old

What’s Going On?!

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Lyrics:
Candle wax on my skin
Blood running down my chin
Cannibal vampire maniac
Oh do I sin?

Cover your neck
My hunger's growing rather quickly
Let's dance together on my dirty chapel floor

Treat me like a marionette
With my seams and my stitches and my black corset
Feed me
I'm so very obsessed
Oh, I know
You didn't expect me to show up

Like a rabbit to a wolf
You're engulfed in my lovely canines
And like a rabid dog
I don't know why I bite

Cannibal vampire maniac
My skin is dripping in candle wax
Let's dance together on my dirty chapel floor

Treat me like a marionette
With my seams and my stitches and my black corset
Feed me
I'm so very obsessed
Oh, I know
You didn't expect me to show up

I can't deny that 
someone is guiding me
Oh, the Devil has my instincts in a chokehold
How he treats me

Treat me like a marionette
With my seams and my stitches and my black corset
Feed me
I'm so very obsessed
Oh, I know
You didn't expect me to show up

Sin Woven Puppet

A Thousand Songs About It All: Act 1 is out now!
Download/Stream: https://madilynmei.lnk.to/AThousandSongsAboutItAll
Album Merch + Vinyl & CD: https://shop.madilynmei.com/ 
 
Written and Performed by Madilyn Mei 
Produced and Mixed by Scrawny 
Mastered by Joe Hutchinson 
Video Animation by Scrawny 
Intro/Outro Animation by Madilyn Mei & Scrawny 
 
Lyrics:
No time to waste
Gonna be late for fate
You know what they say ‘bout bright flames
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace you
Replicate
AI generate you
 
No time to waste
Gonna be late for fate
You know what they say ‘bout bright flames
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace you
Replicate
AI generate
 
I don't know the things I wanna say until I say it
I hate it till I play it
Up on stage and see your faces
Let go of the reins
Now my whole brain’s a one man circus
This has to be my fate
It’s my only sense of purpose
 
Make it a character
You're her but you're not her

No you can’t take a day
You’re our brightest flame
No you can’t change your name
You’re our brightest flame, woah!
 
I don't know which way to go
So I continue forward

The pure and utter horror
Realizing I left me behind
I'm lonelier than ever
But I guess that's for the better
Time to kill and bills to pay
And plenty things to write

I’m just a little not myself lately
Too late to contemplate
You chose your fate
Maybe I should
 
Make it a character
You're her but you're not her

No you can’t take a day
You’re our brightest flame
No you can’t change your name
You’re our brightest flame
No you can’t take a day
You’re our brightest flame
No you can’t change your name
You’re our brightest flame

I’m done, I’ve just begun (la la la)
Why am I burning out?
Did I fly too close to the sun? (la la la)
Why am I burning out?
It was just starting to get fun (la la la)
Why am I slowing down?
Why am I burning out? (la la la)
Why am I burning?
It’s burning
 
No time to waste
Gonna be late for fate
I know what they say ‘bout bright flames
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace me
Replicate
AI generate me
 
Gotta keep up
I’m eating my own dust
Don’t know what to do or to trust
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace me
Replicate
AI generate

No time to waste (I don’t know if I can go on)
Gonna be late for fate
You know what they ‘bout bright flames
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace you
Replicate
AI generate you
 
No time to waste (but I know the show must go on)
Gonna be late for fate
You know what they ‘bout bright flames
Gonna burn out
They gonna replace you
Replicate
AI generate
 
I don't know which way to go
So I continue forward
The pure and utter horror
Realizing I left me behind
 
I could write
A thousand songs about it all
I've just begun, now I can't stop
Lose your mind
Stay who you’re not
But the brightest of flames
Burn half as long

A Thousand Songs About It All: Act 1

My Only Sense Of Purpose

Neither in the street nor in death nor if you go some place where nobody can see you….

Rubio’s Lament

Zydrate Anatomy - Paris Hilton

PLAYBOY MANBABY x BEAR GHOST_FIGHT MY CLONE_MASTER_48k_24bit_9.15.2025

Wake up and look out the window
Half the yard is burning and
The other half is covered in snow

Is it Arbor Day?
Is it Boxing Day?
I’m sure today must be a
Minor holiday

Season’s grievings to us, one and all
Once we get the hang of it
We’ll forget to get upset

Bearing each unsettling new pall
So adaptable
We’re so adaptable

So adaptable
We’re so adaptable
As the world is ending
We can keep pretending

That none of this will matter in an hour
First we lose the polar bears
Now we lose the flowers

Not a summer’s day
Not a winter’s day
Not a summer’s day
Not a winter’s day
Shall I compare thee to
The Judgment Day?

Is it All Saints’ Day?
Is it All Souls’ Day?
Is it All Fools’ Day?
Is it All Saints’ Day?
Is It All Souls’ Day?
Is it All Fools’ Day?

Is it Arbor Day?
Is it Boxing Day?
I’m sure today must be a
Minor holiday

And the world is ending
And we keep pretending
That none of this will matter in an hour

---

Music & lyrics by Stephan Nance
Arrangement by Stephan Nance

Piano/vocals - Stephan Nance
Percussion - Mathias Kunzli
Strings - Yoed Nir
Upright bass - Jeni Magana
Backing vocals - Greta Gertler
Clarinet - Lisa Parrott

Mixing & mastering by Thaddeus Moore, Liquid Mixing & Mastering

Recorded in Portland, Los Angeles, New York, and Sydney, Australia!

Minor Holiday

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